Love -ing You
Your smile

In the end the truth is always revealed , whether it takes a long time or a while no matter how hard we deny , the truth always presents itself .Like now I hardly care about the problem , try as best as possible to live my day despite the weight , passing the day by continuing to hear the insults of people who are clear nonsense .

There the youngest member in the group of flawers came out of the group in a way that was almost similar to mine, he was actually the same as those who used to hurt me ,I still remember how he treated me, and after I left the cursed group I was sure he was the one who became the slave ,that's because she's the youngest and most beautiful, of course they don't like her .

"Hana, how much is this ? "

I was in the workspace evaluating the weekly scores of all the trainees in my agency, and Jimi came up with a puzzled face mimic .

"What's wrong, has anyone been hurt again ?"

"There's a place in the lobby "

I had guessed that he would definitely come to me, want this time if he wanted to make allies to fight them .

"She begged to see you, I've rejected her but she's still chuckling and quiet outside "

"Send him in "

"You sure ?"

"It's okay "

After that Jimi came out and then a while later he went back in with Sana .She didn't change much I always remember their faces former members of my group 'Sana walked over to me then sat on my front sofa ,she smiled awkwardly what expression should I show her I can't act .I got up from the chair and walked up to the sofa in the middle of the room and sat on the sofa in front of her .

"How are you, brother ?"

"Good "

"You haven't changed much, you've always been pretty like you used to be, even though it still looks cold"

At that time somehow my chest tightened back, all the events in the past seemed to spin back in the head, the pain came back to attack me .

"Maybe it's karma for me, I used to be so mean to you and after Kaka left they started torturing me just like they did to you "

"Then why did you come to me "

She wiped away the tears that ran down her cheeks, then walked towards me and knelt right in front of me .

"What are you doing ? "

"I'm sorry, I know it's too late I know you're suffering more than I am now forgive me brother "

She cried while covering her face with both palms, I felt nothing no pity or sadness in my heart .

"I'm about to die, your actions have killed me once, buried my world, I'm not a good person who will easily forgive you, you'd better go home now "

"Son "

"Go home, I can't help you "

After that I got up from the sofa and walked out of the room leaving Sana who was still kneeling, I still heard her cries ,my hands shook violently I ran into the toilet taking my medicine there, even their actions still make me suffer to this day, by not forgiving his deeds that is how I punished him ,he must know how frightening men are, how their deeds are more painful than poison though I have struggled for years with the pain of their actions ,even today I still struggle against my own weak self, I do not want to give up and make happy people who hate me .

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At 10:30 pm, I just got home my job at the office became a mess because Sana came, after riding the last bus I walked from the front of the housing complex stop ,I see from the front the lights of the house are still on, like they can not sleep .

"Good night "

Everyone looked at me who had just arrived, I saw that they were eating pizza, I got hungry when I saw it, but where Yeol did he not come home .

"Here eat pizza together"

"Yes "

My smile spread to me sitting next to Rin's sister then she gave me a big slice of pizza with a topping of cuts of meat and cheese .

"Don't you, why just go home what your job is a lot "

"Enak, today there was a problem that appeared unexpected so I was too late to go home "

They already knew I always came home at exactly 08;00 pm, Zoy who was sitting not far from me immediately got up and whispered something to the ear .

"You know this pizza from his girlfriend Yeol brother, he had come to pick up Yeol's brother while carrying 3 large boxes of pizza "

"Uhukkkk uhukkk "

I coughed so surprised her .Zoy immediately gave me a glass of water .

"He's got a girlfriend ?"

"You don't know, my God. True also you do not have social media, they have been dating for about a year , the name is Sandra she is a member of the famous flix group, even their fans approve it great right "

My mind was instantly empty the hunger was instantly gone, I put the pizza back in the box .The strange feeling was heartbreaking, it was not an ordinary pain , it was foreign and made me more uncomfortable , my heart was hot and tight even though I was taking the medicine it did not go away .

"They're going to a party, make envy "

He already has a lover the fact that makes me very surprised, how much can I not know, how can I be interested in a man who already has a lover .One by one the residents of the house went and went to their respective rooms, I was the same after bathing and changing clothes I laid my body on the bed kak Rin had already slept . Until late at midnight I was still awake a lot of surprising things today, strangely I was more surprised to hear Yeol had a lover than Sana who came to the agency building this afternoon ,what happened to me, is my mental illness getting worse ?.

I have no appetite but my stomach needs something to digest , from morning just a slice of sandwich went into my stomach and it was a bite of his extra pizza ,my stomach was rumbling and a little sore with the force of me to get up and walk towards the kitchen .As I walked down the stairs I heard the sound of the car stopping right in front of the house, the color of this house has many glass windows I could see those who came down from that luxury car .

"Yeol ?"

That's right she's, and a woman who must be named Sandra, she's very pretty and graceful in a fancy red dress, she's escorting Yeol to the front of the gate ,my heart grew claustrophobic especially when she briefly kissed Yeol's thin lips .Angry, I'm very angry but what right I have, I rushed to the kitchen to get a banana and a glass of warm water lest he know I'm still awake, but damn it .

"Hana ?"

"Oh my god !!!"

"Hehe you're always surprised when I call you "

I was mad at him without knowing because, I really hate to see that scene .But when he saw his smile somehow the anger suddenly subsided, what's wrong with me .

"Why haven't you slept ?"

"I'm going to get some water "

I better get back to room soon, can be crazy long-time close to her .

"Hana "

What else ,why all of a sudden he pulled my hand .

"What ?"

"I'm hungry make me ramyeon "

"Aren't you out of the party "

"I don't like party food please make ya please  "

It turned out that Yeol was carrying something in her hands, she then raised it with her distinctive smile which was very sweet in my eyes .

"I bought a lot of sausages, I know you like it "

And again I can't refuse her, as much as there can be a human as sweet as her, when I forget the cause of my anger at her I instantly return happy when with her ,this feeling is cheating because only I continue to love her without a reply .

I fried the sausage that had been cut into pieces with onions, then I put instant noodles into the boiling water ,Yeol helped me by flipping and stirring the sausage in the frying pan so as not to burn, it's probably just us crazy people cooking this late .

"Where is this ripe ?"

I glance at the pan in front of her .

"It's been , put it here "

Without asking again Yeol put the corned sausage into the ramyeon that has also matured .We're just the two of us eating my favorite sausage ramyeon, 'Yeol was so greedy he ate almost all the noodles in that pot, I just had a few mouthfuls .

"Why is it so good, what's the reason for the sausage ?"

"I made color "

"Hahaha right, you always feel good, why are you so funny, talk like that with your flat expression "

"Funny, am I funny ?"

"Yes this way .Because I made 'hahaha funny "

He repeated my remarks and made a laughable expression of whether I was like that or he was exaggerating .

"I'm not like that, that's ridiculous "

"When Jespher said he liked you yesterday you just said .Don't like me, haha"

He again made a strange expression to imitate me .

"I'm not like that "

"You're so Hana, hahahaha adorable "

I just kept quiet and stared at her , Seeing her as happy as it made me happy and forgot the painful events of today .