Love -ing You
Joy Gossip

I went into the room, opened the suitcase and started to break it .It's not normal for my heart to beat so fast since meeting Yeol just now, I grab a small bag on the dresser and then go in the bathroom and take the medicine I kept there ,just that place that's not on camera, I don't want anyone else to know my condition .

"If you need help just call me , our room is facing off "

Smile again, why can not be lost from the head, clearly this is not a panic disorder , even after taking my heart medicine still pounding .I diverted my mind by starting to tidy up luggage, this room is quite comfortable with two beds of medium size, a large bathroom with a dressing room equipped with two cabinets .I chose a bed at the end near a large glass window with a balcony leading to the front yard of the house .Who is my roommate about, I hope she is nice and likes me .

Tok tok tok tok

Whether it was Yeol, I hesitantly approached the door of the room and opened it, it was really her, look at her smiling like that again .

"I don't know if it's important, I seem to have to get out there's work I have to do, is that okay ? "

"Of course it's your job, go be careful on the road "

I tried to return her smile with my stiff face, what it looks awkward in her eyes .

The day began to run late in the afternoon and other residents began to arrive, I was still staying in the room because I was confused what to do, I was afraid they would not accept me well ,but I couldn't keep going there, I squeezed the end of the shirt I was wearing and then slowly started to step out of it .

"Hallo good day ?"

There were two men sitting on the sofa of the middle room of the second floor, they immediately turned their heads and looked at me quite surprised .

"Hallo, you're Hana, right ?"

"He's Hana former agota flowers, I know from the PD it's true you participated in this show "

They seemed to be discussing me, they knew me but I didn't know them .

"Ahh we even chatted together, I know Biin and this is actor Jespher "

"I'm Hana "

"Wahhhh you're prettier than the photo, this is the first time we've met "

Kak Biin is much older than me while Jespher is the same age as me, they are a host and actor, I don't know enough because I rarely watch television .And after his other members also began to arrive in total there are 10 people five men and five women, I roomed with brother Rin a senior model whose luck is very good on me , ' he said ,he helped me a lot during my stay there and he was also the only resident of this house who knew about my troubled mental state .

"Don't you have your own agency now ?"

"Yes, brother ,"

"Great young man has made it that far "

"It's just a small agency, I'm still learning a lot "

We chatted before going to bed while lying on each other's mattresses .

"You are so beautiful Hana, you remind me of the old me .I used to be like you, look cold and have a lot of fears .The world was so cruel to me that was growing up at the time, you also experienced it, only you rose again faster unlike me who was so lame "

"Why talk so 'then is a famous and talented model .It's very difficult to make a contract with you "

"Contract, do you ever want to work with me "

"Not me, that's what people say "

I'm nervous , Kake's role I ever wanted to mamaki her as a model, but it didn't work out she very selectively chose her job .I don't want Rin to misunderstand that, I don't want her to know that right away .I'm very comfortable with him, I just want him to know me for who I am .

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One day has passed , turns out not so difficult , they are good enough to accept me and not bring up my past .Everyone in this house is a great person Kak Rin is a top model there is also Ruby ballet dancer who is the same age as me, then Yoona and Zoy they are rising idols. Zoy's the youngest here. And five other men there is sister Biin ,Jespher ,Yeol ,Maxx , and Mr. Kim .merka all great people, even Mr. Kim is a famous lawyer who often appears on television ,he is the wisest here .

I'm used to getting up in the morning even though I don't do anything and just stay in my bed . This morning was a little different at first I was surprised when I woke up to find a room that was still unfamiliar to me, especially when I heard someone snoring not far from me .

"I'm in this house "

Saying myself while slightly tidying my hair, after my bath try to go down to the bottom floor, the kitchen is on the bottom corner of this house ,I was so hungry the last time I ate was in the apartment before leaving here .I opened the refrigerator, it was pretty much like the staff who bought it, I took out eggs, kol ,sawi , tomatoes , bargaining bread and thin pieces of beef .I'll make toast before I go to work, I need to make it for them .

I started cutting the vegetables to be as thin as possible, heating the pan and sprinkling the buter into it and then started cooking .

"What are you doing ?"

"Ahhh surprised me "

"Hehe sorry "

"I'm making breakfast, you want ?"

Actually it's a little awkward but I have to start getting used to it .

"By , I'll have breakfast before bed "

Yeol just came home from work , she was filming from noon to dawn , surely this is very heavy for her .I accelerated the cooking process he looked very sleepy and exhausted .

"This is eating "

I'll give you a plate of toast and a glass of fresh milk .

"Thank you, welcome to eat "

He started devouring his food, I just quietly wanted to know what it felt right for him, or not good .

"Emmm very delicious "

Her smile expanded, I started eating mine .

"It looks like I'm going to sleep well today "

Smile again, just look at him I already know he's a good man .As long as I stay there Yeol is the most spoiled and ignorant of me, she will ask me to cook for her at midnight coming home from work ,even he unhesitatingly asked me to make provisions for him, of course I can not refuse at all , especially if he smiled like that .

I got a new family there, we take care of each other and care for each other, no one ever cared how I used to be 'they weren't the same as the people who judged me .

"Sir Hana you know Sana was a member of the flawers who yesterday came out of the group 'you see the news he made something on social media he said he was in the bully in this news group is a scene now"

Zoy who just came home immediately pulled us .I, brother Rin, and Ruby went to the back garden of the house, which is where we gossiped about someone even though I never had a conversation and nodded so that the conversation would be over quickly,there's no surveillance cameras in there so we're free to do anything .The gossip he brought this time was enough to make me interested .

"Try to see his social media accounts "

"I don't have a social media account "

Everyone looked at me, what a weird thing about not having social media .

"Well if you live in a cave, my God you're really quiet as to where they can accuse you of bullying, I've guessed something's wrong with the group  "

"You're like Mr. Kim, the lawyer in this house Zoy haha"

True what Rin said, Zoya always totality in telling stories he will stir with hands pointing . He always brings joy in this house unlike me who is ice cold.

"It's true, I've seen it myself "

Somehow I followed his instructions we started to look down on Zoy who was sitting in the middle .

"In the waiting room I've heard one member slap another member, at that time our room is next door I don't know who exactly hit and hit at 'em ,you know who it is ?"

Now everyone is staring at me .

"I don't know, I'm not there anymore "

"Surely I know who is the most powerful there "

"What Sana wrote on social media was true "

All immediately smother each mouth so surprised his .

"Nobody believed me first, he's the same as the others "

They looked at me with a gaze I had never seen before, even Ruby turned her face to wipe the tears on her cheek .