Love -ing You
Early meet

The spring flower festival was becoming the hottest topic this morning, a journalist was bringing her news with enthusiasm .The sun has just risen and the weather is predicted to be sunny today .I was awake but lazy to do anything just struggling under a thick blanket, while checking the contents of my phone filled with incoming message notifications .I heard someone go into the room, obviously I know who he is, who else if not my annoying assistant Jimi .

"Yes, you didn't listen to me, you haven't packed your stuff .Get up and we'll talk "

He never let my morning calm down even once .

"I'm not going to be on that show "

I answered lazily while continuing to hold on to my position, the most comfortable place in the world on my bed with a thick blanket .

"Yakkkk"

Jimi forcibly pulled the blanket that covered my body, and I was forced to get up and get ready to listen to his rant this morning .

"At least do this for the future of our agency, you have to improve your image for our artist .You have to be brave now you're not the Hana you used to be able to fight them, please just this time "

After the events of 4 years ago I started to limit the outside world in my life , several times I went to the psychiatrist got some medicine and treatment , I had panic disorder , the outside world scared me .

"You have to start facing everything, don't keep hiding, start their opponents "

What Jimi said was true, I had to get out of the prison I made myself, start facing everything head on but I was too scared ,can I do it .Although I doubtfully nod my head with a limp sign of agreement .Jimi's smile began to scatter him with his zeal to pick up the suitcase and begin to put my things in .I'm not sure this is true but at least I'll try it once .

This is a reality show that presents the daily lives of celebrities from various fields of expertise, living in one house together for more than four months .The camera will be on for 24 hours recording all our activities later .Honestly I was not ready my panic disorder could have relapsed at any time, I was also afraid they would not accept me let alone the bad image still attached to me .

After everything was ready Jimi drove me to the house, we traveled approximately 30 minutes from downtown Seoul to the elite residential area in Gangnam ,during that trip I just fell silent back busy with all the thoughts and fear in my head .

"You've brought your medicine, haven't you ?"

"It's "

"Remember you have to smile don't put on a sour face like this "

"Yes yes boss, who is the boss here ? "

Jimi smiled at my frustration, he is more powerful than I am now , maybe this is the reason he quit my job to register my group first and then chose to follow me even to Japan ,it seems like he wants to do his best to me ,let alone my kake supports him .

We get there at noon , I think I'm the first one to come .The house is quite large with two floors, the design is luxurious with glass walls everywhere and of course cameras installed in every corner of the house .I went in alone because Jimi had to go back to my agency building to take care of some work .The yard of his house is spacious with a park bench and a swing, I put a key that Jimi gave into the door hole and opened ,I entered the house by dragging one suitcase and a bag across the body .

"Excuse me !!"

Right there's only me here, key ring that I can say number 4 maybe it's my room number here , I started looking for the room on the first floor but I can't find it ,then I went up to the second floor my eyes couldn't stop seeing every crack in the big house everything was so modern .

"This is my room "

I had to make a monologue, no matter how much movement I watched in this house, my room was at the corner on the second floor facing room number 3 .After confirming the room I was going to occupy I returned to the first floor to pick up the suitcase I left .

Someone came to open the door when I got there , we almost collided , that was enough to surprise me especially when I knew who he was , a famous top idol Yeol .Park Yeol from ERI who does not know him , a multitalented man with a myriad of talents and for sure he is very handsome , I am more surprised at his making so speechless .

"Ahh sorry to surprise you, you residents here too ?"

I just nudged to answer her question, my brain suddenly blunted at that moment .I did meet her a few times when we were an agency, but it's been a long time 'does she know me .

"Include me Yeol from ERI please help her "

He thrust his hand at me. When I was silent I was unusual with strangers, this was my fear, but I had to face it disrespectfully ignoring the greetings of people ,my image could be worse .I replied and shook his hand .

"Hallo I'm Hana "

"Hana that one.ah sorry  "

I know what he means, maybe he doesn't feel good calling me a former member of the Flawers .

"I'm Hana, former member of the group Flawers "

He looks awkward scratching his head which may not be itchy at all .Is he afraid of me, is he going to hate me, what is the first impression he sees of me .The thought kept spinning in my head .

"I'm sorry but I have to take my suitcase to my room "

I better get out of his presence soon .

"Let me help you "

He lifted my suitcase upstairs happily, regardless of his own suitcase .

"Ahh no need, it's a bother to you "

"It's okay, we have to help each other from now on "

"Then I'll bring your suitcase "

"Hahaha don't "

"Why shouldn't we help each other ?"

Why did he laugh, wasn't that his words just now .But then he replied with a smile .Made all my worries disappear .

"My suitcase is very heavy so just leave it "

It was the warmest smile I had ever felt, not because it was so beautiful but there was a stranger running through my heart, it was the most sincere smile I had first gotten from a stranger like her .I didn't know what I was feeling at the time 'til I finally realized I liked it even during our first meeting .