Love That (No) Blind
Part 51: Agam & Sara

[Sara]

“Why did you come, Sara?”

A clear voice rang out until it felt like it was embedded inside his head. Sarah opened both her eyes. He awakens.

Dreamlike. Just dreaming.

Recalling clearly in his dream, he saw Agam was asking him in a flat, expressionless tone. It feels like it's unwanted.

“Akh!” The throbbing in his head suddenly came and was painful. Sara immediately remembered what happened the last time before she was unconscious.

I just fell down the stairs.

Gently rubbed his forehead. Something rough covered it. A kasa?

“Sara? You're aware?”

Sara woke up from her lying down. The throbbing in his head was becoming. He held it for a while before finally calming back down.

His intention was to look for the owner of the voice, but the person was already beside him.

Agam's hand began to palpate up looking for Sara's hand, then onto her face.

“What still hurts? The doctor said your head hit the stairs. Still sore?”

Sara was out of words. Agam continued to question him with many questions filled with attention.

If he's worried about this, why would he choose to go and divorce me?

His view is now pushy, recalling the times when Raka came to give him the divorce papers. Without realizing it his hand moved up to touch Agam's face which he thought was getting thinner. Only 12 days ...

“Sara?,” call Agam lirih. Agam's hand now hugged Sara's hand which was leaning on the side of her face. “You're okay, right?”

“Mas worried?,” asks Sara back. His voice was also no less soft, resisting the sound vibrations due to the tears that came down.

“I am very worried, Sara,” replied Agam confidently and firmly as if wanting Sara to know she is not lying.

“Then why did Mas go?”

Quiescent. Agam did not answer. Just sounding a hanging word piece without being fully spoken. But Sara said it without any anger in it.

“Mas is not afraid I am sick because I continue to feel guilty?”

“What guilt, Sara? Nothing wrong with you.”,

“Who said? Because of me, I lost the NFC. Because of me, Mas lost his only memory with Mas's parents. It's all my fault, Mas.”

Agam's right hand moved to touch Sara's face, wiping the tears of Sara who fell soaked her face.

“Listen, Sara. It wasn't your fault. I want it.”

“Like Mas who want to be able to separate from me soon? That's why I gave you the divorce papers? Why didn't you tell me yourself? Like the time in the front garden of the house, when Mas asked me not to go, why not tell yourself if Mas wants a divorce?”

Sara beat the chest of Agam field many times. And every time Agam caught her, Sara let go and beat her back and said, “Mas evil!”

“Sara ... Me ..”

“Mas Agam wants to get married again, right?”

“Sara! I only love you, how can I marry someone other than you?” Agam's voice suddenly rose because of Sara's question.

Sara beat Agam again. “Mas lied!”

Agam seemed not tired of continuously catching the hand of Sara who beat him.

“Then, why did you suddenly ask for a divorce? Why did you suddenly go to Japan? Why can't I come? Because I want to get married in Japan, right?”

“Sara ..” Agam did not stop calling her, though Sara continued to corner him. “Listen to me first.”

Agam's two hands now held Sara's hand so as not to move again.

“I went to Japan because I wanted to recover myself until I completely recovered. I don't know how long it will take me for that. That means I won't be back until my recovery is complete.”

“Terus why is it? Can I not accompany Mas?,” asked Sara.

“Sara .. two years is not enough. I've lived it. What if it takes longer than that?”

Agam's right hand now grabbed Sara's face and leaned against the side of her face.

“I don't want you stuck here forever because of me.”

“Mas never asks what I want.”

Briefest. But clearly. It was clear even Agam could not say anymore. Agam's hand moved down holding Sara's hand.

“If I want to accompany Mas to the end, can not?”

Agam remained silent. But he thought about it. Sara knew from the look on her face at this moment.

“Mas has done a lot for me. So if I do the same thing now, can't I?”

“Sara ..”

That was the first word Agam said. Might as well want to say something else but be restrained.

“I know I want to be happy. But what about your own happiness? Was Mas also happy with the decision?”

Tears that had not come down earlier, now fell a speck when Sara said, “If I had just accepted Mas's decision to divorce. Then as long as Mas goes I forget Mas and accept others, Mas already sincere?”

He took his breath slowly, then exhaled it. “If you are happy .. I am also .. happy.”

A liar! To say ‘I am also happy’ only so heavy.

“If I wasn't happy, what would I do? New Mas will appear before me again?”

Agam did not answer.

“Perhaps before that happened, I was already dead from being too hurt.”

“Sara!”

Sara wiped her tears.

“Alright then.”

He went down to his bed, and came to his suitcase and backpack, which he had seen in the room.

“Where are you going, Sara?,” asked Agam as soon as Sara got away from her.

“I brought the divorce papers you gave me back then, Mas.”

Sara then approached Agam again. He sat on his own lap next to Agam's wheelchair.

“No need to wait until Mas return. We'll finish it now.”

Sara could see Agam's throat moving up and down. He believes Agam is nervous.

“Two times already, Mas said to divorce me. Again, the wedding is over. Me and Mas won't be together again.”

“Sara ..”

“Tell me right now if Mas wants to divorce me, then I'll sign this divorce papers. I will return to Indonesia without many more questions. I assume all the words of Mas yesterday were just a lie, Mas never loved me, and this marriage from the beginning was only a deal.”

“Sara ..”

Just calling his name. That'sallthatis. Agam said nothing but that.

“If everything Mas did for my happiness, at least think also Mas own happiness,” said Sara lirih. “If not, I will only feel more and more guilty throughout my life, and continue to hate Mas.”

Sara wiped her tears. His head bowed allowing his tears to continue falling into his lap.

“It feels much easier to accept if Mas said he wanted to get married,” isak Sara.

Yep. Why did he say he loved me? He really is a liar!

Sara still continued to wipe her tears with her arms for a while. Until then, Agam's hand suddenly grasped his wrist.

Sara's surprised.

“Come,” said Agam with full softness.

Sara was still trying to understand what Agam was thinking right now. His forehead creased as he looked at Agam whose gaze was not facing him.

Whatwant?

“Build. Let me hug you.”

Without any more command, Sara immediately raised herself and hugged Agam tightly. Agam is so. Real tight.

“I'm sorry, Sara,” said Agam. “I want to protect you. But I hurt you the most. I'm sorry ..”

Sara simply shook her head, then buried it on Agam's shoulder. Crying there soaked his shirt, while Agam continued to caress his hair while continuing to kiss him long enough.

“I miss you so much, Sara. Ever since I left, I've been thinking about you. When I found out you were coming, I wanted to get angry. But I'm too happy. I'm afraid, I probably won't be able to let you go.”

Agam kissed her again. It was so long that I didn't want to let go.

“If so, do not be released,” said Sara lirih in Agam decapitation. “Don't let me go.”

Let me stay by your side, Mas ...

“You sure of a guy like me?”

Sara instantly released herself from Agam's embrace. Both hands cupped Agam's face. “Mas perfect in my eyes. Until anytime.”

Now Agam's hands are looking for Sara's face. “You have no regrets?”

Sara shook her head hard. “Fear Mas is sorry with a person like me.”

Agam pulled Sara back into his arms. “I won't regret it. You are the best miracle God sent me.”

Agam held it tight. Sara is too.

I don't know how long they've been hugging. Agam finally stretched his embrace. Then open his palm.

Sara looked at him in astonishment. “What?,” asked his astonishment while removing his remaining tears.

“Give me the divorce papers. I myself will throw it away,” said Agam with his palm still open.

Sara was nervous. “Surat ... c-divorce what?”

“Divorce papers I left in Raka. Said you brought.”

“Y-which? Is there?”

Agam sighed. With a low tone, she called, “Sara ..”

“I-it ... was ... just a lie. Hehe ... Sorry ..” From nervous to confident. “Lagian, where does anyone bring divorce papers abroad anyway, Mas?”

Agam snorted on the sidelines of his grinning lips. Sara even grew nervous seeing Agam's grin.

Maybe their distance was too close, or because Agam's hand was still hugging Sara's body, just know the nape of Sara was pushed closer to Agam, and his lips were already taken by the man. Sara was tightly silenced by Agam without being able to speak anymore.

Too longing maybe. Sara could feel the deep pagutan from Agam so hard for her to breathe. It's too demanding that it's hard to get away with it. Especially when Agam began to force his way through the sidelines of his teeth, that's when he knew, he would not be able to escape from the man who said his friend had zero experience (zero experience) against his girlfriend.

Not a zero experience!

When released, their breathing was already irregular. Sara directly hit Agam's shoulder. While Agam just grinned satisfied and proud.

Agam's hand that was still leaning on Sara's nape then pushed Sara closer again, then leaned back on their forehead.

Agam wanted to say something, but it was always void because he kept laughing happily. Her thumb continued to gently caress Sara's face.

Sara's hand that hangs on Agam's arm that eventually starts to say, “We're going to face this together, Mas.”

Agam nodded, then kissed Sara on the forehead.

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Author’s Note :

Hello, all readers ...

Thank you so much for following Agam and Sara's journey so far. Old also it turns out 😂

It can be said, this is the end of the first part, namely the introduction, starting from face to face to understand the feelings and problems of each.

The second part is the part when they will return to Indonesia. In this section, they will be tested as a couple. There will be many more obstacles to be faced. Starting from meeting back with the man whose name has been called since Part 1 to the most bontot sister-in-law, Ava who turned out to be the best supporter of the Mama.

So, what is dong in Japan?

Hehe ... There are. Still there, but not much. It could be said to be an extra part of the first part maybe, yes. Hehe ...

Because it's just told quickly. But it remains a link to the next story. Including the good news from Mom, and the big surprise from Agam for Sara.

I hope you are still curious to look forward to, yes.

Again, I thank you very much for all the support I have been given.

Deficiencies are certainly there. Because of that, constructive advice and criticism, I accept it with the air.

Warm regards, dear,

Cygni 💕