Love Language
Pregnant....?

I could only stand still with tears in my eyes when I realized that she had really paid me this time.

He still lay face down on me while trying to regulate the breath that is still boring.

"B......!"

My screams were held back by my cries while gripping the bedsheet full of anger.

"Darling.forgive me! I can't control myself this time, I'm really sorry.....!"

His whisper while caressing and wiping my tear-soaked cheeks.

"Keep away from me now!"

I was upset and immediately ran to the bathroom, hoping that what was spilled did not really go inside and would come back out soon.

I'm really afraid that if the seeds will actually grow and multiply in there, he's really evil for having done this to me.

Many times Rio's knocked and even banged on the bathroom door, but I still didn't say anything at all.

I really don't think about her always doing whatever she wants without thinking about my feelings at all.

After coming out of the bathroom I just kept quiet not poking at all, even a million times on my mama apologise even though I no longer listen.

I was not only upset, but also angry at him this time.He was indeed outrageous! what he did this time had truly exceeded the limit.

Maybe this is what people call the word in love heart ask heart.

"Don't touch me again!"

My bent on him while looking back at him as he tried to grab my hand and hug my body from behind when I was already lying next to him.

"Well, I won't touch you again, but please forgive me."

His request with a pleading sounding tone.

While I just keep my eyes closed trying to fall asleep, my mind is now filled with the shadow of pregnancy.Today what is the difference between me and Jesika? I'll be like him soon.

We'll give birth in the not too distant future, maybe if our children are grown up will be schoolmates like me and Jesi now.

"Mas...my stomach hurts......!"

I pulled and squeezed his hands firmly, the sweat on my face was no longer counted how many liters if collected.

A doctor and two nurses helped me in a delivery procession tonight.On the bed of the delivery room I kept screaming in pain while trying to force my breath.

"Doctor..the baby......!"

Said one of the nurses in a panic to the doctor next to her.

"My baby doctor why?"

I asked in a panic to look at everyone, but there was no answer from anyone.

Mas Rio was still patiently accompanying beside me, his hand could not be separated from my grasp while occasionally stroking my forehead without a word spoken.

Slowly I heard the sound of the baby crying but slowly the incision began to disappear, sometimes the cry sounded again but it sounded like it was getting away and gone.

"Mas...Where is our baby? where's our son? um.....!"

I can only cry for my baby that I never found, I haven't even seen his face and I know his gender but it's gone.

I closed my eyes as I cried.

"Bec.....Rara's.....Ra!"

"Mas! where's our baby! where's our son mas?"

I gasped when I opened my eyes and I was already in my bedroom.Have I been taken home from the hospital? my mind while looking around and it is true that I have returned to my room, and my baby? where he is, there's no baby box or anything here.

"Infant? what baby? whose baby? Ra..you're a dream!"

Rio asked confusedly at my behavior.

I pinched my own cheek.

"Aw! it hurts..."

Then I opened the blanket that covered my body and I carried my flat, ordinary stomach, there was no sign of anything strange about me.

"Darling....are you why? did you dream because of last night? I'm sorry, I promise I won't do that stupid thing again."

Mas Rio hugged me who was just silent still like a dazed person.

"Overnight events.......?"

I recalled the incident last night, with I hurriedly pushed the body of Rio mas who was still holding me tightly until almost fell out of bed.

I just remembered that last night, and that means that the incident just now was really a dream, let me feel like my dream was really real.

Is this a sign that I'm really going to get pregnant with her child!

I felt more panicked and frustrated with this situation, what would happen if I was really pregnant? I'll definitely be in DO from school, or before I get kicked out I'd better get out first. But....that's not the same thing? I will still miss the chance to graduate, pardon me.....! my future was completely ruined in the hands of the teacher at my own school.

All day I kept thinking about it.

Starting from waking up in the morning, at breakfast, while at school, even when on the toilet even though my mind does not stop thinking about my pregnancy which soon I can not cover up.

Jesis....Jesi will definitely be the first one to laugh at me because in the end I have the same fate as him, is this really karma for me because it has taken the person he hoped for and so he was nervous all this time?

Argh! I'm really going crazy thinking about it too much.

Pregnant, pregnant, and pregnant is just that word full on my head right now.

I'm really not ready for that.

If I accidentally let him die is that also a sin? it was unintentional!

It might be different if you did it intentionally.

The night before going to bed I tried to find out from my pregnancy some articles about what should not be done pregnant people who will threaten the life of the fetus.

But I actually found another article explaining that there are some fruits that can be used to prevent pregnancy, one of the familiar is papaya and young pineapple.

A smile on my thin lips, I seem to have found a solution so that my heart can calm down at least should be tried.

"Why are you smiling? not angry anymore?"

Asked Rio mas when he just came out of the bathroom then laid his body beside me preparing to sleep.

I just looked away from him and turned my back on him without caring.

I began to make plans, tomorrow after school I will ask Mr. Pras to take me to the supermarket to look for pineapples and young papaya.

But...how to tell the difference?I don't even know how to choose.

Finally I reopen the article on how to distinguish pineapple fruit that is young and old as well as young papaya fruit.Maybe for the young the color will be fresher and greenish when compared to the old,pkirku but not so sure right before I found the exact answer.

SERIATE.......