Love Language
Family honor
Although I was hesitant to continue this matchmaking, but I did not want to make my parents disappointed over the change of my decision later.
I do not want to make them embarrassed and disappointed because of me, although honestly I am more confused by the attitude of Rio mas so far who sometimes care so much but sometimes he is so indifferent and indifferent.
I also feel that everyone is not being honest with me about the status and origins of the Rio mas family.
"Darling! how do you daydream?"
Mama nudged my arm.
"Eh! yes ma? no. No, it's nothing!"
I answered while lighting the tivi in front of us, trying to melt the atmosphere.
"Dear, why you? you're not planning on changing your mind, are you? the engagement is tonight!"
Mama stroked my shoulders slowly, making me fight with all my might to maintain the tears that had been born in the eye so as not to flood this homeland.
"Y.......!"
I hugged my mother while crying and then rubbed my tears again so as not to invite his friends to follow out of my eyes later.
"Darling, what's wrong?"
Mama looked at my face so deeply and helped me wipe away the rest of my tears that were still wetting my cheeks.
"Tell me son, if there's anything that's stuck in your mind!"
"Free ma, everything has gone.I can't possibly retreat even if I honestly doubt!"
I started to get up from my seat, walked over to the glass window and then saw the surrounding scenery that I really did not care much about.
"What do you mean, baby? say it!"
"No ma, I'm talking whatever's the point? I don't have a chance to choose, do I?"
"Honey, we can't do anything because all this is a will from grandfather and it has become his agreement with the Wijaya family."
My mother explained to me.
Mama hugged me back from the side while kissing my cheeks many times with the roar of tears that now flowed profusely from her narrow eyes.
"Ma.....! mama don't cry dong! Rara is sad..!"
I turned around while rubbing my mama's cheeks which had now been flooded by tears.
I never saw my mother cry, when I saw her tears my heart felt completely destroyed when my world collapsed instantly.
"I'm sorry dear mom, forgive me! mama can't do anything, if only you never brought you into the Anggara family maybe you don't have to bear all this."
"Ma...all this may have been a destiny that we have to go through and I have to go through ma!"
"Honey, don't make mama more guilty again.If indeed you want to cancel all this is okay as long as you are happy and feel free! mommy's gonna talk about this with papa."
I told my mom not to rush out of my room.
"Mah.....!"
I shook my head while hugging my mom, how many times we hugged each other.
"Don't ma!"
"Why baby? it's for your happiness!"
"It's also about the honor of our family ma!"
I said as I let go of my embrace on my mother's body.
"Darling......!"
"Ma.. I don't want to embarrass papa, mama and our family's good name ma."
My lips again developed a smile that looked full of falsehood so that my mother did not think too much about what I just said to her.
SERIATE......