Love -ing You
Returnees

I often felt it , was present without being wanted, thrown away without knowing what was my fault & this was the toughest point in my life .When we don't get in the mold of someone else's standard, we'll be stamped as a failure and then thrown away .That's how I am, they're not just throwing me away, they're destroying everything that's left of me .

When things got dark, I almost went crazy .Their words that hurt me inexplicably always ring in my head, the days after that I kept hiding and now everything feels suffocating me, making a tightness make me careless .I sliced my wrist it didn't hurt at all 'When the blood started dripping 'I felt better and when everything started to look blurry ' I smiled looking forward to the end .In my heart I apologized to myself, I can only endure until this second, I just want to get away from a place where there was never love for me .

"Foolish base, what are you doing ?"

Damn, it turns out God is not satisfied to torture me .Jim cried beside me my wrist was wrapped in a white bandage, he saved me who wanted to die Jimi managed to find me and took me to the hospital .No words said, I was just busy with my thoughts, with all the fear of the moment .And a stranger-looking man came over to me and Jimi, he offered me sweet wishes, he promised to avenge everything that happened to me , of course it's not upset I have to follow his wishes ,exactly the wishes of the person behind her .

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Four years passed , the world may have changed a lot but not with me .I became afraid of all things, crowds and strangers, I always avoided it .Humans are scarier than ghosts I'm afraid someone will hurt me .

Just one year ago I returned to Korea, exactly to the city of Seoul where I had avoided the most for three years before her ,the day I tried to end my life was my last day before moving to Japan .During the three years I was there learning many things about my Kake business and company, he was the parent of my late father .He used to hate me so much and mom he didn't like my parents' marriage until he forcefully kicked Dad out .I thought he was still as hateful as he used to be, but I was surprised it turned out that he noticed me and asked me to go to Japan .He knows all the things that have befallen me, he could have retaliated with all the power he has, but I don't want that .I'm sure it will all come out on its own, everyone will know in the end who really deserves to be hated, and until then I want to prepare myself ,doing my best makes me so much better .

During those few years I was only focused on my life and also the agency I just built with Jimi my former group manager ,Kake I sponsored and supported what I was doing as long as I took over the business in Japan .

After losing all my dreams and dying of depression I never thought I'd like someone and fall in love, such an amazing feeling I didn't expect it much, until I met him , ' 'til I met him ,first love of my life .After all that befell me, something began to grow and bloom in my heart .

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Autumn night ,the rain just stopped leaving its wet trail everywhere ,the cold air of the night was getting colder course .This is the most upsetting day of my life, I've never felt angry and longed like that before .The clock shows the day will end soon, my eyes can not be invited to compromise even my stomach is also, the bottom of it in the kitchen is absolutely no leftovers available , the other residents had already partied before finally sleeping with their swollen bellies .With the growing annoyance I took a thick coat in my room, it looks like I have to go to the mini market in front of the housing complex to prop my stomach with instant food there .

Once there I take two sausages and an instant noodle, I put the two sausages in the microwave and I brew instant noodles with the hot water available there ,while waiting for the food to ripen I looked around there was only me and the workers there, just because it was almost midnight .I sat in that mini-market outdoor chair and started eating the sausage slowly .

"What are the nights here "

The heavy voice and warm touch of his hand on my shoulder, obviously I know who he is .Didn't she just go after her lover in a hurry .He surprised me a little .

"Yeol, why is it here?, I'm eating "

"Ahhh, wahhh it looks good "

He took one of my sausages and ate it without asking me for it, his handsome face always hypnotized me, making me want it even more .Until I remember what happened before her and I get pissed back .

"Why, is there anything on my face "

I was at most my face from her, always a habit I was washed away when looking at her .

"Is there anything that bothers you ?"

"No, I'm fine "

You're the one who always bothers me Yeol and it weighs on me, that strange feeling keeps popping up and rumbling in my heart when it's near you .You already have a boyfriend and I know, you can't possibly like me .

BYUUUUURRRRRR

"Akhhhhhhhh, what is this ?"

When I turned around I found Sandra there, Yeol's lover .He doused me with a big bottle of mineral water .

"You deserve her, you're not just a bully but a seductress" too "

"What are you doing, are you crazy ?"

Yeol also looked very surprised, I don't know what makes the woman who is now staring at me so much look hate me .

"It's not me who's crazy but him and you Yeol, I know because of him you've changed because he's all like this "

"Aren't you ashamed to blame Hana so much, it's obvious you were with that guy at the club "

"That's because I'm sick of your attitude, you don't love me, your attitude is better when you're with her a shameless seductress "

Haven't heard such a scolding in a long time, it's just that I'm dealing with a woman like her .I'm starting to wonder why Yeol could be stuck with her .

"Take your word "

"Why don't you like to hear me insult her, open your eyes Yeol she likes you too she wants you just like me "

I'm getting upset, I don't like him yelling at Yeol like that .

"Yes I do like Yeol, I love her, what a sin, I have no intention of taking her from you .You're a stupid woman who wastes her, you always force her to follow your will, to be the man you want to be ,you're a stupid woman who only cares about your image your career you don't care about Yeol "

"Did you say "

He almost slapped me, if only Yeol could not fend him off with one hand . I'm glad Yeol is finally free of a fox woman like her, but after this what I have to do, I clearly express my feelings .

Alternately I looked at Yeol and the woman went away with a thousand steps immediately flowed from that place ,I began to realize who I was as a person as I could be with the perfect one who was far from tall .

It all started three months ago 'in a beautiful early spring when Jimi dragged me to join a television perogram that brought me to him Park Yeol my first love ,all this happened .

Park Yeol