Love, Life, and Jennifer
Letter from Grandma...

Our home has now been filled by relatives, as well as neighbors who want to see grandma for the last time.

While I still could not accept the fact that my grandmother finally left me for good, I could only wail in my grandmother's room. I kept calling her name, hugging the blanket she always wore.

True what grandma said a few days ago, if only I did not return to Indonesia, I would be very sorry!

Grannies... I cried, lamenting his swift departure...

Grannies... I deeply regret the fact that I have not been able to keep my promise, to get married until my grandmother leaves for good... Grannies...

"Tock.... Geck... Geck..." Someone knocked on the door, but I seemed reluctant to answer, until finally, the door of the room opened.

"Jen..." Clara and Gina then approached, and immediately hugged me...

"Lu's patient, Jen... I understand how sad you are, you..." Said Gina, then let go of her embrace.

I looked at Gina's face, which was currently wiping away her tears.

As for Clara, Clara still continued to cry on my shoulder.

...****************...

Grandma's funeral was held that day, considering that the whole family and also the people close to us, had gathered.

We decided to bury my grandmother in a cemetery not too far from my grandmother's house...

After the funeral procession was over, and one by one the men had left, my mother and father invited me home, but I refused...

I want to be here longer... I want to remember my time with Grandma...

Papa cursed her, then finally left me here.

Nah! I'm not alone here, papa won't let that happen, if I'm alone here.

Yep! There's Young Joon with me...

He who patiently, gently caressed my shoulder...

He's trying to make me feel calmer...

"That's it... Grandma is happy now... He no longer feels pain..." Young Joon said.

I looked at him, then hugged him tightly... I don't know! I wanted to spill all my sadness...

And coincidentally, only he currently still survives here with me...

...****************...

Young Joon finally drove me home.

And when we got home, there were still a lot of guests there, including Young Joon's parents.

I went straight to Grandma's room, just after saying my apologies, for not being able to join them, and they understood it all.

I immediately lay down my body, on my grandmother's bed... My tears are no longer dripping, and I prefer to smile.

"Sir, Jen is sincere..." I'm lirih. "Grandma's fine there, yeah..."

"Tock... Geck... Heck...!"

"Mr Jenny..." Mbok Minah's voice sounded faint, calling my name.

I got up, and sat down

"Just in, mbok..." My speech.

Mbok Minah then entered, after I pardoned.

He came straight to me, I could see at a glance, mbok Minah brought something.

"What's up, mbok... Sit here..." I said while patting my right side.

Mbok Minah was a bit hesitant, but ended up sitting down as well.

"Mr, anu... Here, I've got this to me..." Mbok Minah said, while thrusting the small wooden box that he had brought to me.

I immediately grabbed the box.

"What is this, mbok?" Much

"Lack of tau, mbak... Just, mother a message to me, he said this love, if ibuk no longer exists." Mbok Minah lirih.

I looked at Minah, then smiled.

"Thank you, mbok..." I immediately hugged Mbok Minah...

"Patience, ma'am..." Mbok Minah said, rubbing my back.

...****************...

Later that night, I decided to stay in Grandma's room, I told everyone that I didn't want to go anywhere, and didn't want to be disturbed by anyone.

Despite a slight objection, they finally agreed to my wish.

I am currently opening a small wooden box that Minah gave me this afternoon.

There are some photos of my relationship with my grandmother there, as well as a necklace that my grandmother always wears.

I stared at the necklace for a moment, then smiled.

And just as I was about to reinsert some of the photos and necklaces I took out of this little box, I saw a small envelope.

I immediately grabbed it, before putting back the photo and grandmother's necklace into the box.

When I opened the medium-sized envelope, there was a piece of paper there, and I immediately pulled it, and immediately saw the contents.

To my dearest granddaughter, Jennifer...

Jen, when Jen reads this letter, it means, grandma can't see Jen anymore...

My tears came back to see the first words in this letter.

It took me a few minutes to calm my heart so I could continue reading my grandmother's letter.

Jen, the necklace that's in this box, please take good care of it...

If Jen misses grandma, Jen wears that necklace...

Jen, the doctor said Grandma was great!

The doctor said, for diseases like grandmothers, usually people can only survive a few months, but grandmothers, grandmothers still survive, after a few years.

Grandma convinced herself to hold on for Jenny...

Grandma wants to see her most beloved granddaughter, along with the perfect man...

I started crying when I read the writing...

Even until the end of his life, I have not been with anyone...

I re-energized my heart to re-read the contents of the letter from grandmother

Jen, grandma has chosen you a match that grandma is very confident, certainly can replace grandmother to look after Jen... Grandma knew, Jen must have been a little hesitant at first, but she was sure, Young Joon was the only man who was right for Jen...

Jen, Young Joon has never been absent to meet grandmother every year, his attitude is increasingly convincing grandmother, if he is a suitable man for grandmother's favorite grandchild...

At that time Jen asked grandma, why should Jen, and not Clara who was betrothed?

Grandma answer now, baby...

First, Clara is the daughter of her grandmother, which means, everything about Clara, is the rights and responsibilities of her daddy Clara...

No, that doesn't mean you don't have any rights or obligations to Jen!Not at all!

Jen remains papa's right, but Jen's happiness, is grandmother's responsibility...

Grandma did not want to see the most dear granddaughter, fell into the arms of the wrong person...

Jen... Grandma's feelings are never wrong...

You know, before you knew your mom, your dad used to date his high school friends, and grandma said same dad, that girl, not a good girl!

Papa did not believe the words of his grandmother, until finally, papa's girlfriend left your father to marry a richer man!

And when papa brought your mother to this house, the premonition of the grandmother said, this woman can bring the grandmother's child into a happy life...

And it was proved!

But Jen, even though Young Joon's grandmother and late grandmother once promised to match each other's grandchildren, but if Young Joon's attitude did not match the criteria that grandmothers were looking for grandchildren, but if the attitude of Young Joon was not in accordance with the criteria that grandmothers looking for grandchildren, grandma will not hesitate to renege on this promise...

But this kid...

I think it's kind of hard to find a kid like Young Joon in this world...

Grandma could not explain in detail what Young Joon was like, because of Grandma's physical limitations to explain it all through writing...

It's just that, before grandma feels guilty because maybe you will think that grandma is too forcing grandmother's will...

Grandma will not make Jenny to marry Young Joon, if Jenny feels burdened... Because Jenny's happiness, is Grandma's happiness too...

Grandma does not want to see grandchildren feel tormented by the silly request of grandma...

Grandma just wants to see Grandma's granddaughter happy from here...

Jenny, for the last time grandma messages Jenny... Jenny is free to choose who will be Jen's life companion later..

Grandma didn't require Jen to marry Young Joon, not at all, baby...

And if in the end Jen wants to marry Young Joon, grandma hope, it is because of Jen's desire, not because Jen feels burdened with the desire of grandma...

Grandma will always love Jen, anytime... Take good care of yourself, baby...

Do not be too long dissolved in sadness, after the grandmother leaves... Grandma wants to see Jen always happy...

Because if Jen's happy, Grandma's happy here...

Hug and kiss grandma, for grandma's granddaughter...

I came back crying, hugging the letter my grandmother wrote...

Yep! There is a great pain in my heart...

Grannies...

The person I love most in this world..

The one who says that my happiness is his responsibility is even more concerned with my feelings above his ego, even though his ego may be right...

Doesn't Grandma always fulfill all my dreams? Wasn't it with a heavy heart, Grandma finally realized my dream to continue my studies at the University that I wanted, even though I had to go away from her?

But why, I can't realize Grandma's only wish?

Am I not selfish here? Not grandma!

"grandmother..." I said softly, inserting the letter and also a photo of my and my grandmother's togetherness into the small box.

I then walked with a shaky step towards my grandmother's closet, then put the little box, inside, then put myself back on my grandmother's bed, and continued to hug my grandmother's blanket.

"Mr... Jen wants to marry Young Joon... Jen swore, Jen didn't feel burdened at all... It's purely Jen's wish, Grandma..." I smiled hard, and returned with tears...

...****************...

Three days after my grandmother's departure, I was still in my grandmother's room, and only occasionally went out, just for family meals, and went back into the room afterwards.

But that night, there was an urgent matter that required me to attend the meeting that night...

There were both my parents, Clara and both her parents and Victor's brother. Later then... Young Joon and his parents...

I was sitting between my parents, who directly, the three of us were sitting opposite Young Joon as well as his parents.

"Well, given the mandate of our late mother, what do you think of Young Joon and Jenny's marriage?" Papa opened the conversation.

The atmosphere was silent for a moment, until...

"Is this not too fast? Grandma just left us 3 days ago." I stared blankly as I listened to the family discussions about our wedding plans.

"Jen, that's Grandma's last message..." Papa rubbed my back gently.

"Maybe it's true what Jennifer said, she needs time to reminisce about being with her grandmother." Young Joon's.

I immediately looked at her face, and for some reason, my tears just dripped.

Finally, after thinking about this carefully, we all agreed to carry out the marriage, within the next month.