Love, Life, and Jennifer
Park Young Joon: My Destruction!

No matter how hard I tried to keep my wife, in the end all was lost, when the divorce finally happened...

Jennifer, my beautiful wife who has a heart as hard as a rock, chose to leave me...

He's releasing me...

I never thought it would be like this...

It hurts, if you don't know for sure, what's the cause...

I never even knew how much he was hurt by all my treatment of him...

I never even knew how devastated he was, for the alleged betrayal he had directed at me...

A betrayal I never did, because...

Only his name was etched into my mind...

Yeah...

I think betrayal is when you share your heart with others, like Jennifer pointed to me and Kimberly!

If he thinks that I've shared my love with Kimberly, he's seriously wrong!

I never betrayed her at all, for my feelings!

However, if Kimberly sleeps in an unconscious state, can it be categorised into a form of treason?

Jennifer didn't know that!

I will never tell him until now! Even if I have to die!

When he decided to take all of this off...

All destroyed! Life ruined!

I walked without direction, doing things I shouldn't...

Except for the grievous smile, the rest, I even forgot, how to smile...

Yep! All I can do right now is... Letting myself get hurt.

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Months without Jenny by my side, it made me a lifeless corpse...

Until one day, my best friend Edward Liem came to visit me.

He was very worried about seeing my destruction.

The messy state of the house, as well as myself who looked like a person who had lost her sanity, made her introduce me to a psychiatrist.

At first I was reluctant to follow her advice, because for me, visiting a psychiatrist, wouldn't get my Jenny back into my arms!

But I realized when Edward said...

"Visiting a psychiatrist may not necessarily bring your ex-wife back, however... Looking at all this chaos, I think it will make him even more reluctant to return!" He then poured the white wine back into the glass.

Instantly, I looked towards him.

"Make yourself better than ever!" He said shortly after taking a sip of his drink.

"Start all over again, and do what makes him accept you!"

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In the end, Edward's words awakened me... Until finally, I was willing to follow his advice, see a psychiatrist!

Nataschya Wilhelmine!

I really thank him, because...

Thanks to her, I was able to return to being a much better Park Young Joon!

He's a good psychiatrist, who can help me to get up from my slump!

He is also the one who can make me a better person than ever!

He almost always said that, every time I would vent my feelings about Jenny.

"I don't think you fully understand your true feelings for your ex-wife, Park!" He said with a smile.

I looked at him in wonder.

He then got up from his seat, then brewed coffee.

"What do you mean?" I said, then turned to him.

Nataschya, who had finished brewing two cups of coffee, sat back in his place, just after placing two cups of coffee, at the table located right in front of him.

He smiled, instead of answering me.

"You're telling me your love is just gushing at him?"

I nodded immediately.

"Yes! I can't look at another woman!" Answer me with certainty.

Again he smiled.

"Park, have you ever heard of, what is obsession?"

I seemed to understand, where is this conversation going.

"You mean, my feelings for Jenny, not love, and just obsession?" Sinisku.

Nataschya was aware of my unfavorable attitude towards his words. He smiled, then sipped his coffee.

"Not really, it's just..."

"Nataschya, I really understand myself more than anyone else..."

"Park, listen! I didn't mean to offend you, just... Understand one thing." Say it with a firm look.

"First of all, you should be able to understand about your feelings first!" He stood up and walked towards me.

"You must be able to determine which of your feelings are more dominant, and then..."

I stood up immediately, and approached him.

"Listen, Nataschya! I understand that better, more than anything!" My words then passed.

However, when I had just touched the doorknob of her room, my steps came to a halt when Nataschya said...

"Don't let it grow simultaneously, moreover, when your obsession is greater than your love!"

Silence, until I finally passed...

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Obsession and love!

Nah! Of course, my feelings for Jenny were not an obsession!

It's pure love! Without even a hint of being peppered by obsession!

I don't know what Nataschya had in mind, when he said that! It's just, it really does bother my heart!

About Jenny...

After I returned to being the Park Young Joon she once knew, I went back to find out about him.

Where he is, what he does, and... About his plan to return to Indonesia!

According to the news I heard, Jenny has got her master's degree!

Ahhh.. Of course I'm so happy to hear it!

And our parents...

I don't even have the guts to say that to them! It will never!

I think Jenny felt the same way, too, because neither my parents, nor her parents, ever talked about it.