Love, Life, and Jennifer
Lie Huan Zhu's

We stopped in front of a post office in Cleveland, Ohio.

Clarence seemed to be talking to someone there.

Yeah, maybe that's the guy Clarence called on our trip a while back.

Clarence told me once that he had some relatives in Cleveland, when I was living in an apartment there. The man turned his head towards me from there, and I just smiled a little from inside the car. Not long after, Clarence got into the car.

"Are you hungry?" Clarence asked as he put on his seat belt, then started the engine and drove it.

"Yes, a little." Answer me

"Well, we'll eat first at that fast food restaurant over there." Clarence pointed forward

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"Are you going back to your house when we get to DC?" Clarence said, then bit his sandwich

"I'll rent a motel." I answered and then sipped coffee

"Ah, okay..."

"You don't need to lend me your identity again this time." I smiled looking at his face

"You mean?" Clarence looked astonished

"I'll use my identity." My answer is convincing

"What are you..."

"I have 2 birth names. One universally, and the other, a surname." Evidently

"You mean?" Clarence returned to astonishment

"It takes a long time to understand." Sahutku again.

I chewed on my sandwich, and Clarence looked at me full of question marks.

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We had arrived in DC, and we were at the reception desk of a motel not far from Clarence's house.

"Lie Huan Zhu." I said to the middle-aged woman standing behind the reception desk.

Then he gave me a key with two numbers, after I paid him some money

"Room number 15, it's on the 2nd floor, miss." Said the receptionist.

"Thank you." I said.

Then Clarence and I passed by, and walked through the stairs a few feet from the room.

"Ah, here's the room." My word.

I immediately put the key into the small hole under the door knob number 15, and opened it.

It's smaller than the motel room I rented in Brooklyn.

But it's okay, at least it's enough if I'm the only one living here.

"Elle, i..."

I immediately hugged Clarence warmly.

"Thank you very much, Clare... I owe you a lot. Somehow I can repay him." I said then let go of my embrace.

Clarence nailed, and finally looked at my face.

"Stay breathing, and live well, it is enough to repay all that I have given you." Clarence said in a calm and sincere tone of voice.

If only, I wouldn't have given him any limits... If only I could open my heart to him... If only...

"I'm going home now, you can call me if you need anything, and..." Clarence seemed hesitant to continue his words

"And what?" My investigation

"Your hair has begun to be long again, the color has also begun to fade, eat a lot, so as not to be very thin like this." He said then passed.

I immediately chased after him, who was now three steps from the door of this motel.

"What about my skin?"

Clarence stopped his steps, and turned towards me.

"I like it..." He said then continue his steps.

I closed the door, after Clarence's back was no longer visible.

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I lay my body on the bed, and immediately woke up, then looked at the door, recalling what happened a few months ago in Brooklyn.

I then smiled bitterly, and returned pensive, imagining something.

Yeah, I imagine if Young Joon finds me again.

What should I do if he finds me? Isn't the distance between this motel and our house really close?

It only takes 15 minutes from here!

I keep imagining it.

I also still imagine the show on television about Young Joon, who was trying to find me, as well as Aunt Margaret's words that Young Joon has been attending the show for 3 months.

Oh my... I'm really tired, really tired!

Tired of running...

Tired of fantasizing...

And tired of being constantly toyed with by circumstances!

I'm gonna stop this.

Yep! I'm going to meet Park Young Joon, when an email message about my divorce is answered!

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I've been here three days.

I haven't called Clarence yet.

It's okay, I can't constantly bother him!

I don't want to make him wish for me more.

I was a little hungry, and intending to be out for a while to go to a fast food restaurant, I got tired of the food that was here.

After getting ready, I immediately walked out of the room, and immediately locked it.

I was wearing a light green plain shirt with medium sleeves, as well as long jeans.

At least, I don't look so suspicious right now.

I decided to walk to a fast food restaurant not too far from here.

I thought, I want to reminisce a little bit about this city, the city that I have almost 4 months left.

Along the way, I can see cars passing by, children playing in the playground, and some pedestrians who take their pets for walks in the afternoon.

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I have arrived at a fast food restaurant that is not too far from my home. When I opened the door, my world stopped!

I realized there was someone there.

He sat facing the entrance.

And I realized that she was watching me, even from the moment I opened the door, until when I ordered food. When the waiter asked me

"Eat here, or take home, miss?" The waiter was friendly.

I was confused by the question, even I hesitated to answer it a little.

"Eat here "I answered a little doubtfully

I had my order with me, and I decided to sit on the bench right behind the person who had been watching me.

I could see at a glance, the expression on his face as I passed through it.

He seemed to be thinking, and confused about what he was going to do.

I enjoy my food as quietly as possible but still! I feel like something's stuck in my heart!

How not!

I sat right behind the man who had been looking for me for almost 4 months!

Yep! That person is Park Young Joon!

I could see her condition at a glance.

How fucked he is right now!

The somewhat long hair was irregular, the feathers on the face were left, as well as the clothes looked shabby!

His body is really skinny!

I ate while thinking, was Young Joon so devastated that I was almost 4 months away?

Young Joon is still there, and looks back at me.

I decided to take a taxi to the motel. And when I get there, I'm as soon as I can get to my motel room, because I want to call Clarence right there.

When I arrived, I locked the door and looked for the phone I had left behind.

Ah, there he is! I grabbed the phone I always put on the bed

I open the phone lock screen, then I press the 'call' icon'. Wrap on!

"Cleele..." My broom is across here

"Yes, Elle, is there a problem?" Clarence sounded worried

"Clare, I met Young Joon earlier." I explained

"you mean? I'll be there now..."

"No need... He doesn't recognize me." I said in a stammering voice

"Elle are you crying?" Clarence sounded worried

"No... My tears are over in Kansas." I smiled bitterly

"Haha... That's... Elle.."

"Hmm...?"

"Did he recognize you?" Clarence made sure

"So, he's only been watching me since I walked into the restaurant." Evidently

"Did he seem to suspect you?" Clarence made sure

"Don't you tell me you barely recognized me when we left for Kansas?" I convinced.

Clarence didn't answer my question.

"Am I not so skinny now?" My speech.

When I said that, I immediately remembered Young Joon...

Young Joon's body was also very thin earlier.

"And my skin? Isn't this too brown for an east Asian girl size?" I teased her a little

"Aaaahh... You're right!" Clarence sounded a little relieved across the street

"My hair is new along the shoulder, and the green color is still there, even though it is a bit faded! Don't forget the nose piercing, and the tattoo on my right shoulder, Clare! That's pretty big!" I reassured him again

"Yaaahh. okay, Elle..."

"Hmmm..."

"Call me right away, if anything bad happens." Clarence's voice sounded so soft when he said that

"Surely, thank you, Clare..." I said then close the call.

I immediately took off my shirt, and left only the sleeveless shirt as the inside, and decided to lay my body on the bed, then take the TV remote, then turn on the tv.

I don't want to think about anything, anyone now!

I chose Chanel who was showing a cartoon. It's quite entertaining for me.

I laughed while watching this, until...

'Tok... Geck... Heck...!'

I remember this incident!

I experienced it a few months ago!

My heart is beating so fast right now.

I'm sure it's him!

As much as I can prepare myself to open the door.

I really held myself back for everything.

Yeah, I'm ready...

'Tok... Geck... Heck...!'

"Yes... A moment." I'm making a rather strange sound now.

When I opened the door, it was my guess! The man is standing right in front of me! His gaze was empty, and his eyes were teary

"(are you looking for someone)?" I make my voice as weird as possible.

"(are you chinese too)?" I said while pointing at him.

Young Joon hugged me, and he cried.

"(?sir, what's wrong with you?" I asked still in Chinese, and a really weird voice.

Young Joon immediately let go of his embrace when he realized something.

Yeah, I know! He saw the tattoo on my right back.

Young Joon looked at my face!

And looks sorry.

"I'm sorry." Sorry, then look down.

"It's okay." Answer me

"i thought you were Chinese." I said a little teasing.

Young Joon looked me in the eye again, then smiled and passed.

"My tariff is $500/hour! You can visit me whenever you want, sir!" I said in a coquettish style.

Young Joon suddenly stopped his steps, then turned towards me.

I folded my hands together, and in style teased her with a flirtatious woman-style smile.

Young Joon looked at me, then smiled bitterly, then waltzed away.

I closed the door and locked it.

I ran towards the bed and held my chest.

It's beating so fast!

Oh my... What just happened?!

Not felt, tears just flow...

I'm back crying now!

I was crying so much...

I'm completely ruined!

I was devastated to see the man who is currently still my husband.

How broken he is!

How bad is he!

Oh my... What have I done to him?!

Oh my...

But I soon realized something!

What's the difference between him and me now?

Am I not as broken as he is? My body is getting thinner now?

Even my skin is blackened?

I destroyed my body!

I even stuck my nose!

Don't forget the medium-sized dandelion flower tattoo on my right back!

Oh my... I was sad when I saw the situation, but I forgot about my situation which was as miserable as that man!

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I opened up social media, and went back to looking for my account name in the search icon.

Young Joon posted something there, yeah... Almost every day Young Joon uploads something on my social media account.

And I saw his latest post, about 2 hours ago

'I saw an Asian girl eating at a fast food restaurant. As soon as I saw it, I remembered you. Green shoulder-length hair, and slightly brown skin. He is different from you! Even very different! My wife didn't pierce her nose, nor did she tattoo her body! How foolish I was to embrace her wishing it was you! Have I been so crazy?'

You're not crazy, Perk YoungJoon...

That was me...

Yep! You just met your wife... I smiled bitterly, and returned to shed tears...