Love, Life, and Jennifer
Confessions...

In fact, the feeling never dies, not even for 1 second!

It's just 'sleeping' and not dying...

I didn't refuse when Dad said that grandma would match me with Park Young Joon, my childhood friend.

I'm not arguing a bit, am I! It's not because of Grandma!

It's not because I don't want our family relationships to be bad!

Not because of anyone, not because of anything!

I'm a pretty selfish person in matters of feeling!

It is pure, my heart accepts it...

My heart allowed it...

My heart still provides a place for Park Young Joon...

Joon Oppa's...

I'm still waiting for you...

Your name is still engraved in my heart...

Even at the bottom of my soul, you're still the person I love so much...

And I felt a tremendous pain in me, hearing your words last night.

It was always ringing in my ears and mind.

Now, in front of the dresser, I try to polish my face as beautiful as possible.

I want to look beautiful, before she expresses her feelings to her girl.

I don't know for sure why I did all this.

It's just, at least I want him to be able to feel proud, to have me as his wife, who is pretty enough for him to show in front of his office friends.

I was ready to go to his office, with the provisions I made for lunch later.

I thought, after giving her provisions, and if she allowed me to have lunch with her, I would go to see Mike to end our relationship, and disappear for some time, to heal my heart wound.

To be dumped by the people I love, and to dump the people who love me.

I drove my car to Young Joon's office feeling like somehow, somehow.

One thing is for sure, it hurts!

There is a wound in my heart, because the words of Young Joon who is so eager to express love to his girl.

He wanted to prepare everything himself after coming home from work, and probably won't be coming home today.

Last night was the beginning of my life's destruction. Didn't I confess my feelings for Young Joon to Arjuna?

Isn't this ridiculous? You were dumped, shortly after you confessed your feelings?

I was already in the company lobby where Young Joon worked, then I rushed to the receptionist to ask Park YoungJoon's office.

"Excuse me, I want to see Mr. Park Young Joon." Sapaku to a young man standing behind the reception desk.

"I'm sorry, miss, but Mr. Park is currently seeing someone." Answer's friendly.

"I just want to give this to my husband." I said while showing a tote bag containing a lunch box.

The brown-haired, and quite handsome young man looked surprised to hear me say the word 'my husband'.

"Oh, yeah... Hm..."

"I won't be long, I'll definitely be home as soon as possible after giving this away." I made sure of it

"Mmmm... That way... Mm mm... Ah, ok! Park's office space is on the 5th floor." The receptionist sounded a bit doubtful

"Ah, ok thank you, handsome sir." I said a little teasing.

The receptionist smiled sweetly, then I passed.

When I started to step on my feet, the receptionist suddenly said...

"Mr Park is meeting with an important client, I hope you don't misunderstand, Mrs Park." His voice was calm, but it sounded like a warning.

"I'll see my husband after the client's gone." I answered without turning to him, then continued my steps towards the elevator, and went straight into it, because the elevator door was already open when I got there, and immediately pressed the number 5 button.

I still remember what the receptionist said, so I had a chance to think, wait for him first, or immediately give this and then go straight away, without having to eat together. Okay, I've arrived on the 5th floor!

I immediately stepped out of the elevator, and stepped down the hallway, until finally, I arrived at a room filled with desks full of computers, and employees busy with their respective affairs.

I went to the table where a blonde girl was fixing her makeup.

"Excuse me." Sapaku friendly.

The girl was unaware of my presence due to being too focused on her makeup.

"Excuse me!" My voice was so loud this time that it surprised him!

"Oohhh..." She looked excited, and immediately put her makeup tools in a hurry.

"Sorry lady, how can I help you?" The girl fixed her sitting position

"I want to see Mr. Park Young Joon, the receptionist in the lobby told me that his office is on the 5th floor, so what..."

"Yes, this is Mr. Park's office. Do you want to do a job interview with him?" The girl noticed every detail of my appearance

"I want to give this to my husband." My answer is while showing me the bag.

He looked surprised at hearing that, and returned to his senses, confused about what to answer, and all the employees who were there looked at me with a strange look

"Ahhh. i-it... Mm mm... That's... This is Mrs Park..."

"Jennifer!" My legow

"Y-yes... Look, Miss Jennifer, right now Mr. Park is having an important meeting, so maybe you can leave it to me?" The girl suddenly stood up, and offered herself

"No, I just want to give you this, then go, I promise." I made sure, pointing two fingers in the air, a sign of oath

"Ngngngh... Look at..." The girl bit her lips worriedly

"Tell me, where the room is, I promised you that I was just giving you this, and I'm leaving right away." I watched again, the girl hesitated, then showed me a room, right in the front corner of her desk very carefully

"Aaahh, thanks... What's yourname?" Much

"He-Hellen..." The answer doubt

"Okay, thank you so much, Hellen..." I said, then passed.

I stepped towards the room that Hellen had pointed out earlier, followed by the strange gazes of all the employees in this room.

After arriving at the door of the room, I immediately knocked on it excitedly.

'Tok... Geck... Heck...!'

Not long after, it sounded authentic from within...

"Come in!"

I knew the voice very well, and then I opened the door very carefully, I was afraid to interrupt my husband's meeting.

And once the door opens...

My heart almost missed seeing the scene I was currently witnessing in this quite spacious room!

My knees feel limp seeing this scene! My husband, bowing, faces a woman!

And as he turned towards me, I could clearly see whose face the woman would be 'attacked' by the man who was currently still my husband!

Young Joon stood up, and was glued. And I, who finally realized from this 'surprise', immediately left...

"Sorry..." Then I closed the door of the room, and stepped in with destruction..

I heard Young Joon calling my name, then chased after me.

The entire employee in this room looked at me, even I could see Hellen sticking a phone handle in his ear. But I didn't mind it at all, I ran to get to the elevator as quickly as possible.

The universe supported me this time, the elevator door was instantly closed and the elevator slid down.

The elevator door opened, and I ran.

The receptionist saw me.

When I was already in the car and about to start the engine, Young Joon ran towards my car, and I hurriedly started my car engine, then immediately triggered it.

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Along the way, I kept remembering the incident towards Young Joon's room while crying.

The hesitant answers of the people I met, their shocked gazes when I said the word 'my husband' to describe the figure of Park Young Joon, and the word 'Important Client' to describe the figure who was with my husband.

Important client! Kimberly Tan's.

Aaaaarrrfgghhh!!!

My phone rang, It was an incoming call from Young Joon!

I can see it, because I put my phone on top of the car's dashboard.

I don't want to answer it at all! But I grabbed my phone.

I want to call someone, because I honestly don't know where I'm going.

I press the 'reject' button on my phone screen, then I find the name 'Mike'.

I called Mike, and tried my hardest to make my voice sound normal, when the call was connected...

"Mike..." My broom is across here

"Jen, what's wrong?" Mike answered across the street

"Where are you?" Ask me again

"I'm at Mark's, what's wrong?" He answered across the street, and I immediately closed the call.

I drove my car towards Mark's house, broke my heart, and cried again! Crying sore...

I don't know what I'm gonna do with Mike when I get to Mark's house.

Either cut off the relationship with him, according to my original plan, or make it a backstop, because of my disappointment this time.

I've arrived across from Mark's house.

Mark's house is simple, with no fence so, I can see things from here, heeey... Waitaminute! Isn't that Shierly?

What's he doing at Mark's?

And, that's Mike!

As I was about to open my car door, I saw Mike bring Shierly a drink.

I did not open the door of my car, but still pay attention to their activities.

There was a small conversation between them, and they seemed very comfortable with each other. It was seen as they smiled in every conversation.

Wouldn't it bother me if I met them now?

So, I decided to start my car engine, leave them.

I could see their shadows through the rearview mirror of my car.

They kissed, and I smiled...

If you ask me, do I feel sick seeing that sight?

I can assure you, I feel relieved!

I don't have to dump Mike... At least I don't have to hurt anyone here.

It's okay, I'm the one who got hurt here.

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I'm still driving my car in a cry full of wounds.

Yeah, I'm planning on going to Rob's.

At least, I can help him tinker with the engine, to forget about my problems for a moment.

After a 1-hour journey, I finally arrived in front of Rob's 'garage.

I could see it from inside my car, when Rob was fixing a motorcycle.

He immediately noticed my presence, and immediately approached me.

I opened the door of my car to find him.

"Heeey... It's been a long time, Jen!" Sweep, then hug me

"Yes, Rob..." I tightened my embrace

"What's wrong? What's going on?"

Rob's voice was so shady, he realized something was wrong with me, then slowly broke out my arms, and looked at my puffy face, and my eyes were back in tears.

"Come in, we'll talk about it inside." Her speech.

When he grabbed me and was about to take me into his house, Rob suddenly stopped his steps

"Wait a minute." Her speech.

Rob walked towards my car, and crouched down to grab something under my car, then walked towards me

"Are you being a spy, to uncover the motorcycle parts embezzlement case that I did?" Rob showed me something, I looked at him, and then I looked at him.

I then realized, all this time... Young Joon always knew where I was, even when I lied to him, when I said I was doing chores at Shierly's house, when I was at a bar, he suddenly picked me up at that bar.

So all this time...

"Rob, do you have a motorcycle I can use?" I asked, still staring at that thing.

"What do you mean?"

Rob was completely confused this time, and I convinced him with my facial expression that could always melt him.

"Aahhhhhhhhhh.... This girl!" He said, then we walked towards his garage.

"I want to borrow your shirt, because there's no way I'm riding a motorcycle in this outfit." I said

"Mmmm... You can wear Leony's shirt."

I've been on a motorcycle, in 'new' clothes, and a bag containing some clothes belonging to Leony, Rob's brother who has now settled in Colorado, and the file I prepared a while ago.

Before I left, I told Rob

"Rob, if any Asian guy comes in here, asks where I am, tell me that you don't know, or you can tell him anything, except about this motorcycle."

"What's this about? Is he Intel?" Ask Rob

"He's my husband, you want to know everything, right?" I said, and Rob sounded surprised.

"Remove him as much as possible, I know that's your specialty other than fixing motorcycles. I'll see you again once everything's safe." I said

"Where are you going now?" Rob seems to be worried about me

"I want to take medication. Take care, I'll go first. And take it easy, he's not Intel, he's just an office guy can." I said, and Rob seemed to think before saying

"Be careful, Jen. Let me know soon if you've arrived." Rob seemed to be worrying about me.

I nodded, then immediately drove Rob's motorcycle, somewhere.

I don't even know where I'm going this time.

All I have in mind this time is...

Get as far away from Park Young Joon as possible...

But not to Indonesia...