Love That (No) Blind
Part 38: Crying Together

[Sara]

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“Tell me, Sara! Who could do this?

“You cooperate with Mama in the end?”

“My heart hurts a lot, Sara. It hurts so.”

“Tomorrow I'll take you home. The divorce papers I'll send you soon.”

“I'm sorry, Sara. I'm sorry ..”

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Nah!

Sara seemed to have just been thrown hard from a height. A powerful thump made him open his eyes immediately.

Dreamlike. It was just a dream ...

The voices of Agam felt like they were still stuck in his head. Keep playing over and over again to make him recall the events he experienced before he was unconscious.

Ah yes ... I fainted.

Still remembered clearly the voice of Arya who kept calling her name. And also .. his hope to be able to hear the voice of Agam.

But, what he remembered was Agam's voice when the man was rampaging earlier.

A tear fell through his net.

Sara intended to wipe away her tears, but when she turned her head to the left, she saw the figure of the man she recognized sitting on her wheelchair. Mas Agam's ...

The man is asleep. His head was down but not too deep. Sara could still see her shady face which was closing her eyes.

Sara recalled all their fights. When Agam suspected her, accused her, even blamed her. Again, Sara's tears fell slowly and soaked the pillow that became her headboard.

But I still can't hate him ...

Sara then recalled her dream.

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“I'm sorry, Sara. I'm sorry ..”

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That's Mas Agam's voice ... I don't remember, Mas Agam said that.

Sara's daydream was spoiled because it was surprised by Agam's head who was suddenly cursed. Agam also woke up.

Sara who was lying down at that moment also stared. He did not dare to move his body. He also doesn't know why he did it. Just reflexes suddenly he did.

Slowly, Agam moved his body closer to the bed, his hands began to touch the top of the bed as if looking for something.

What's he looking for?

Sara was still in a position without daring to shift a single inch. A second later, Agam's hand reached his left arm. She held Sara's palm with her left hand, and her right hand was still looking upwards, to the top of Sara's arm.

Keep going up, and go up until you reach Sara's forehead. The touching of her open palm covered Sara's forehead.

“Her temperature has gone down. Thank goodness ...,” said Agam lirih.

Agam's hand still gently hugged Sara's hand. Sometimes he rubbed it slowly like he was driving away Sara's pain.

Not long, just a few minutes. After that, Sara heard the sound of sobs. Agam let go of his grasp. Instead, the man was covering his face. Agam crying.

“I'm sorry, Sara. All my fault.”

Sara's heart immediately felt a bitter pain, watching the man weeping regretfully for all he had done. Sara could not see it. A drop of tears fell down his face.

He got up from his sleep, looked for his column to be near him, and sat down right in front of Agam. Gently, Sara touched Agam's face, then wiped her tears.

“You're aware?”

Sara took Agam's right hand. He clenched the hand, then pulled out his thumb and pinky. “Ya.”

Sara is on hiatus again, “Mas how? Still sore? Doctor said what?”

Agam did not answer. He just lowered his head.

“I take Mas to the room, yes. It still hurts, it takes a lot of rest.”

Sara was about to stand up, but Agam's hand held her arm. Sara sat back down.

“You're not angry?”

I think I'm angry. He felt guilty for that.

Sara wiped her tears, then held Agam's hands together, and signaled, “No.”

“I know I'm scared. I can't be angry with you. I'm just as scared as Mas.”

Agam chimed in softly, “Kamu ... fear what?”

“Mas is afraid that everyone will hurt Mas. I myself am afraid that Mas will not believe me again,” Sara replied in her gesture.

Although her right hand was being held by Sara, with her other hand, Agam covered her face. She was crying back.

After wiping her tears back, Sara again made a gesture over Agam's palm.

“When Mas said Mas wanted to take me home, I was afraid that time too. I'm afraid I can't see Mas anymore.”

Agam is getting sobbing crying.

“I just want to know. You can't believe me. But don't tell me to go, yeah. Because I can't leave Mas alone when Mas is in such a condition.”

Sara recalled how Raka had barred her from entering back then. It felt as though he knew there was nothing he could do but wait in front while listening to Agam's heartbreaking cry. Really, that time wanted it to feel like he pushed Raka and barged in regardless of Raka's ban.

“So any anger Mas, I'll stay next to Mas. Until Mas was tired of his anger, Mas knew Mas was not alone. There's me.”

Agam crying. Sara was too.

“I will never be able to hurt Mas.”

He pulled his hand back. He touched Sara's face that was puffy and wet with tears. With his thumb, Agam wiped Sara's tears. Very soft ...

“I've hurt you a lot. I'm sorry ..”

Sara held Agam's hand still leaning on her face. He shook his head, giving a sign to Agam that he was fine.

Finally, Sara hugged Agam. Real tight. Stroked the man's back slowly. From top to bottom, then up again.

Agam also does not lose tightly. She leaned her head against Sara's shoulder, hiding her face while continuing to cry there.

That night, it was probably a night filled with chaos. But, that very night, Sara learned something from everything that happened that day and three days before.

When Agam asked for the divorce, Sara's world seemed to collapse. Although this was only a contract marriage, it was hard for him to be able to leave Agam.

Since then, Sara knew, her feelings had changed.

Maybe it's just one-sided. So, let me stay here until the contract expires. After that, let me find my own way to forget all this.

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