Love, Life, and Jennifer
Dilemmas

I was stunned to hear Young Joon's words. He wants to take me, that's the sign, I'm going back through the trip with him.

To be honest, I don't mind it at all, it's just...

"You daydreaming again?" Young Joon's words broke my daydream

"Eh? How's it?" I said a little nervous.

Young Joon folded his hands together, he looked at me in surprise.

"I-i... "

"Is there anything weighing on your mind?" Young Joon's eyes looked so deep.

I let out a long sigh, Young Joon came closer.

"I didn't go home right away." I said, Young Joon frowned

"You mean?"

I didn't answer the question right away, because to be honest, I was a bit confused to answer this question.

If I answer that I'm going to Clara's apartment first, this curious man must ask, for what?

And that'll piss me off! So I decided to tell him my main purpose.

"I'm going to visit the bridal dress gallery this afternoon, and it's not far from Clara's house, so..."

"You want a wedding dress fittings?" Young Joon made sure. I looked at his face, then nodded faintly.

I can see clearly, Young Joon seems to be holding a smile on his face.

"Jen, the kids are getting together in front, huh! Yuk, uh!" Clara said as she dragged her suitcase.

I immediately looked towards him

"Ra, wait!" I said to go up to her, Clara stopped her steps

"What's wrong?" Legally.

"Gini, we'll go to your apartment first, well, Young Joon will want to nganter gw, so..."

"Gw is lazy to be a mosquito repellent, yes!" Ketus Clara, then continue her steps. I rushed to stop him.

"Please..." My words beg.

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 In the end, Clara agrees to go back to her apartment with me and Young Joon.

He immediately chose to sit in the passenger seat, and forbade me to sit with him, arguing, wanting to sleep there.

"Gw here, Jen! I want to continue sleeping, you know, I got less sleep last night!" When I opened the car door.

Sure enough, along the way, Clara completely closed her eyes.

Either because he was drowsy, or because of what he said this morning, that he didn't want to be a mosquito repellent? Ahahaha! There's-there's this girl.

Then, me and Young Joon?

As usual, we were silent at the beginning of the journey, until one of us broke the silence.

"By the way, can I come with you?" His words broke the silence.

"Eh? What's?" I said looking towards him.

Young Joon smiled, and turned his head towards me at a glance

"Can I come with you to the gallery?" Young Joon is looking at me.

The traffic light is now red, which is why Young Joon can look at me without having to turn his head in the direction of the road.

I, who was looking at his face, was now a little down. I don't know! Every time our gazes clashed with each other, there was something that slightly disturbed my heart.

I decided to turn my head towards the street, and pay attention to the traffic lights, hoping that it would change color immediately, and make Young Joon no longer look at my face for long.

"Hey! It was green!" I said pointing to the traffic lights.

Young Joon immediately turned his head towards the front, then stepped on the gas pedal.

The atmosphere was silent again, until suddenly my phone shook. When I got my phone, Mike called me.

I hesitated a little to answer Mike's call, only, I thought for too long we had not been connected, even I had refused a call from him several times.

"Why didn't you answer that call?" Young Joon said.

I was surprised to hear Young Joon say, until I finally answered Mike's call.

"Yes, Mike..." My broom is across here

"Why do you always reject my calls?" Ketus Mike's across there.

Yeah! That's Mike! He always takes matters into his little things!

He also often raised his voice to me, however... Mike's not that bad!

I wouldn't accept his love if he didn't have anything to lose!

Mike is a pretty understanding guy, though not really!

He's a good man, and he's willing to do anything for me.

When she expressed her feelings for me first, to be honest she forced me a little to accept her love.

Honestly, if it wasn't Rob who persuaded me to accept Mike's love, I probably wouldn't be Mike's girlfriend right now.

But Rob's persuasion isn't the only reason why I ended up accepting Mike's love! One thing that made me finally accept her love, while still maintaining this relationship was...

Mike still wants to be my lover, EVEN THOUGH I DON'T HAVE THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF LOVE FOR HIM, TO THIS DAY!

And if you think that I accept it out of pity, it's possible!

I still clearly remember what he said at that time.

"At least, you want to be mine... That's enough. That (feeling of love) can grow over time, and I'll make sure, it will!" Said at that time.

One more thing!

To this day, Mike still respects my principles while dating her.

Before accepting him as my lover, I gave Mike a requirement, which was...

The furthest thing we could do was, nothing more than kiss the forehead and hug!

He agreed, and it was still going on until this second.

My parents did not know our relationship. All they know is that Mike is my best friend, just like Rob!

Mike had protested about it, but I reasoned to him that my parents would not allow me to have a relationship with anyone, before I finished my studies, and Mike understood, albeit with a heavy heart.

"Mike, there's something important I want to tell you." I said

"What's important?" He said across there

"I'll call you later." My legow

It hurts every time I hear him say the word 'I love you' to me.

For almost two years we were in love, never once did I reply when she said that, even if it was just a message or just pleasing her heart, I never said 'i love you too' to him.

Even if it is so forced, I will only answer it with 'I love you'.

Mike never made a big deal about it.

I understood why he often raised his voice to me, or seemed to not understand me that much. I understand how sometimes he loses his patience with my attitude.

But what made me salute him, he persisted, and still tried to take my heart.

I think today is the time Mike has to end his efforts that will go to waste...

Yep! I have to stop this.

"What was a friend..."

"He is my lover." I interrupted Young Joon's words, then turned to him.

"You're crazy!" Clara suddenly woke up from her 'sleep' and leaned over to look me in the face closer, in the front seat.

Young Joon, who was surprised, stepped on the brake pedal suddenly when the traffic light was red, to make Clara's body bounce and hit the dashboard.

"Aaaawww!!!" Screeched Clara.

Young Joon and I grabbed her body so Clara could get her back up.

"Why, Ra!" I said worriedly, seeing my cousin who has now returned to sit on the back bench, while continuing to rub his head affected by the impact earlier.

Young Joon looked back.

"Why don't you wear your seat belt?" Said Young Joon.

Clara turned to look at Young Joon.

"That-that's..." Clara felt guilty, then stared intently at me.

"Jen, you're crazy!" Screeched Clara.

I was really surprised to see it that way.

"What crazy?!" My heart is astonished

"You can talk that way in front of your male candidates!" Clara looks really upset.

"I'm sorry?" Young Joon looks at Clara.

"I don't understand what you're talking about, it's just, Clara... Can you use your seat belt?" Young Joon said, then reinstated the vehicle.

Clara who felt bad ended up wearing a seatbelt.

"Ra, what do you mean, anyway?" I turned my body towards the back seat.

Clara who still looked annoyed, now sighed harshly

"Huuff... Jen's! You still the same Mike?" I heard Clara's words.

"Te-continue, the problem?" I said stammering

"Lu know, wait a minute, you're married!" Clara Umbrella.

"What do I have to do?!" Sinisku, then back to the road.

"Haha! Waw! Your cock! What do you think!" Clara was screaming a little now.

And I turned back towards him

"Ko' you so snapped I, anyway!" Ketusku

"Yes, obviously!" Sahut Clara

"Young Joon knows, ko'!" My reply

"Keep, if he knows..."

"Later to talk to Mike, if I want to get married! Satisfied you!" I got upset, then returned to my original position.

Clara... She is a modern girl who is quite religious. For him, marriage is a sacred thing that cannot be played.

He once said to me that he would get married when he found the right person, because he wanted his marriage to happen only once in a lifetime!

Because he did not want to renege on his promise before God, when he vowed in front of the altar later.

That's why, he was so angry when he heard I was still in a relationship with Mike, when my marriage would last less than a month.

"Lu is free to establish relationships with anyone at the same time when your status is not a wife/husband of people! But if you've become a wife/husband, all are different!" Clara said at that time, when I reprimanded her, because often times have a 'double relationship'.

"Laaahh! Why could it be? Ko' you're a hick, anyway?" My protest if it is.

"Because when you're dating, your agreement is only limited between you and your boyfriend! Same as marriage! When we get married, we make agreements not only with couples! But also God! Understand you!" Clara

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We've arrived at Clara's apartment.

Young Joon decided to go straight home, and said that he would come back again, as soon as we were going to the gallery.

As I lay down my body on Clara's bed, Clara suddenly approached me, and joined her to lay down right beside me.

"Jen! The real one! You're so rich talking' it's the same Young Joon!" He said, propping his head up with his hands, looking at me.

I looked towards him

"By the way?" My answer is a little lazy

"Yes, you're talking about the one who called you, your guy! Crazy one! The oath!" Clara sat down.

"Yes, that's the reality! Masa' yes I have to lie to him, if the one who called me nyokap gw! It's not possible! Strange you!" My heart, then turned back to Clara.

Clara immediately pulled my body back to face him

"Woy! Jennifer's! You really are!" I sat down, and looked at Clara's face

"Later tonight, I'll talk to Mike, I'll get married next month, satisfied!" I said then I turned my body back on.

To be honest, I'm a little bit of a dilemma right now.

Yep! It's about Mike...

How do I tell her about my marriage, without hurting her heart?

That'sallthatis...

I know Mike well enough! He was a figure that looked formidable on the outside, yet so fragile on the inside.

She once cried hysterically, when I said that our relationship would not work.

I once said, that compared to my friends, I was better prepared to tell Mike about my marriage, but now...

But at least, doesn't Mike deserve to be happy? Doesn't he deserve a person who can love him sincerely, not out of pity?