Love For My Sad Boy
Chapters 1. A Complicated Start

...Let everything go as it should. Let me take care of everything myself. Injured myself I've soaked all the flavors. Because I can't expect a love that never will....

..._______...

Love comes without knowing when and to whom it is anchored. Arkan agrees with that. Because he feels it himself. It feels good to see the girl he loves smiling happily, laughing loosely, though not for it. It feels happy when the girl is nearby, although she is not the main cause. Even though the girl was with him to accompany others. Accompanying his own best friend. Yeah, Arkan loves his best friend's lover.

Actually he does not really want to betray his best friend let alone seize his lover. For a long time, he had been holding a taste in the girl the first time they met. However, just as he was about to express his feelings to the girl, he lost quickly. He must first hear the news of the relationship between the girl he loves and his best friend. Forced, he had to give up his feelings before springing up. Because Arkan doesn't want a long-standing friendship to be ruined just because of a girl.

He said that love should not be. That's what Arkan did. For almost a year he felt the pain of seeing the affection of a beloved girl with her best friend. The sense of wanting to snatch must be there, even every day, every time they see their interaction, it feels as if it is getting bigger. But no, he should not be selfish. He is sure, he is happy if his best friend and girlfriend are happy. Even though his heart had to bear a lot of wounds, it was fine. He is willing, as long as the girl is happy.

"Arkan! Whoa!"

Arkan awakens from his daydream of sadness as Faris shakes his shoulders. He realized that he had been daydreaming ever since. As a result of his heart again scratched because he saw them give each other affection in front of him.

"Ar, lo why the hell? Think again what? Keep daydreaming, feelings?" That's what Silva asked. Faris's lover Arkan also loved.

This is one of the traits that makes Arkan love Silva so deeply that he is willing to endure all the pain to see Silva happy. Silva is considerate, he cares about anyone. Not seeing who he is, knowing or not, whether he is or hates him, Silva still helps and is kind to that person if he is in trouble and he can help. Silva is kind and warm to everyone.

Again Arkan drifted in his own mind while looking deeply at Silva. Now, it was Rafan's turn to step in to wake him up.

Rafan brings his face to Arkan's ear and whispers there. "Don't be ignored if you still want our friendship to remain intertwined! Remember, it's your own decision."

Arkan then turned his eyes away from Silva's face. He saw the screen of his cellphone and then got up and attached the bag on his shoulder.

"Eum... I have to go back first, huh. I forgot I had an appointment. I'm going first, yeah!" arkan said while putting the phone in his pants pocket.

"Gue nebeng lo, huh? Hee." Rafan came to his feet and said ending the wide grin.

Rafan's white face with curved eyes formed an eye smile and his shag teeth make Arkan powerless to resist anxiety. He also damaged Rafan's brown hair to channel his anxiety.

"OK, come!" arkan answered and said goodbye to Faris and Silva then passed away from them.

"But I'll go down at the red light, huh?" keep Arkan glancing at Rafan who is walking beside him.

"Yes, don't, dong! What if I get kidnapped?" rafan did not accept.

"Oh yeah, you're a kid, aren't you?" reply Arkan while embracing Rafan's shoulder.

"Have a son! I'm so good, woy!" rafan yelled a little tiptoe in order to reach Arkan's ears.

Arkan chuckled amusedly while trying to keep his ears away. "Where are you trying so hard? Can you take this candy in my hand?" Arkan raised his hand high so that Rafan could not reach him.

"okay! If it's for me, yes!" rafan answered and then tried to reach the candy by climbing Arkan's body.

"Woy, don't cheat dong, lo!" rafan exclaimed as Arkan moved the candy into his other hand.

Rafan stepped on Arkan's feet very hard making Arkan screech and squat holding his feet. That way, Rafan can easily take the candy from Arkan.

"Get me, what did I say? I'm already big," said Rafan while eating his favorite milk candy.

***

A beautiful melody is created from both hands that work together to tickle a guitar in its deck. Along with a heavy but melodious voice creates a sense of comfort that will be felt by anyone who hears.

🎶 You don't have to say your heart

Everything is implied in your two eyes

Save all the effort to make me believe

Everything is good

Because I can't

Expecting a love that never will be

🎶 Already, now I let go

Love, which I used to be proud of

I realize this isn't all your fault

I am not for you

I don't know when that song became her favorite. For sure, every night he sang this song. A song that seemed to describe his feelings that he could not express to Silva - the girl he loved.

Arkan can only harbor all tastes because Silva has owned his best friend. Even so, he did not intend to move on and switch on another heart. He just wants to love Silva even if he always has to be hurt. Again, Arkan is willing as long as Silva is happy. Say Arkan is stupid. But this is how you love. For now, let himself be immersed in the bitterness of love clapping one hand, until he has come to his limit to give up.

Tok tok!

"Arkan! Let's have dinner first! Everyone is waiting downstairs!"

Arkan then keeps his guitar on the couch and gets up to meet the person who calls him behind the door.

"Yes, Mah. Come on down!" arkan replied with a gentle smile after opening the door and then embracing the mother to walk beside him.

Lisa just smiled and patted Arkan on the cheek. He was already used to the spoiled nature of this eldest child.

They also went down the stairs to the dining room.

"Arkan, there's something Papa wants to talk about after dinner with you," Setya said after Arkan and Lisa joined the dinner table.

"Yes, Pah," Arkan replied without asking further about what he would talk about.

"Let's eat, hey!" arkan told Nesya-his sister who is still in junior high school. And then the grin and nod was answered by the girl.

Nesya's habit of wanting to know something but she knows that she is not allowed to know something, Nesya will stare at the object while wondering what is hidden from her.

***

As Setya said before dinner, Arkan, Setya and Lisa are now sitting on the couch in the living room. Nesya was ordered to go into her room to study.

"What's up, Pah?" ask Arkan to look at Setya.

"Before, you have to promise first not to rush to refuse" said Setya, who was embraced by Arkan without debate.

"We do this so that your future and the future of our business are assured. At present, Papa's company is cooperating with Papa's old friend company whose influence is quite wide, almost comparable to Papa's company. Papa's best friend intends to betroth you to his daughter when he learns that Papa also has a son the same age as his son. Papa agreed with the proposal. But not for our company. His daughter is also very good, polite, smart, achiever in school, and many more advantages. Papa thinks he's a good fit for you. So, what do you think?" setya explained slowly.

"Who is that girl, Dad?" ask Arkan even though his heart is not interested.

"The girl is beautiful, her name is Silvana Octavia Hanum."

That instant also his breath felt choked and his heart seemed to stop beating. Why does it feel like everything is getting more complicated?

...Seriate......

Note :

Play song: Already - Afghan