Love That (No) Blind
Part 43-1: Stay with Me, Sara

[Sara]

By his soft voice, “Meanings Mas .. after the contract is completed?” His voice was stuck in his throat. Wants him out, but he can't all let go.

“Hmm ..”

Sara swallowed her saliva slowly. His heart felt so heavy for a moment. With his question and all the possibilities he thought about the reason Agam asked that.

Maybe he's getting ready?

Maybe he wants to end it quickly?

Maybe the anger at that time is still there?

He took a slow breath, then exhaled it. He tried to say it, while continuing to imagine when that day came.

“Maybe I'll accompany Mom. Looking for a new job, you might also help your mother with her catering. Take Mom for a walk, it's been a long time since I've been out. Probably also ... “

It used to feel like I had a lot of things when I thought about what I would do after this contract expired. Now where are all those things?

Sara's tears fell slowly. In each of his shadows of what will happen in the future when he starts to separate from Agam, that's when his tears can't be dammed anymore.

Sara knew her voice would tremble as she began to cry. He tried his best to continue his sentence.

“... moving to another city ..” That you weren't there, Mom.

“Maybe also ... “ There was nothing more he could think of. Sara remained silent. But her tears are still flowing down.

While wiping her tears, Sara laughed. Pretend of course. “Ndon't know either, Mas. Not thinking about what.”

Quiet again. Agam did not give any response. And Sara no longer spoke. Silent.

“When Raka said Mama brought you, I was scared. I'm afraid Mama did something to you.” Agam finally started talking.

“All the bad things just happened to me in my head. I'm scared, Sara.”

Sara listened to every word that Agam said, without a word.

The atmosphere in the house at that time must have been very panicked. Mas Agam must have been angry at that time.

“I started to panic, even Yuda could not get any clue as to where Mama took you.”

He even called out to Yuda.

“For a long time I have not felt such fear since I lost the ability to see and hear me. But ever since I didn't know where you were, I've been freaking out ever since. I'm afraid of loneliness. I'm afraid you don't exist, Sara.”

DEG!

“I don't want to imagine what will happen to me in 2 years. I can't.”

His breath seemed to be stuck in his throat. His chest was like a difficulty developing and deflating, because he was too attached to look at Agam to forget to breathe. He continued to convince himself that what he heard was not wrong.

“Tell me what you want to do. I'll give it to you. You want Mom to take a walk? I'll book a ticket for Mom to take a walk. Go with Mom if you want. Wherever you are, it's up to you. As long as I know you stay with me, I'll give you, Sara.”

Is he expressing his feelings? I'm not wrong, am I?

“What if Mom moves home? Let me stay here. You want to accompany her, right? We'll persuade Mom to stop working. We'll live three lives with Mom if that's what you want.”

Sara finally let out her breath that was restrained earlier. His tears were falling and he could no longer hold them.

No, not tears of sadness. Sara was too moved to be able to reveal it. Therefore, only tears could she produce. The expression of her heart that was in flowery at this moment.

Look at her. His family said he was not good at talking. But, listen to him now. He was saying a lot of romantic words to me.

“Don't move to another city. Don'tdon't. I beg. Stay right here. Even when that 2-year contract expires, stay by my side, Sara.”

Now, Agam is crying. He begged while shedding his tears. His right hand covered half of his face and lowered. His shoulders shook violently holding back that cry.

Sarah's heart grew increasingly powerless to see what was before her at this moment.

“Don't ever go back on that guy. I'll forget that you still love him. As long as you don't say it, and stay with me, I'll never remember that you're still waiting for him. I'll forget about it, Sara.”

Yuda's right. He was stupid about feelings. How could she beg someone she knew was in love with someone else to stay with her? He was too stubborn to make it like this. And I love her. I love that stupidity.

Sara inching closer to Agam, touching the hand that covered her to get away from her face. Then, gently rubbed her tears.

“Man I mean, he is my past. I haven't thought about it in a long time. All I thought about all this time was Mas.”

He might not believe what he just heard. Slowly, Agam lifted his face, holding Sara's hand that was still touching her.

“I also ... don't want 2 years it's over, Mas.”

Sara managed to catch her breath as her sobs made it even harder for her to breathe.

“I hope ... Mas allow me ... stay with Mas.”

Whispering from nowhere, Sara suddenly had the courage to touch Agam's face with both hands. Closer he brought his face closer together, bringing their lips together. Sara closed her eyes.

Salty, sweet, all mixed into one. Salty because of their tears. Sweet because of the taste of their kiss that felt into the chest. Yeah, sweet tickle.

And somehow the story, which clearly knew Sara already felt something holding the nape of her neck, making her even more unable to release the attachment of her lips which was currently getting more deeply seized by Agam. Sara's heart was made to beat very fast.

It was not wrong that Sara brought Agam to the park that afternoon. Ideas that are not too bad to make them express what they are feeling. Not a bad idea at all.