Love For My Sad Boy
Chapter 76. I'm your Kangen, Va...

Both of his eyes had just opened. Actually, he was human. He was just sleeping.

When Silva hasn't arrived, Arkan just woke up. But, the pain in the head instantly ambushed him violently. He also felt pain in every inch of his body, but could not do anything including asking for help because of talking and moving, he could not yet. His body is still under anesthesia. So Arkan decided to go to sleep again, hoping that after waking up the pain had lessened.

Arkan is awakened by Silva's movements, who climbs into the cage and hugs him, crying tesedu on his shoulder while saying what has happened. Arkan is eager to deny Silva's bad allegations against him, but he still can't do anything about it. Even because of that, Silva was not aware that he had already opened his eyes. 

Until a few moments Silva out of the room, Arkan can only move. Although his entire body was sore, Arkan did not care. He ran to find Silva. Remembering what he said, his feelings became uncomfortable. He was worried that something would happen to Silva.

In the fifth-floor corridor, Arkan is confused as to where to look for Silva. Up in front of the stairs, he was confused to use the stairs up to the sixth floor or down. Until a middle-aged man came from the sixth floor with a panicked face.

"Sir, sir, what's up, huh?" ask Arkan to stop the man from moving.

"There's a girl who's suicidal, Mom. It's on the roof. I'm going downstairs for help-"

"Let me, sir!" cut Arkan and then immediately go up to the top floor and go up again to the rooftop. I don't know why, but he's sure that the girl the man is referring to is Silva.

Hurriedly, Arkan opened the door of the rooftop and instantly his eyes widened. He saw Silva standing on the roof with one leg that was no longer resting on the barrier. He's ready to jump free.

"Silva!"

Hap! Bruk!

Silva had already shed his body and was almost in freefall. Lucky, Arkan arrived on time. Before Silva fell, he caught his body and pulled it down on the rooftop floor.

Instantly, there were boisterous sounds of people watching who were relieved that Silva had been saved.

Arkan looked at Silva who was still closing his eyes tightly in dismay. However, he slowly breathed a sigh of relief as he was now convinced that Silva had actually survived and was now in his arms. Arkan then sat their bodies down and hugged Silva. He drowned his face on Silva's shoulder and broke his face there. Feeling the warmth that spread from Silva's body to his heart. He really misses this girl.

While Silva slowly opened his eyes. He looked around him. Still on the rooftop and now he's in someone's arms. A man she misses so much.

"I miss you, Va.." - Arkan was slightly muffled on Silva's shoulder.

Hearing the shrillness made both eyes of Silva drop the water without being asked. Without thinking twice, Silva replied to Arkan's response by not losing tightly. He also missed his Arkan.

"I'm more upset." replied Silva who sounded vibrating.

A smile is imprinted on Arkan's lips. With his eyes still closed in Silva's arms, he rubbed Silva's hair gently. However, that smile had to wear off as Silva said something that shouldn't need to be said.

"I'm sorry."

Arkan's forehead shriveled at Silva's apology. He withdrew and looked at Silva's lowered face.

"Why are you sorry?" Arkan asked very gently as he rubbed both of Silva's cheeks wet with tears. Then he lifted Silva's chin to look at him.

However, it seemed that it was not enough for Silva to stare only at Arkan's eyes. The girl was still trying to stare at anything as long as it did not collide with the dark net of Arkan looking at her shady and softly.

"A, I. I failed to take care. I can't be a mom, I can't take good care of you, I don't want to be a wife ka-hmmp!"

Arkan silenced Silva's lips with a ci*man. He really doesn't like to hear Silva blame himself. In that link, Arkan tries to channel his dislike but still does it gently. Their tears dripped down each other's cheeks. Moisturizing the ranum both. Complement their grief in that link.

"Don't blame yourself for what's not your fault. I know you are so because you worry about me, because you think too much of me. So, here I am also wrong. I'm sorry, yeah."

Silva shook his head firmly. "No, you're not wrong. I should have taken better care of it. A, i..."

"Shhh... Want me to ci*m again?"

Arkan's threat instantly made Silva silenced and his body stiffened.

Arkan can feel it. He hugged Silva with a sigh. Then, he released it back. Silva's hands were held for him.

"Herper me! It's not all your fault, it's not my fault either. But this is God's destiny. Perhaps, we are still not trusted to take care of children. Maybe God is kind enough to give us a chance to prepare first. So that I can finish my school, can learn business first, can learn first. You are too. Maybe God wants you to prepare first so that you can be a good wife and mother later. You want to be a highly educated woman? Maybe this is an opportunity for you. You can home school until graduation and continue your studies. Aye right?"

However, Silva shook his head. "No, Ar. I graduated High School pretty. I won't be asking to go to college, because my ideals have changed. That is, being a good wife to you."

Now, it was Arkan's turn to shake. "No, Va! This is your chance to achieve your goals. I won't ask for us to marry soon. You can finish college first. Even me..." Arkan hung up his sentence with a downcast look.

"Why, Arkan?" tanya Silva urged Arkan to continue his sentence.

"I'll let you choose me or not."

"You mean?!" suzerainty Silva looked at Arkan with her eyebrows steeped and eyes glazed back. Even his hands had already released their grasp.

Arkan looked at Silva's reaction. He tried to regain Silva's hand, but Silva quickly withdrew his hand.

"Silva, plis kicked me first! Relax, okay?"

"Where can I calm down?! You talk like I'm in a relationship with us! As if I had suffered with you all this time! So, all this time all the attention and statements of love that I said, does not mean anything to you?!" Silva looked at Arkan with a disappointed look and a trembling eyeball.

Arkan could not look at him any longer. He closed his eyes and then looked down.

Silence rippled between them. Busy with conflicting thoughts.

Arkan loves Silva very much, but he also feels he has become a hindrance to the girl in his relationship with the man he loves, Faris. It is also a barrier to Silva's desire to achieve his dream.

In fact, Silva has loved Arkan sincerely. Even half his soul seemed to have been given to Arkan. But what did the man think?

"You want it, okay, I'll go!" Silva got up and walked towards the door, away from Arkan who remained in his position. He bowed, closing his eyes, allowing tears to flow through his cheeks.

A moment later, Arkan no longer heard Silva's footsteps. He looked up and saw Silva's back stopping in front of the rooftop door.

"But you should know, Ar! Don't think I'm leaving because I want Faris again! I'm leaving, not for Faris. But, for you! You want me to go. Goodbye, and the spit is healed, yes."

It felt like Arkan wanted to run over to Silva and hug the girl right now. But, the decision is unanimous. He did not want to burden Silva with his feelings. Silva must be free to choose and achieve his goals. And so, what Arkan did as Silva continued his move away from the rooftop was silence. Not holding back or chasing. Because it should be like that.

...Seriate......