Love, Life, and Jennifer
Better
A week after that evening's meeting, more precisely 10 days after grandmother's departure, my mood, slowly began to improve.
I always remember the message that my grandmother delivered through her letter, that I should not drag on in my grief, over her disappearance.
Even though I have not fulfilled my grandmother's expectations, I can at least replace them with my own happiness.
Yep! My grandmother always said that my happiness was also her happiness...
I no longer locked myself in Grandma's room, since 2 days ago.
I thought, the longer I locked myself in there, the more I would be bound by the shackles of the pain of losing the person I love the most, and that would make my grandmother feel tormented there, she said, of course I don't want that to happen!
I want, grandma rest in peace there.
For me, 8 days is enough time, to remember the togetherness between me and my grandmother.
And 8 days is enough time to make my heart really strong to accept the fact that, my grandmother is gone for all eternity.
To be honest, I've been sincere enough to let go of grandma, because for me grandma doesn't really go.
Only the body is not with us, but believe me... His soul still lives here...
In our house...
Even in our hearts, their children and grandchildren...
"You want to go now, son?" Ask my mom, who is currently getting ready with my backpack.
I turned to him, putting the charger in my backpack, and then closing it.
"Later in the afternoon, ma." I answered, then sat down on the bedside.
Mama came straight to me, and sat down beside me, then gently stroked my hair, smiling.
"Mama seneng, look Jen is not moody anymore..." Mama said, I smiled, then grabbed my mama's hand.
"Jen doesn't want grandma to be sad there..." I answered, and then my mom hugged me.
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I've arrived at the villa that Denis rented.
Clara was there.
And according to Clara, in addition to herself, Denis, and Gina, there are 5 other friends of ours who are now in the backyard of Villa.
"What the hell, don't wanna ride in the car with us, Jen!" Tight Clara, as soon as I take off my helmet.
I smiled looking at her who was now bending her beautiful face, while folding her hands together.
And immediately pinched his cheek
"Gw mabok, if pressed in the car, tau!" My words then release my pinch.
"Not wrong, in America! It's mah, masiiihhhhh!" Said Clara who was now starting to smile.
"Yes, go in yok! The kids are getting ready for the barbeque for the night." Clara said, embracing me, about to enter the Villa.
When we had just arrived at the entrance, we heard the sound of a car engine approaching, and stopped right in front of the Villa.
Clara and I turned to the car.
"Whoever, Ra..." I said to Clara, squinting my eyes at the car, to see who was there.
Clara looks wrong.
"Pulse... Th-that, Jen... Um..." Clara looked even more misbehaved as I frowned, staring at her face.
"Nh.... Gi-gini Jen's... "
"Hi! Sorry, I'm late! There's some business I need to get done." That figure is now in front of us.
We looked towards him
"Young Joon!" My words turned my eyes towards him.
Young Joon looks surprised to see me looking at him like that.
"A-what's up?" Young Joon said with a surprised look
"Hehee... So sorry, Jen... I didn't tell you, we-we took Young Joon here." Clara said with a wrong face.
I looked straight at Clara with a sharp look.
"Pulse... Is..."
"I'm going in first..." I immediately interrupted Young Joon's words, and was intending to catch up with Clara, but Young Joon immediately pulled my hand, lest I leave her.
"Let's go in together." He said and then gripped my hand tightly.
My heart is beating so fast right now.
We stepped together towards the back of the Villa with our hands clasped together.
And when it arrived, the 8 people who were currently busy with their respective activities to prepare for the barbeque event tonight, were staring at us with gazes that were hard to reveal.
I tried to take this hand off, but Young Joon even tightened it up!
I turned towards Young Joon with a very upset look, but strangely, Young Joon's face still looked calm, without turning his head towards me.
"Hi..." Young Joon said as he waved his other hand at the 8 people who were still staring at us.
I turned to them at a glance, and unconsciously opened my mouth because I did not believe my current situation.
I'm still trying to let go of this grip, and it didn't work, until...
"Buuuggghhhh!!!"
"Wwwwwwwwwww!!!" Young Joon cried out in pain, because my fist was on his upper arm, so he reflexively took off his hand, and the 8 people, closed their mouths together..
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I don't know, since seeing Young Joon back, after the last time we met at a family meeting the other day, my sadness over losing my grandmother just disappeared.
Plus, when he grabbed my hand earlier! No, it's not that I'm so happy, it's just...
I feel a little bothered by the attitude of men who are currently easily able to blend in with my friends.
"Ummm... Jen... Sorry, yes..." Just that speech that I heard clearly from Clara's mouth, the rest, I didn't really hear clearly, what Clara said to me, she said, because right now I'm focusing on Young Joon who seems to have known my friends for a long time.
"Jen!!! You know, I don't!" Clara said as she slightly hit my thigh, and automatically, broke my daydream.
"Eh.. Uh.. Wh-what was...?? I-yes... I'm sorryin..." I looked at Clara's visibly irritated face, rubbing my thighs.
"Chiyhhh... You think what the hell!!!" Clara was still upset, and I just smiled silly
"eeehh... Tha-that... That's..."
"Hey, why are you guys still here? Let's go over there! The food is ready!" Young Joon suddenly approached us, and we finally approached the barbeque.
While picking up some meat from the grill, Gina came up to me, and whispered a little.
"Anjiirrr, Jen... What a great candidate for your man!!!" Gina said, making me look at her
"Lu crazy, yeah!" I squealed a little, making the people around us, stare at us.
I looked around, and a silly smile looked at them one by one, and Clara came up to us.
"What the hell, anyway?!" Clara said, staring at us in turn.
"Si Jenny, so sensi, I swear!" Sinis Gina to me, I immediately turned to her
"Jen, what the hell is going on?" Ask Clara. I don't know, I don't even know how to answer Clara's questions, it's just...
"Kaya'nya I PMS time, yes... I'll go back, yeah, check." My words then passed, after the two of them nodded.
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At 23:37, my friends and possibly including Young Joon were still chatting in the Villa yard, and I could hear from inside the room here, some of them humming with guitars.
My mood is not good today, which is why I prefer to be alone in the room, instead of ruining the event they had planned for a few months ago.
In the end, I felt a little bored, but reluctant to join them, until finally, I decided to grab my phone, to open my social media.
I haven't opened my social media for a long time.
The last time I opened it was the day before I met Rob, to fix El's brakes, my motorcycle.
I immediately pressed the social media icon, then typed in the email address, as well as the password, and...
There were a lot of inboxes on the message icon, when my social media managed to open.
The largest sender is Arjuna...