
Something I found in the closet really blew me away. All the clothes and things I bought for him, still neatly arranged there.
All of these items were not taken with him. Is that how he doesn't want to carry everything I give him? All of these things have memories for us.
What exactly was my fault? Why was I dumped by him. Even everything I gave was meaningless so he easily left everything here. It became a scourge for myself that I ended up having to keep these things.
I grabbed one of the nightgowns I gave her. It felt even more claustrophobic when I even remembered how she was wearing this satin shirt.
"Do you like it?"
"I don't like it."
"Why?"
"It's not a nightgown, but it's more like a shirt that lacks material."
I still remember the dialogue of our conversation that night, just after this shirt I gave it to him and asked him to try it.
Given that, I became laughing, of course the laughter I forced. Laughter that sounds bitter because my soul misses him right now.
I put the nightgown back down, without intending to tear apart the contents of the closet. Let's just let it all be there without anyone bothering. Later, when I can forget it maybe I will see all this stuff with ordinary feelings.
"If this is what you want, I'll try to forget you too." A decision that was finally made. Whether I can erase him from my life or not, I don't know it yet, but trying doesn't hurt, does it?
Don't blame me for trying to forget it, because it's all because of her own choices.
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That night I decided to visit the family Mansion to meet Oxela with her boyfriend Jade.
Although I actually wanted to find Gloria's whereabouts, but my intention was still dim because I was still waiting for a report from Jared who flew to Indonesia with some of my men to find the figure of the woman.
"Sister," Oxela said as she hugged me briefly. He looked at me, for some reason.
"Where's Jade?"
"He's arriving soon" Oxela replied, but still showed a full look in my direction. "What exactly are you doing, brother?" ask again.
Oxela looked at me fixedly, full of suspicion and her looks showed high curiosity, I could see it.
"Nothing."
"No, no, no! That afternoon your voice sounded different when you called me, and it is evident that now your face is not as usual." Oxela tapped her fingers in front of her lips while watching me from top to bottom. "Looks like you got a lot of trouble, brother. What's wrong?" continued.
I'm shaking. "That's it, no problem whatsoever. Let's wait for Jade's arrival at the dinner table." I stepped away from Oxela, unwilling to hear her other questions.
Not long wait, my sister's boyfriend came. I asked him to sit at the same table. We had a light conversation when it was the first time I met Jade.
We talked about everyday life, about business and sports. It turns out that Jade is the owner of one of the television stations.
I was quite satisfied with his achievements at a young age. At the very least, my sister will live with enough and no lack of anything. Although I do not judge a person by his social status, but this kind of thing is indeed worth considering for Oxela's future of course.
"You seriously want to marry my sister?" I stared at Jade.
The jet-black-haired man nodded steadily, a little more I could see his seriousness towards Oxela and I was quite careful in judging one's temperament. I'm sure Jade is a good man for Oxela.
I don't want Oxela's wedding fate to be the same as Gloria's or Celine's more sad because she was being abused by her own husband. I want Oxela to be happy with the person who really loves her.
I could see a smile of happiness emanating on Oxela's face tonight and I was relieved of that. I hope my sister will always be happy, unlike me. No, don't ever let him feel the kind of slump I'm going through right now.
"Two Weeks again." Jade replied confidently, although the answer surprised me to feel it was too soon, but I agreed to the young man's decision.
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Oxela came to me as soon as Jade had her delivered to the front of the Mansion's exit.
"What?" ask me without really being interested, I know Oxela's eyes are full of intimidation right now.
"You're staying here, aren't you, brother?"
"No, I'm back in the apartment."
Oxela. "Fix, you have a problem. Does this concern the woman who lives in your apartment?" tanyakanya.
I gasped, where did Oxela know about this. Didn't Gloria ask me to move after realizing Oxela's suspicion back then?
"What do you mean, Xela?" tanyaku slowly while chuckling bland. It was as if she did not understand what Oxela meant.
Oxela chuckled. "Sister, we've known him since childhood. You can't lie to me so easily" he said with a smile full of satisfaction as if he had earned a charter of appreciation for being able to know my secret.
I was silent, more precisely frozen. I don't know what answer I should give my sister.
"I'm going to your apartment. I saw a lot of women's stuff there."
Hah. I let out a long breath. It was clear, Oxela certainly could know, because Gloria's stuff was there even today even though she had gone, somewhere.
"I'm curious, I finally checked the room's CCTV." Oxela giggled at the end of the sentence.
But, Oxela's remark gave me a keyword. 'CCTV room'. Do I need to check that too, to find out what Gloria did in the week I left, so all of a sudden she decided to leave?
"I saw it, brother!" Oxela let out a heavy sigh."So sorry, including the incident on the living room sofa, about three months ago," he continued while biting his own fingernails.
Oxela's words made me realize something. God, it turns out my behavior was caught by my own sister.
"Oh my God.. You're totally outrageous Oxela!" my elbow. But, my sister was just grinning at the horse while looking at me.
"You shouldn't be too impudent to go that far." Again, I warned him.
"Sorry, Brother. But. Even though I haven't gotten to know that woman, I like the way she treats you. You look harmonious, already like a husband and wife. Why not stab---"
"Stop! We don't have to talk about it!" cut me down quickly before Oxela finished her sentence.
"Okey, we don't talk about her..." Oxela raised both hands as if giving up. However, his next remark made me unable to answer anymore.
"But, I concluded that brother and he were having a problem. Right?"
Because I was silent, Oxela spoke again for the umpteenth time.
"Alright, I consider the tangling of the face of my brother and the unusual sibling today is because it is triggered from the problems between you."
"Here you go, just take care of your wedding preparations with Jade, don't take care of me!"
"That's another business, now I want to talk about you. Sis, I'm glad you already have a lover! But, I'm also sad if you look like this. Tell me what the problem is, I'll help you!" Oxela took it very seriously, making it difficult for me to refute it again.
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