Love That (No) Blind
Part 13: The Wife of the Sinner

[Sara]

His conversation with Agam yesterday afternoon still stuck in his memory until the morning was turned. He still found it hard to believe that Agam had told him that, after the man had just left that time. What makes you suddenly change your mind?

The strangest thing was when Agam indirectly said that he knew Sara was in his room that night. It was like a rat being trapped into a prepared trap.

“Know that yesterday there is no need to sneak everything. Use the event afraid to be found out”, Sara grumbled while working on her work in the workspace. “Which feet hurt by the sticky book.”

Fortunately, so far, all of his work is safe. No error has been found. Because Sara checked it many times.

If it is wrong, it could be dangerous later. More dangerous than his former supervisor.

Although Sara had never been scolded for her work, but seeing Agam's anger yesterday in the kitchen, it felt more or less the same.

But, it was Agam's request that he could least forget.

“Other times, don't approach while I'm being unstable.”

That sounds easy. But when Sara heard Agam's moans yesterday, seeing firsthand the fragile condition of Agam, it was not easy for Sara to just walk away, despite that time, there were plenty of opportunities for Sara to get out of that room. And that's the difficulty. Her heart.

He was not the type of person who could just leave something stuck in his heart. Seeing the Agam who was like, even though Agam himself asked for it, could he just leave without caring about what happened to Agam?

Sara doesn't know. But it is better not to dispute Agam at this time. Better just accept his request. Although pity dominates, but there is still fear of seeing Agam become like yesterday.

“Ah, sorry, sorry. Yes, I heard it. I'll do.”

However, Agam's attitude towards Widia remains the same. Nothing has changed. Widia still often delivers food, and Agam still does not want to eat it. Mbok Jami seems to have also started to get used to the strange Agam orders.

The most recent was when Widia asked her driver to send her newly bought scarves to Agam and Sara. As soon as he found out from Widia, Agam immediately ordered to be burned.

Clothes too? Not to be eaten.

“Just don't save. Burn it!,” snapped Agam gave orders for him and also Mbok Jami.

There was nothing Sara could do if that was the case, other than nagging.

“Yesterday food, now clothes, tomorrow maybe this one house is told to burn too,” grumbled Sara as slow as possible until only she herself can hear it. Because Agam was nearby.

“What did you say?!” Agam's thunderous voice almost made Sara's heart jump out.

Sara who was hiding behind Agam while talking about it was clearly not ready to get such an attack from Agam.

“What? Wh who? I didn't say anything. Wind like. Try me to close the window,” to Sara who is clearly being reasoned.

“Heran, what's the hearing aid? Why did it get heard?,” Inner Sara grumbled.

Agam was silent. Sara smiled triumphantly, but sighed her relief from having just escaped death.

Not without reason Sara became like that. Sara has begun to get caught off guard by all the attitude of Agam towards Widia, her mother. All of Agam's disapproval and rude attitude were inversely proportional when he apologized yesterday.

If indeed he was sorry about yesterday, shouldn't he also be sorry about his mother?, Sara's grumbling that was now just enough in his heart.

Remember, Sara. Agam had a trauma in his past to make it like this, another part of his heart was advising Sara, which Sara believed was definitely the part of his heart that felt sorry for Agam.

Yeah, but can he tell me what the hell is going on? Why it has to be like this. I really can't stand every time I have to see the disappointed face of Mama Widia, said Sara who still continues to fight in her heart.

How is he willing to do that? Seeing her mother in pain, her tears flowed. And this ...

O Allah, if it were not for remembering the covenant it would have felt to have been terminated.

And the highlight of all that is today. When Mama Widia came back to visit. With plenty of food and stuff for Agam and Sara, of course.

“This Mama brought lots of food. Just keep it in the fridge. Can be kept for a long time. Mama's got a vacuum sealer. So it can be durable.”

“This continues Mama bought ..”

“Quick tell Mama to go home.”

“Just don't .. bla bla bla ... “

So continued what Agam told him.

But Sara only focused on the sheer number of Widia's luggage that was removed from her big basket. Not including other items that have not been dismantled. Making Sarah complain in her heart, how many more things should be thrown away, O God?

“Try this incip bit, Agam. Mama had stopped by the shopping mall Laberge Choco Pudding, Agam subscription first. Try ah ..”

Sara knows the pudding. He had read one of the articles covering it. The millions worth of expensive pudding is now being rejected by Agam.

O God, must have been thrown away again ...

Sara couldn't take it anymore.

“Ma ...,” call Sara who is now holding Widia's wrist in charge of thrusting a spoonful of pudding for Agam.

“Sara apologize. But ...,” said Sara continued her sentence, making Widia turn away from Agam and face Sara completely. “... can next time you do not need to bring things or food a lot like this again?”

Widia looked quite surprised. Slowly, he placed the pudding he had been holding on the dining table. As for Agam, Sara could see his faint smile.

“I mean Sara, Mama can come here anytime you want, but no need to bring food or anything. No need to drive to the driver. Mama just came,” said Sara again clarified her words just now, especially after she saw the look on her mother-in-law's face that showed her surprise. Sara hurriedly fixed her sentence so as not to get the wrong intent.

“M-mama apologizes if what Mama did actually makes you uncomfortable,” said Widia who finally opened her voice, although sounded a bit nervous.

Not me, Ma. But Mas Agam ...

“T-but Mama did this because Mama was worried about Agam,” continued Widia again.

“Sara understands, Ma. Mama don't worry. There is Sara now ..”

Right in the last sentence that Sara said, Widia looked at Sara with her heartfelt gaze.

Sara's heart immediately felt heavy because it was stacked with guilt and regret. Both of her eyebrows dropped looking at Widia looking at him with such a gaze. Sara swallowed her saliva slowly.

Please forgive Sara, Ma ...

“I'll just listen to my wife. So please don't make her angry,” said Agam ending the quiet atmosphere between them.

Getting a defense from Agam like that did not make Sara happy. He turned sharply towards Agam. But once Widia's attention turned to Sara, Sara quickly changed her face as if nothing had happened.

“Yes already if Sara says so. My mother will not force anymore. But ... “

Widia suddenly grabbed Sara's hand. He then said, “... if there is anything contact Mama, yes?”

Sara smiled and nodded her head.

In the end the forced-drama ended peacefully, although Sara herself had to swallow the unpleasant feelings for Widia, the mother-in-law. But, from the chatter of Sara and her in-laws, Sara was sure that Widia was not angry in the slightest.

After Sara drove Widia to the car when her father-in-law was going home, she went back inside the house and found Agam waiting for her in the living room.

“Good work, Sara. Stay like that until Mama stops doing it,” said Agam welcoming the arrival of Sara.

Sara who was praised did not feel happy with the compliment.

“I am simply carrying out my obligations on the agreement,” Sara said in response to Agam's statement. “My opinion is still the same. You're too cruel, Mas.”

Sara just walked past Agam. But, then stop at a distance of 3 steps from Agam.

“Now I can understand the purpose of my duties in that agreement,” Sara continued. “You only want to marry a wife who can bear all the burden of your sins.”

Then Sara walked back to Agam, who remained still in his place.