Love That (No) Blind
Part 5-2: Mother Titip Sara, yes (POV Agam)

[Games]

Since 5 years ago, the word 'defect' has been a part of Agam's life. Since one by one his organs lost their abilities, since then he has learned to accept all the scorn, the look of disdain, and all the things that demean him for his lack of it.

Just like he did today when he passed the door of Sara's house.

Without the need to look, Agam could feel how the views of the people in the room once he saw himself. He could hear the words of those who were whispering talking about him. Thanks to SH 3.2.

"He's paralyzed?"

"Oh Allah, Sarah's husband is disabled?"

"Astaghfirullahaladziim .. amit-amit, O Allah. Cepet!"

Even when Agam meets Sara's mother to formally propose to Sara - as the girl requests - she can feel a sense of fear and disgust from the voice issued by Sara's mother.

No wonder, who would want to have a disabled daughter-in-law like this.

"As a parent, I pray that you will always be happy in this marriage. Always together not only in distress, but also in happiness." So said Sara's mother after receiving Agam's proposal.

As Sara said, her mother would definitely bless them both. And it turns out to be true. Everything is fine even until the marriage contract is completed.

Not that I am not nervous. Clearly experiencing it. This was his first experience. Some things make it so hard to do.

Ijab kabul, for example.

He could memorize so many formulas and formulas. But to memorize a sentence of kabul ijab, he needs all night. Weird ...

Maybe because I don't love my bride. Could be that. But, Sara did her job, now it's my turn to finish the rest, she thought.

And that night's hard work finally paid off already, when witnesses said 'legitimate' loudly and simultaneously. Relieved it. Like just finishing a test of a new invention.

But it turns out it's not finished yet.

When Sara's mother put something on her finger and neck that she said was a wedding present, she said, "Sara's mom, yes." Agam felt his body stiffen instantly. He seemed to be able to hear the sound of a bang from his heart. It felt like the person who was suddenly caught had done something wrong.

It's not on his list of plans that he'll be handed a responsibility to look after someone. He didn't think he got there.

This marriage is only temporary. The end of the marriage is even planned when the time is. Therefore, he and Sara agreed to work together. He gives her something Sara needs, and Sara does something she needs. It's just a cooperation agreement.

Then suddenly a mother entrusts her child to her because she is a husband. He even asked to guide her, how? (how?)

How does he do it, if he is not really a husband himself?

Moreover, when she heard Sara's crying voice. She could feel Sara's regret in that cry. Lying to her parents, obviously it was difficult for Sara.

So Agam offered to retreat. Return everything as it was. Marriage certificate problem, he can arrange it. He might also be looking for someone else to replace Sara. Not a difficult problem. Importantly, Sara could be free from her guilt.

But the girl refused it. He still wants to continue. Making her even more burdened with guilt feelings for Sara's mother who is now her in-law. The feeling he has to carry for the next 2 years.

Perhaps this is what people say, that in every desire there are always consequences to be lived.

......................

While they were in the car on their way to Agam's house, she handed over the wedding gift her mother-in-law gave Sara. His last attempt was to release some of his guilt.

"You keep it. I have no right" said Agam.

But then, Sara's gentle touch could be felt on her hands. The girl opened her palm, then put something on it, then closed it with her fingers.

"no need. It was a wedding gift from Mom. Keep it," said Sara. "You also gave me a lot of surrender, so we're even."

Agam could not find the right word to reply to him. When he was thinking about it, the atmosphere in the car actually became silent. The longer Agam stayed silent, the more he lost his chance to return it. In the end, Agam continued to hold the jewelry in his hand.

Let me keep it first. In time for us to part ways, I will give it back, Agam thought.

2 years ...