Love, Life, and Jennifer
Excuse Me?!

"Feeling my mother-in-law is the best!" Young Joon stared at the food in front of him very greedily.

I turned to him, who was focused on enjoying his meal.

"You are, Young Joon! Just make mom embarrassed." Mama blushed.

I turned to my mother, who was now embarrassed.

"Remove it, if you like it!" Mom seemed excited

"No, Jen! You have to learn to cook with your mom! Let Young Joon stay home." Papa turned his head towards me, then bribed his dishes.

I turned to Papa, smiled, then went back to eating my meal.

While eating family like this, I thought of something.

What if mom and dad find out about my divorce?

I can't imagine their sad facial expressions, when I told them, about it!

I couldn't imagine what would happen to them after I told them about my divorce.

And this made my appetite disappear instantly!

"Ma, rich'nya I no longer feel good stomach, deh. I'm going in first." I immediately got up from my seat.

They were all aghast, then mom suddenly said.

"Jen, don't you get pregnant, son!" My mother stopped my steps.

The three of them stared at me!

I was pensive, how could it happen in just 5 days?!

"From the beginning, you look glum, son!" Mom and Dad suddenly approached me.

They are now looking at my face.

"We're going to the gynecologist, baby..."

Mama nagged both of my cheeks, and stared expectantly.

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"There are no signs of fertilization, but if calculated since the last time it was related, there should have been fertilization." The obstetrician explained as he stared at the screen across from where I was lying.

Both my parents, as well as Young Joon were staring expectantly at the monitor.

Mom and Dad are staring at each other, and so are I and Young Joon.

"The mess, how, doc?" Young Joon made sure.

The doctor then removed the device from his ear.

"You may be too tired to hinder the process of conception." The doctor looked at Young Joon's face.

"Then?" It was my mother's turn to ask

"We'll see another 1 week, Oya! If you can, you hold it, yeah." The doctor smiled as he said that, followed by the smiles of his mother and father, as well as the wrong faces of me and Young Joon.

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"I can't wait another week! Hope we get some happy news! Ohya, we need to contact papa Young Joon's mom!" Mama says.

Mama then took the initiative to reach for her phone, I just fell silent.

"Well, that's right!" Papa's sahut.

Young Joon then starts the car engine, then drives it forward.

"Yes, my father and mother should hear this happy news!" Young Joon looks really happy.

While me?

I feel something is wrong here!

Among them, maybe I am the only one who feels unhappy!

I worry about a lot of things!

If so, I'm finally pregnant...

If true...

"Jen, Young Joon's mom wants to talk!" Mama then handed me her phone, and I grabbed it with some hesitation.

"Jennys... ！！ ⁇ , ⁇ !((we heard it! Good Lord! After waiting for quite a while, we will finally get a grandson!)" Eomma sounded very happy across the street.

I felt a little claustrophobic hearing the joy of eomma, and I could faintly hear the sound of appa giving word to the people around there.

"Yes ma. (Doctors say that we should go there within a week to be sure of the result.)" My eyes glazed over when I said that.

Young Joon noticed, and immediately asked for the phone, I immediately handed my mother's phone to him.

"" ... ! ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ (mum, pray... I really want to have a son! I'd be the happiest man on the face of this earth, if that were to happen.)" Young Joon's eyes glazed over as he spoke to his mother.

Although I don't know for sure what they're talking about, I can assure you, Young Joon is very much looking forward to my pregnancy.

Young Joon shed tears, as did I.

But the difference is, Young Joon shed tears of hope full of happiness, while I, I shed tears of pain.

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It's been the fourth day since we came to the hospital to see a gynecologist.

I'm coming to the moon, Dad... I feel relieved! To forget many things.

I'm looking for pads that I usually keep in my special drawer of personal gear, nil!

I forgot, it's been a long time since I left this house, and it's impossible to find here.

I decided to go to a mini market that is located quite far from my home.

While passing through the living room, it appears that Young Joon was having a warm conversation with both of my parents.

Mama greeted me

"Where are you going, Jen?" Greetings mama

"You go to the mini market, for a second." My answer then passed

"What do you want to buy, son?" Papa's sahut.

I stopped my steps, then turned to look at Papa

"You bought a pad." I answered, then I pensively.

I then realized something! Aren't they waiting for news of my pregnancy?

Aren't we going back 3 days to see the gynecologist, to confirm my pregnancy?

Wasn't...

I looked at their disappointed faces.

My mother has shed tears now.

And papa rubbed my shoulders, to calm my mother. Then Young Joon...

"I'll drive Jenny." He said he then got up from his seat, and walked towards me, now riveted, feeling guilty.

"Let's go." Young Joon took my hand.

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Young Joon's gaze was blank, instead of concentrating when driving.

I understand the meaning of the question.

"Are you expecting me to be pregnant?" I looked at him, a little mocking.

Young Joon suddenly pulled over the car, and opened the seat belt, then turned towards me.

"OF COURSE I WAS EXPECTING IT!!!" Young Joon yelled at me.

I was really surprised to see him like this!

"Didn't you see how your parents' expressions were!!!" Young Joon still raised his voice.

"And about my parents????!!!!" Young Joon returns to his original position, then holds his head, and slightly pulls his hair with both hands.

"Why can you say such a thing so easily!" Young Joon looked at me sharply again.

My eyes now glazed over, he said as if, I am the cause of this mess! I smiled bitterly.

"DON'T YOU HAVE A LITTLE FEELING WHEN..."

"IS THIS ALL MY FAULT!!!" I shouted at him.

"IF I'M NOT PREGNANT, IS THIS MY FAULT???!!!" I screamed back to him

"THIS IS NOT WHAT YOU EXPECT..."

'Byhoo!!'kkkk!!!'

I slapped him in the face before he could continue.

My slap was so hard, that it made the corner of his lips hurt.

Young Joon looked at my face, with teary eyes.

He didn't touch his cheek at all.

"Be aware of something, Mr. Park Young Joon... I'm not your wife anymore." I said in a stammer. Then my tears flowed down after.

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Young Joon and I calmed down the mom who was sobbing on her bed, and Papa who was trying to calm her down

"When mommy made plans with Joon, we want to do this." Mama said while sobbing

"Udahlah, ma... Maybe it's not time yet..." Papa embraces mom's body soothingly

"I'm sorry, ma..." I'm lirih.

I felt so sorry, that I shed tears, that my mother was silent for a moment, and then hugged me.

"It's not your fault, son... It's all our fault that we expect too much, and quickly draw conclusions..." Mama came back crying.

Young Joon and papa looked at our novelty. Mama took off her arms, then held my face with both hands.

"Don't think of the macems, baby... No one's turning you in here! It's purely God's way." Mama gave me spirit.

Papa and Young Joon smiled at me and Mom.

"In that case, what if we go back to our apartment in Kemang? Looks like Jenny took some time to calm down for a while?" Young Joon suddenly said something that made no sense to me.

"Sorry...?" I look at his face in wonder

"Aaahh, you're right, Young Joon! Maybe this is better! You think you can look at each other..."

"Pa...!" I interrupted papa's words.

"Jen, pay attention, ever since you came here, something's been wrong with you." Papa's words were shady, yet firm

"We're both fine, pa... Isn't that right, Oppa?" I immediately looked at Young Joon, but Young Joon looked clumsy.

"Jen, this mama is a mother... Mama can understand, if something's wrong, between you and your husband." Mama said.

I looked at my mom's face.

"You said, Young Joon couldn't come, it turns out he came with you. And ever since you came here, I've seen your attitude towards Young Joon when you're here, it's just as different as your attitude towards Young Joon in America." Mom again.

I pensively heard my mother's words, then thought, even something like this alone, could make my mother so sad!

What if my mom found out about...

I looked at my face inside, my eyes glazed over the deep sadness that was implied in the look on my face.

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"I'll probably be back in DC in 2 days, I'll just take 2 weeks off." Young Joon said without turning his head towards me, and continued to focus on driving.

I didn't listen to his words at all.

Foolish with it all!

The sooner he gets back to America, the better!

I didn't ask him to come here.

"And you, when are you going back to America?" Young Joon's words this time teased me, I turned towards him

"I'm sorry?" I looked at him blankly, and the tone of voice was flat.

Young Joon glanced at me, then looked straight ahead.

"Do you not intend..."

"Why am I going back there?" I smiled bitterly as I said that, looking at his face that was focused on finding an empty parking lot in the parking lot of our apartment.

"My business is done there! And I have no reason to go back there." I said with an astonished look to Young Joon.

Young Joon stopped the car when we got the parking lot.

He turned off the car engine, then opened the seat belt, then turned towards me.

"Aren't you planning on finding a job there?" Young Joon looked at my face which was now looking at him in wonder.

"You can work in my company, and live in our house..."

"Our house?" I interrupted his words.

Young Joon took a deep breath. Silence, until...

"Yes, you're right! It's no longer our home..." YoungJoon looked lethargic, then looked down.

"I bought it in your name, so, it's your home." He then looked at my face.

"I'm the one who should..."

"Omong empty!" I turned back, laughing.

"What's really inside your head, huh!" Sinisku.

I still feel completely astonished by the man who is currently next to me.

"You...!"

Young Joon replied with great confidence! He's still staring at me now.

I was really reluctant to look at him, until I finally decided to remove my seatbelt, intending to get out of the car immediately to end this 'sad' conversation, but Young Joon was swiftly blocking me!

He took my hand, until I looked at him with a furious look.

"If I ever did anything hurtful and senseless to keep you from leaving, then now I'm going to do something crazy, to get you back in my arms."

Young Joon said very emotionally, and teary eyes, followed by my hateful gaze!