Love That Starts With Hate
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Evania never came back to visit. Perhaps he is too busy with his fiancee and it seems like they haven't seen – for a long time. It does not rule out the possibility that they are going on vacation. I think it makes Harrish lonely. This feeling became even more true after Harrish forbade me from leaving.

Damn, the day after the night he kicked my suitcase until the handle broke was Sunday. A different Sunday because choosing to be at home –to me usually he goes early in the morning with a tennis racket and back during the day. Sitting rigidly on his favorite sofa facing the TV. All he did since morning was tinker with the TV channel without deciding to watch one of them. Is he bored? I was a little worried that if he heard my voice just a little bit he would come back and yell.

I try not to draw his attention. After yesterday slamming the bedroom door and damaging my suitcase, what else could he do? Strangled me? Killing me?

Very slowly, I stepped across the living room into the kitchen. I opened the cabinet to pick up sugar and tea. It didn't occur to me at all to make coffee for Harrish –I had a bad experience about it. But, while I was busy brewing tea in the cup, I found Harrish had already opened the refrigerator.

He seemed to be looking for something and because he found nothing in there, he turned to me. I think he'll be mad at me because for a refrigerator size that contains enough food stuff one RT, the contents are too empty. I was never asked to shop for food needs – is useless because no one cooks. Harrish always eats out, so do I who often eat lunch in warteg and the night eat instant noodles when hungry.

“I want to go shopping,” says she –first time I heard her tone low. I didn't realize that it was an invitation to go together to the supermarket.

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For a moment I stopped thinking badly about why he wouldn't let me leave the apartment. Although not much to say, his attitude is indeed much changed –even in a matter of hours. He looked calmer and more relaxed as he pushed the trolley and stuffed various kinds of items into it. While I walked behind him in my own basket while looking at the special rack for women.

Please call me a village but this is my first time shopping at the mall.

So many choices that make me confused that I just go around in circles even though in the end I dropped the choice on the product in the smallest packaging. Despite going with Lord Rich Master, I won't let him pay for my groceries. So after getting everything I need, I immediately paid for it at the cashier.

Not forgetting I ascertained whether Harrish was finished or not, but he seems to be busy choosing fruits. I walked again to look through the wide variety of beauty products offered on the other side of the supermarket. I thought, there's no harm in looking around for a while while Harrish is still shopping.

Supermarket sells a lot of tempting goods –, especially for women. Like branded cosmetics that even though I never wear them I'd love to have. But, I don't need it right now. I was jealous when I saw my friends always looking in the mirror at all times to tidy up makeup and hair. But, thinking that there is more to lipstick than hundreds of thousands, I firmly believe being what I am is the best part of me.

I just shook my head when a saleswoman offered to try their latest perfume tester. But, the girl still forced me to at least smell her perfume that pink bottle. My nose catches the fragrance that any young girl dreams of –fragrance of flowers that are soft-scented and washed away. If I had worked later, I would have bought it. I had to be patient until a few years of this to graduate college and become established.

After being washed away for a while by the fragrance, I saw Harrish and her trolley were already standing in front of the counter. All the items he bought were already inside some large bags stacked inside the trolley. It seems that I have been swept away for a long time by what I have seen.

Harrish's appearance seemed to wake me up that I was still working as his errand boy. I approached him immediately and we immediately left the mall to return to the apartment.