Love -ing You
Heartbreaker

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Finally I went back inside the black hole I made myself, crying while holding back the sobs you might hear .I hope the wind stops blowing, what should I do if my heart blows towards you .Like raindrops hitting your head, my feelings for you are already inescapable .

My first love was over, in the blanket I cried with a sob that I held, brother Rin was asleep and I was afraid he heard her, her eyes still clearly I remember ,even though he defended me it didn't change anything about our relationship ', the feeling was only one way and that was me .What should I do after this, maybe avoid it as much as I can, but until when ?.

"Where are you okay, are you having nightmares ?"

It's almost dawn and I haven't slept at all 'that's when Rin's sister woke up she heard my crying .I doubtfully lift the blanket that covers my head .

"I'm okay brother "

"It's okay like mana, your eyes are careless and your voice is so hoarse "

She looked at me worriedly, it made my tears flow more and more, I couldn't control my feelings. Brother Rin went to the kitchen and snorted warm tea for me.

"You can tell me anything if you want to "

We're in the dressing room because I don't want this to happen on camera .

"I've just been heartbroken from my first love "

"Who's the guy who dared hurt you ?"

We both sat on the floor with the hairy carpet of the room .

"She already has a lover and I sassyly like her, they quarreled because of me .I expressed my feelings to her , It's obvious that my love claps one hand, I don't want to be a bad woman "

Brother Rin immediately embraced me, stroking my back gently .

"It's okay that heartbreak is normal, but how can a woman your age feel first love ?"

"I didn't know it was my first time like this ?every time I saw her smile my heart always felt a warmth ,how am I facing her now ?"

"Heyy falling in love is not a crime, you've revealed it's a good one "

Gently Rin's foot wiped the tears on my cheek.He was very good to make me more emotional.

"But he already has a girlfriend "

"They're just dating unmarried Hana , if you're sincere about her you won't expect a reply .What if he likes you too ?"

"You're right I shouldn't expect a reply from her, I just love her that's it .Where she might like me "

"Whatever you do is love people, you don't do evil, broken heart it's normal you can be sad and cry but after that you have to move on ,it's better to live with someone who loves you than with someone who doesn't love you "

Either the power from where, after being advised by brother Rin my feelings become more relieved, even after her I can sleep soundly .I don't know what time I wake up, my head feels so dizzy ,all the joints in my body feel very painful like I'm going to get the flu maybe because in the cold water flush during that cold weather last night, akh I'm sorry to remember it back .

I chose to hang on under the covers waiting for everyone to leave the house especially Yeol, I don't think I'm ready to meet her yet .Then someone went into room 'I thought it was Rin's sister who would wake me up but it wasn't .

"Where are you up ?"

Oh my god, the typical heavy voice, why did Yeol come to my room, I better pretend to sleep instead .

"Are you sick ? "

He apparently brought me breakfast, put it on the bedside table and then sat on the side of the bed right near my face .

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"Hana, are you mad at me, sorry about last night"

"You have a fever, you wake up and eat his porridge, I'll take the medicine under "

"It's okay, I'll eat this and take my own medicine .Please let me rest "

It's my way of preventing her from coming back, I don't want to misinterpret her kindness .

"At least get up first and eat her porridge afterwards I'll let you rest "

I really don't want him to see me in this state 'my eyes must be so bright my nose is red too 'if he knows I'm crying over how embarrassing it is ,and even worse, my face must be very ugly now .

"I know you're up, wake up Hana "

Oh no he pulled my blanket forcibly, what's wrong with him why he didn't let me alone, after a moment of silence we just looked at each other he looked shocked to see my situation .

"Yeolls "

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"Why the hell with you, why are your eyes so swollen, your nose is also, you go to the hospital now "

He immediately panicked to see my face, how bad is it ?.

"I'm fine, why are you pulling my blanket this shameful "

I pull back the blanket and cover all my body .But again Yeol pulled her .

"Why are you, who's sick, let's go to the hospital now ?"

Yeol cupped my cheeks with both of her big palms, forcing me to look into her eyes which was very serious worrying me and at that moment a feeling of tightness filled my chest, my eyes were sore and watering again .

"I'm okay "

With a trembling voice holding back my cries trying to escape from her, I pushed her body away , then woke up and immediately entered the bathroom , I washed my face so as not to cry back. Brother Rin as her coming over sounds she chatted with Yeol .

"Why ?, her eyes swollen her nose red she also has fever, I'm afraid she seems to have to be taken to the hospital "

"It's okay he's heartbroken "

"Break heart ?"

No please don't tell him that please . What if he knows .

"Yes, the person he likes has a lover, but he has his first love "

"Ahhhhh, is that right ? "

Akhhhhh how this is so bad, why brother Rin said it , I am now more embarrassed if I meet him .Should I just leave this house, but the employment contract was only 2 weeks away yesterday they did not approve my intention to resign early .

"Sister Rin "

After Yeol came out I slowly walked out of the bathroom.

"You're okay, Yeol said you had a fever "

"Why did Kaka say that to her ?"

"It's okay he'll help you "

Kaka doesn't even know if the person I like is him, how he petrified me .Everything's fucked up now. Where should I hide.