Love -ing You
The autumn wind

What right do I have to be angry, the feeling that is in my heart only I know .When I look at their photos from Zoy my heart feels very sick, drugs that I haven't eaten in weeks, that night should stay in my stomach ,but it feels like my heart is not less painful .

"Look at them having a romantic dinner by the beach "

Sandra uploaded their every togetherness on her social media account .

It's the night I hear Yeol is coming home soon, I'll pack up and change clothes ,actually my departure schedule to Japan tomorrow morning but I can't be ordinary when I meet her later .

"Where are you going Hana ?"

Brother Rin may have strangely seen my behavior that night .

"I'm going to Japan tonight "

"Not tomorrow "

"There is something urgent that I must leave immediately "

It's not wrong to love someone, it's just that I don't know a place and love people's lovers .As usual I brought nothing but documents and a laptop maybe after returning home from Japan later I will resign from this event , ' he said ,I can no longer cope with the feelings that are growing deeper every day, maybe it just takes time to heal and eliminate my feelings .

"Where are you going ?"

"I'm going to Japan this Zoy urges "

"Don't forget his souvenirs again brother hehe"

"Yes Han, don't forget "

Everyone is gathered on the second floor .I take the gift stored in the dresser drawer and then I put it in the paper bag .

"Maxx can please give this to Yeol later "

At that time Maxx was closest to me, so I left Yeol's birthday gift on her .

"What is this ?"

He peeked inside his contents .

"His birthday gift "

Maxx nodded I understood, Jimi sent a message that he was waiting in front of the house .

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One step became very heavy, when all the burdens in my heart moved and now rested in the eyes, the autumn wind blew carrying a heart that seemed to fall .He came at that time, how could his smile still be as sweet as that, some time we were swept away in the gaze , this is longing but painful .I bowed my body just say hello without saying anything, I ignored him who even called my name, there was a car and Jimi waiting, he said, I could no longer hold back my tears I was afraid when I turned to look back she would be confused seeing me cry .Yeol just got up to her sitting in the steering chair with the car door open, staring at me from there .

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The rain started to fall, I saw the droplets flow small on the window glass of the car, making the dew make blurry .Maybe Jimi was confused by my attitude but he didn't ask me anything ,my mood is always easy to change but I think that mental illness has healed enough just that one-sided love is more painful than that .

"You brought your medicine ?"

"I brought her "

"Well what's wrong ?"

We were still on our way to the airport, the rain was pouring down the city of Seoul that night, Yeol's question mark was still clearly visible .

"I like Yeol "

"Do you really like someone thank God "

"It's okay, right ?"

"Wait for Yeol to have a boyfriend, how can you ,,?"

"Don't talk about it anymore, I don't want to tell you more about it "

"Hmmmm well, don't think liking someone is natural, I'm glad you're normal at least"

"Is that a compliment ?"

In an emotionally draining situation Jimi can still ask me to joke .

Arriving in Japan I easily drowned in the busyness and a little forgot my feelings , Kake began to invite me to important meetings ,he introduced me to some of his business colleagues who came from several neighboring countries including Korea, slowly I know Kake began to want to little by little give up his company to me ,his health condition has greatly decreased his heart disease can not be overcome by doing surgery again .With such circumstances ready not ready I also have to start preparing myself, compared to love affairs this is much bigger right ?.

Five days passed with a lot of busyness, even I did not have time to open the phone Jimi also contact me through the phone company .I leaned back on the massage chair near the fish pond in the house kake, orange color ceiling it always fascinates the trees that surround the back of the house has also lived twigs all ,it's late autumn .

"Are you busy "------- 5 days ago 09:00 PM

"Why thank you for the bracelet I like so much, why did you leave it to someone else, why not directly on me?" --------------5 days ago 09:30 PM

"Ahhh you're so busy apparently?"------- 4 days ago 01:00 AM

"Hana?"---------- 3 days ago 04:20 Am

"Hana I was bored "--------- 3 days ago 07:10 PM

"Hana you were mad at me "--------2 days ago 03:00 AM

"Hana pick up my phone!!" ------------- 2 days ago 08:50 PM

"I miss nu , forgive me "------1 day ago 09:55 PM

"When are you home?"-------- these days 02:20 AM

"Sorry "--------- these days 04:03 AM

My eyes were perfectly rounded when I opened my phone and got a message notification from Yeol, why are there so many missed incoming calls from her .Almost the phone I was holding fell into the pool when suddenly he called me back, how much this is what I refused, but later he will be very confused .I took a deep breath and with a strong determination I picked up the phone from her .

"You finally picked up "

"Hallo "

"Why didn't you respond to my call ?"

Calm the heart, just hearing his voice I was so happy .

"I'm very busy here "

"I thought you were angry at me "

"Why am I mad at you ?"

"It could be because, ', ''n his akh poko I'm glad you answered my call "

What right do I have to be angry at you, can you not be nice to me ?.You're too good to be a jerk Yeol .

"What's up ?"

"You're really mad at me ?"

Yeol's voice sounded frustrated with my cold demeanor.

"Why am I angry at you ?"

"Color I go with sandra "

"Then "

"He forced me to come along and there wasn't just the two of us, there were his friends .She took me there for a couple photo session, celebrating my birthday was just an excuse .We don't sleep together either "

Again the woman took advantage of Yeol, I'm more unwilling they are together .Should I take him from her .

"Then why should I be angry ?"

Yes I'm angry, do I have to be honest and be pathetic .

Yeol fell silent, am I being too hard on her like she knows I am angry because of that, is she aware of my feelings .

"What are you doing ?"

Finally I couldn't bear to start asking him to switch the conversation .

"Emmm I'm in the music studio, are you ?"

"I was sitting in an incandescent chair "

"What's tiring in Japan, what are you doing ?"

"There is no work that is not tiring, but this is a good tired .I'm helping my Kake business "

"Really, what effort ?"

"Emmm just selling "

"Ahhhh quickly go home later I treat "

"Sausage?, I don't want "

"Not , the staple good food "

Strange indeed the pain seemed to disappear from my heart, hearing his voice made me feel he was mine, ironically not at all .Is Yeol always this nice to the other residents of his house, is he just nice to me, why falling in love can be this sick .