Love, Life, and Jennifer
INDONESIA

I've laid my body on the bed, rethinking what I just said a few minutes ago.

But strangely, I don't feel the slightest regret... Like there's a relieving sensation, I don't know!

I never even imagined a wedding! It never crossed a bit!

And Mike... What about Mike, if what papa says is true? What should I say to Mike, if my return to Indonesia is to get married? And college? Yaah God... I'm in a dilemma! Wait a minute, didn't you say...

"Jen..." As usual, my mother went into my room, without knocking on the door first.

Mama came up to me, then sat down next to me, and I immediately sat down next to her.

Mama gently stroked my hair.

"Jen, are you sure of your decision?" Mama looked at my face. I didn't answer my question right away, and chose to turn my face toward the door.

"Jen, if you're not ready, mom's equally papa... "

"I'm sure it's my decision, ma'am." I interrupted my mother's words, and looked into her worried face.

"Ma, I'm pretty sure it's Grandma's choice." I'm lirih. My mom hugged me tight.

Papa approached us, then sat down next to me, and mom let go of his embrace.

"Jen, honestly papa is sure, the choice of grandmother can not be wrong..." Papa.

I looked at Papa's face, papa seemed to take a deep breath before continuing his words. Papa looked at me, then gently stroked my cheek.

"Papa wouldn't want you, if you did... "

"Pa..." I interrupted papa's speech, then held the hand of the father who was still gently caressing my cheek.

"Jen is convinced of Jen's decision... " My words are shrivelled. Papa's eyes glazed over at my words, and immediately hugged me tightly...

...****************...

 We were on the plane and ready to take off.

When I arrived at the airport, I saw some incoming messages on my phone.

Mark, Shierly, Mike, and Rob, they prayed for my grandmother's recovery, and not to forget, prayed for my safety on the way.

Yeaah... Traveling 21 hours and 23 minutes is not fun for me. Even though we will be transiting in some countries, still it is not a fun thing! Plus, the reason for my return this time. Huuff... I don't know! Right now I just want to get there soon, and hug Grandma. That'sallthatis...

"Ma, I'll go straight to the hospital, yeah..." I said to my mom who was sitting right next to me. Mama who was almost asleep at the time, directly looked at me.

"Jen, you don't want to rest first? Our journey is far away, you know!" Mama seemed to disagree, and I shook my head

"Jen just wants a mastiin granny, ma." My solute. Papa, sitting across from the right of the bench, asked us

"What's up, ma?" Ask papa

"Here, Jen says she wants to go straight to the hospital next time in Jakarta, pa." Answer mama. Papa leaned his body slightly in order to talk to me.

"Jen, we're about two o'clock, you know! The hospital can't possibly ngizinin we meet grandma at that hour." Papa explained.

I paused for a moment, thinking about papa's words.

"We go home first, put the goods at home, rest for a while, well, later in the afternoon, we immediately look at grandma. How's it?" Papa made sure.

I thought for a moment, right what papa said. I nodded, then went back to thinking about many things, and the most domineering ones were, my grandmother and my marriage.

...****************...

 After traveling for 21 hours and 35 minutes, I finally regained my feet in my homeland...

At 02.20 am in Indonesia, now. That means, at 14:20 in DC, I immediately reactivated my phone, and before my phone turned on, I could see from a distance, Sam, the husband of Aunt Vera, welcomed our arrival.

"Where's mommy doing, Sam?" Ask me a little worried

"Mommy is awake, especially when I say ko Joseph is on his way, the more excited he is!" Answer Om Sam excitedly

"Ooh... Thank goodness." Mom and Dad look relieved, and so do I.

"Jen, how's the trip going?" Sam asked me, who was looking at the screen of my phone

"Thank God... I can't wait to see you, see." Said Sam, grabbing my suitcase.

I smiled at Om Sam.

"Clara is there, um?" Ask me before you get in the car.

"She's taking care of Grandma." Answer Sam, then put the suitcase in the trunk.

...****************...

"Clara's upset, grandma's just asking you to doank." Said Sam, smiling behind the steering wheel, then started driving. I smiled at Sam's words

"But Grandma was light, right?" I went back to making sure

"Praise God, already, Jen." Om Sam made sure

I was a little relieved to hear Sam's explanation, but at least, I had to see firsthand the state of my grandmother, to actually witness her condition.

I checked my phone again, there were a lot of messages coming in. I reply one by one to messages sent by my friends. Some of them asked me why I didn't go to college for a few days. And I gave reasons according to the fact that happened to me, except about marriage. They were concerned about my grandmother's condition, and prayed for her recovery.

Then they talked about the summer vacation that was going to start next month, I was less excited at the moment, given my current circumstances. And my conversation with my friends was interrupted, when Sam talked about...

"Young Joon was looking at mommy yesterday, ko." Said Sam, looking at papa at a glance. I looked towards Sam

"Oh, huh? How then?" Papaku

"Mama's probably leaving from Korea tomorrow." Sam again.

Mama, who noticed my gaze toward Sam, interrupted the conversation

"That's what we'll talk about, Sam." Mama

"Ah, ok ci!" Sahut o'm Sam

The mood was silent again. I was no longer even eager to reply to messages from my friends.

...****************...

 We arrived at Grandma's house... Yeah... My childhood home. The house where Grandma pours her love for me... The house where my grandmother and I laughed and cried together... Home where...

"Jen, take a break... We'll go straight to the hospital." Mama broke my daydream.

"Ah, okay!" I nodded while dragging my suitcase towards my room.

I put my body on the bed. The bed where Grandma always accompanied me before I finally fell asleep. It felt really comfortable, imagined the feeling when I fell asleep on the lap of grandma, and grandma gently stroked my hair, until... Phone's ringing! I grabbed it immediately. It's Rob!

"Yo, Jen! You haven't slept, haven't you been almost 4 in the morning in Indonesia, now?" Sapa Rob's across the street

"How can I fall asleep if you call me like this?" My heart is across here

"Ah, alright, rest!"

I immediately interrupted Rob

"Hey, I'm still in jetlag right now, plus, I haven't seen my grandmother yet."

"Ah, okay... Hey, so when are you going to see your grandma?"

"Good later, the hospital won't allow me to visit right now."

"of course! You'll be very annoying later!"

"Damn! Of course not!" I smiled

"Haha... Okay, Jen! Rest up! At least, I've calmed down to hear you're okay."

"certain... I'm gonna miss you so much, Rob..."

"Yeah... Me either... Take care of yourself, and keep me informed of your situation..."

"certain... Yea..." I'm closing the call.