Love For My Sad Boy
Chapters 77. The more Love

Stepping gontai, Silva walked through the park with an empty view. His eyes were still wet with tears. He wanted to stop crying, but he was powerless. Her tears always shed when she remembered Arkan's words. He felt very disappointed in Arkan and his thoughts. During the unconscious, Arkan dreamed Silva wanted to leave him, until the moment he realized Arkan thought like that? All this time, he has been very honest about his feelings. Almost every time they were together, Silva always expressed his feelings that loved Arkan, as well as the man. Always showing such sweet affection to Silva. So where did that thought come from?

If you know it will be this way, it is better that Silva just revolted when rescued Arkan. Let him fall from the hospital rooftop to death rather than having to experience such a painful event. It felt even more painful than when she miscarried. Should he repeat his experiment?

"Silva!"

Silva was aghast as he felt his shoulder being patted by someone. He looked around for the man's whereabouts but found no one beside him. Silva turned his body back and had to be surprised because Faris suddenly appeared before him.

"BA!"

"Faris! Just ngagetin! What the hell?" maui Silva bent both his eyebrows.

"Well, sorry... How tearing, anyway? You got a problem?" faris asked with a regretful face.

Without answering, Silva shook his head slowly.

"Sadly yes, Arkan is unconscious? Patient, yes. It must be a little more Arkan Siuman. He's wash with you, certainly won't last long won't see you," said Faris with a thin but sincere smile.

Silva looked at Faris who seemed ordinary to say his words.

"Why?" faris asked looking at the reaction of Silva staring at her face.

"You.. don't papa?" Silva asked back with a slight hesitation.

Faris' smile expanded as if he understood what Silva meant. "I'm good, really."

"I'm sorry, yeah. I-i-"

"Shhh... I'm not papa, really, Va. You can't keep on beating yourself up. You can see for yourself how I am. I'm fine, even more than good. Instead I have to say thank you to you because you already want to survive and want to try to be happy with Arkan. In fact, at that time you did not know, if the culprit was not Arkan? But you-"

"What?" cut Silva made Faris instantly silent.

Faris just realized that it turns out Silva did not know the truth or was not told? If indeed Silva should not know, surely soon Faris will be in trouble for telling Silva something they deliberately cover up. Then, how is this? Inner Faris.

"Oh..." Both of Faris' eyes blinked quickly trying to find another answer. However, Silva urged him to answer honestly.

"Faris!" silva exclaimed firmly, maybe even feeling frustrated at Faris' attitude as if trying to cover something from him, because he almost cried. Making Faris stop looking for excuses, turning to look at Silva with a look of pity.

"I know you're covering something up from me. Please, now please tell me. I deserve to know, right?" silva pleaded in a soft voice.

Of course Faris is not. Finally he nodded slowly. "Yes, you deserve to know, because it's about you. Yes, I will tell you. We're sitting there, yuk!"

Silva nodded then followed Faris towards a long chair in the park not far from where they were.

Now, they've been sitting side by side. Faris noticed Silva's chaotic state. As long as he was dating the girl, Silva had never been this upset. For sure the problem Silva has just experienced is a very big problem. He hesitated to tell Silva the truth. Worried that Silva's situation will get worse.

"Faris! Why even diem? Let's clear!"

"Euh... How, huh? I'm afraid you're getting screwed, Va. Now I see you are so fucked up. You want to tell me first?" tawar Faris looked at Silva concerned.

"I'll tell you that you've told me what you've been keeping from me. Everyone must know, right? Because it's impossible if you know but others do not," replied Silva seemed not to be denied.

Faris nodded. "Everyone knows, except you. But this is a request from Arkan. Just so you know, we must have told you if Arkan does not deny. I'm also confused by her thoughts, but after knowing the reason, I understand that Arkan really loves you, Va. He doesn't want you to do anything. He's willing to be hated by you than you have to worry about hating yourself."

Silva smiled smirkingly at Faris' words. Arkan loved her very much, he said. Maybe it was then, now he could not be sure because of the thing that Arkan had just told him. Even the man let her go without bothering to hold her back to simply explain a more plausible reason.

"Va, one thing is at the heart of this fact that you don't know yet. Actually, Arkan is not the culprit who framed you let alone to take your chastity."

"Yes, the one who confessed 'that' to you that night wasn't Arkan. It's Arkan who saved you."

Silva shook his head with both eyes closed. "I don't know what you mean. But I hope it's a good thing. Tell me from the beginning."

"Okay, I'll tell you a story but you have to promise you won't hate Arkan after this. That's what he did for you. The point is, Arkan is in love with you, Va. She loves you so much. Okay?"

Silva nodded confidently and began to listen to the facts and the actual events. Which certainly makes Silva stunned, not expecting the real incident and the thing he experienced. He never knew that the fetus he had conceived was not Arkan flesh blood. He was never told that Arkan was not the culprit, but quite the opposite. Arkan was his savior.

Then why did Faris remind him not to hate Arkan? How will he hate the man, even he loves Arkan more and more. But now the guilt is also great. Silva was desperate to return to the hospital and hugged Arkan while crying. He could not imagine how sick Arkan was when he accused the man of being the perpetrator who had taken away his chastity. It must have been very difficult because Faris also said that Arkan loved her very much. Even before Silva was in a relationship with Faris. However, he increasingly felt unworthy of Arkan. He had already inflicted too many wounds on the man's heart.

Faris could no longer resist hugging Silva as the girl's cry completely broke. He held Silva's body vibrating violently. It must be hard to accept everything. The rubbing of Silva's back to be calmer.

"A, a, I'm not ta-u..."

"Shhh... Okay, don't talk about anything. You cry first, come out all the crying. If you are calm, then you can talk again. Now, cry first. You can come and hug me," Faris bargained but then even screamed pain because Silva pinched his waist.

"Yes, yeah, don't hurt me. Let me hurt you, yeah."

For a few minutes, Silva cried in Faris' arms. He did not think of any risks, which he felt was himself who needed a warm hug to calm himself.

After feeling calmer and able to control himself, Silva pulled away from Faris' embrace. Tears on both cheeks.

"Where? Is it better?" faris asked looking at the lowered Silva.

Silva nodded then raised his head. "Thank you, Ris. If there wasn't you, I might have killed myself again."

At once Faris' body stiffened. "What's? Suicide again? Have you ever killed yourself? Te-continue, if you ever kill yourself, who in front of me now dong? Ghost time?!"

Unable to hold back his laughter, Silva laughed amusedly. "No, Faris. I'm still alive, really. I mean, if there wasn't you, maybe I'd try to kill myself again."

Faris rubbed her chest while sighing in relief. "Thank God, if you're Silva's ghost. Uh, but! What did you say just now? Suicide again?! Then have you ever tried to commit suicide?!"

Hearing Faris's resolute tone, Silva lowered his head deeply. His long relationship with Faris, made him quite aware that Faris was currently disappointed in him.

From his place, Silva knew Faris was shaking inexhaustibly about the actions he had taken.

"Next time, you can't do that again! If there's a problem, you can tell us all the same. Same with me, same with Arkan, same mother father, same with your friends. Don't kayak a stick of kara dong, Va. What do you think we are? We are all people who love you. We will not refuse, if you want to tell a story. It will help you so that you can solve your problems. Never think of suicide again! Okay?" faris held Silva's hand.

The girl nodded slowly without answering or looking at Faris.

While Faris smiled slightly. He was already convinced that Silva was quite sorry for his actions. Then one hand was raised patting the head of Silva gently.

"Yes, let me bring you home! You must be guarded Aunt Laras so as not to do strange things again," said Faris rose from his seat and extended his hand before Silva.

With pursed lips, Silva received Faris' hand and stood up. However, he soon let go of Faris' hand and walked away from Faris with both feet stomping to the ground.

"Josebel is Faris! What strange thing? I'm not doing anything weird, really!" silva's grumbling can still be heard by Faris.

Faris held back her laughter as she looked at Silva's playful mannerisms. That same girl who was crying broke out in his arms? Why change so quickly? But, behind that Faris is convinced that Silva is still fragile. It's too fragile to have another problem. Well, hopefully after this no more problems come and this problem is quickly resolved.

"Faris, go! He said he wanted me to come home?! How come you're even dumb?"

...Seriate......