MAHMUD, I Love U
Ex-boyfriend

"So Bela here."

Rendra was having dinner together with her father on the table in a batik tablecloth. In that big house, they were just the two of them. Rendra is a child who was raised by his father alone. His mother died while giving birth to Rendra's sister who also could not be saved. At that time Rendra was still in the 2nd grade Junior High. Since then, Rendra has spent a lot of time just for his beloved father.

In the past, every after school he always went straight home. Rarely did he obey his friends to go to play, in addition to studying or doing assignments together. For him, playing with his father was more fun. Losing a mother is the most painful thing for Rendra. And that's enough to make her haunted by the fear of losing again.

Bella is Rendra's first girlfriend whom she decided on a few months ago. The sweet, long-haired woman he hopes can be the back of his heart is having an affair with Rizal, a college friend he already considers like his own brother. Rizal is a classmate of Rendra who is five years older than him. Rizallah is one of the places where Rendra expressed his grievances and all his heart without hesitation. But baby, maybe true to the saying, love does not look at anything. Including Rizal's love that fell on his friend's lover.

"Why is he here, Dad?"

"Want to meet, he said."

Rendra.

"Give him a chance, Ren. He said he was sorry. You've been dating her for two years, right? It's a shame that we just broke up. All love stories are nothing smooth."

The father persuaded. Because to her, Bella is a good woman. Bella was always polite in front of him. Rendra's father believes that Bella will be a good wife for her child.

"Rendra did date her for almost two years, Dad. But she also had an affair for a year with Rizal. That's outrageous, Dad."

His father sighed. Although he is a father, but he is good at being gentle in front of his children. That he did just so that his son did not lose his mother figure too much.

"Try to see if he comes again. Poor him."

"Rendra already likes another girl, Dad."

"To meet Bella doesn't mean you have to date her anymore, does it?"

Rendra looked at the shady face of her father. He knew that his father liked Bella. And he actually agreed. Rendra himself was confused, how could a girl as good as Bella have an affair with her friend?

***

"Ren, someone's looking for you, huh." Mayra looked over from behind the door telling Rendra, there was a guest for her.

"Who?"

Mayra raised both her hands in ignorance. "It's outside."

Rendra walked out to meet the guest that Mayra meant.

"Hi."

A cute girl in a pink lacy white dress stood up in welcome. Rendra only gave him a quick glance and wanted to pass. But the girl's hand held the man's arm in front of her quickly.

"Just a second. Let me talk."

Rendra is actually lazy. But he also could not keep running away. Rendra walked to the park in the courtyard of Griya Cantika.

"Do you know where I'm from?" Rendra looked at Bella who was still standing before him.

"Dad," replied the girl briefly.

Rendra had thought.

"Want to talk what? Sit down!" Rendra sat down. He sat at the end of the chair, and Bella at the other end.

"More. I know I was wrong. Now I've broken up with Rizal."

"Then?"

"I want you to forgive me."

"Have forgotten it. I forgive and forget everything. Including you."

"I want us to be like we used to be."

"As before which? Don't you make us not what we used to be?"

"Yes, Ren I know. I was wrong to have you with Rizal."

Rendra chuckles cynically. Can the woman in front of him talk casually as if the affairs of the heart are trivial affairs? One year the woman was secretly playing with her own friend. And that's outrageous. Though Rendra was sure he used to love the girl in front of him. He treated Bella as well as he could. But it turns out that his treatment was not enough for Bella. He still seeks attention from other men.

After knowing the unnatural betrayal done by his former lover, Rendra immediately numb. But strangely, losing a woman this time was not as painful as he imagined.

"My heart is no longer for you." Rendra told me for sure. It was as if it was a red sign for Bella to stay away from him.

Hearing Rendra's confession, Bella was shocked. Because all this time he considers his ex-girlfriend dead love for him. For that reason, Bella did what she wanted. He is sure, Rendra will want to be invited back to dating whenever he asks.

"But in your heart there's still me, right?"

"Nothing."

"A little bit?"

"Absolutely."

Bella held back the water that would come out of the corner of her eye. He realized, how great he had already injured the good man before him.

"I promise I won't hurt your heart again."

"good. Keep promise. You don't have to come to me anymore."

Rendra passes. His steps were increasingly stared at by Bella, and also by Mayra who apparently had noticed them from the second floor window where he stood.