Marrying the Killer of my Girlfriend
REASON FOR THE BREAKUP

Pov: Helena

Josh Rainer looked at me in shock.

His eyes were like he wanted to get out, as if he were seeing a ghost!

And Doctor Selena..

Innocently, he left us both here.

He ran and threw away his face as I grabbed his girlfriend's hand.

From his limited movements, I could read that he must be jealous, sad and disappointed in us.

Oh my God, they both make me nervous!

Josh, it seems to have just realized that I can no longer hold his hand like this.

He slammed both my hands.

He even looked left and right, trying to check if his new girlfriend saw that he had just let his ex-girlfriend hold his hand.

Stupid jerk.

Your boyfriend has run with a flood of tears because of your treatment of me!

And Josh Rainer hasn't noticed yet.

This guy hasn't changed.

Still as it used to be, it is less sensitive to the feelings of those around it.

Including, how could he not tell me a little uplifting about the Gurnawijaya family tempest?

How could he not trust me and instead pretend to be amnesiac?

In fact, I used to always be the first person to spill all his frustration.

I've always been the first person he looks up to when he's in trouble.

And I am also the one he always called to celebrate his success together.

Josh Rainer's…

For over twenty years I have known you, and this is the first time I have felt like a stranger.

I know the older someone is, there must be a change in their lives.

However, I never imagined we could finally be like this.

You chose to stay away from me. Not telling me anything more. No longer be the first person you always look for in every one of your joys and sorrows.

In just a few days the place had already changed into the property of Doctor Selena…

I'm sad, but I can't show it to Josh.

Because no matter how broken my heart is right now, I still want to see him smile.

And it's obvious she can never smile again if she's still with me.

His smile was just for the doctor.

And if she's happy, I should be able to find my happiness too right?

Josh was still trying to pay attention to the surroundings, observing where Doctor Selena was currently.

While I, do not care about his movements and instead hugged his body tight.

The body that has always been my back to achieve my dreams all this time..

But I can no longer get it.

After a year ago my rejection of her proposal completely changed our relationship.

We became a couple that was no longer known.

We really move on our own.

And now, he has found a partner that he believes deserves to live life with.

And it wasn't me.

Until then, I won't be able to make her as happy as I thought she was.

And I have to admit this.

I have to support their relationship.

“Helena, stop. I don't want any misunderstandings here,” Josh tried to push me and let go of my strong embrace of him.

Of course, I don't care about his worries.

“Shut up a minute. I probably won't be able to hug you anymore because you're not the first person you're looking for,” I said straightforwardly.

Josh looked astonished at my words, but he kept trying to let go of my grip.

“Helena, I can't. I don't want to hurt Selena. Let go of me now!” he said a little bit of governing.

I keep flinching. Still want to play with him.

I even close my mouth right to her ear.

Then blow that ear.

Josh was always amused when there was a gust in his ear, and I always teased him and joked with him when we were together.

He now remained half-shudder, but could not take his embrace away from me.

“Josh Rainer.. If you are not aware, your new lover has seen us and ran away loudly while crying.” I said teasing him.

And of course, Josh reacted strongly.

He now did not hesitate to let out his martial style by pinning my hand back and now directly locking the movement on my neck.

“Helena.. don't you dare. if you have a motive to make everything fall apart.”.

I replied with a loud laugh that shrieked his eardrum.

Josh has always been the most serious twin.

“Job Josh! I just miss you! We haven't seen you in a year since I turned you down, remember?" I said relax.

Josh still takes me seriously. It seems that she doesn't care if my beautiful hand breaks because of her strength.

"When we meet again, you fool me, pretend to be dumb and dazed by the collision! Yes now I'm back to you!” I laughed unbearably.

Josh is now loosening his fishing line at me slowly. I knew that I was acting like the usual Helena, joking and laughing.

“Helena.. I don't mean to fool you. I have to be careful because it could be you..” Josh is at a loss for his words.

While I, who couldn't bear to chat about this matter, directly grabbed him.

“You think I could be Becca and Celine's accomplices? Josh Rainier's! Did you not know me for twenty-four years we grew up and developed together? I'm disappointed in you!" I said with a free hand.

Josh is still looking at me deeply.

"You think I'm that loath to see you suffer and join Becca's crime squad? And what saddens me the most, how can you think that I want your treasure?" I said I couldn't believe it.

I really took out all my junk.

I understand Josh Rainer is a very smart person when it comes to analysis and strategy. He was of course wary and could suspect everyone around him of having malicious motives towards him.

But why am I included as well?

If there is no Doctor Selena, I will try to continue to pursue her to become the lover of my heart! How can I do that to sculpt him and join Becca?

“Helena. You yourself have been involved in the plan without you knowing it," he said.

I still give a gesture of not accepting with his explanation.

"Not telling you doesn't mean I don't want you to know, but I'm keeping things that could potentially leak out to the enemy team. You are very close to Becca. I am very careful here,” honestly.

I now grabbed both of his cheeks. Like I often did to him.

Then pinch it until both cheeks are red.

It's amazing to see Josh still have the same expression every time I pinched his cheek because of his anxiety.

“But still I'm disappointed. Could it be that I am not the first person you look for when you go through all this suffering? Did I lose the Josh Rainer I've been taking care of since baby?” I'm back to trying to be funny.

Josh finally laughed.

“I didn't even tell my sister at first. Everything really feels dangerous and I don't know who I can share this information with. But beyond that, I'm really sorry to you Helena..”.

His deep voice.Speed as well as his vigilance.I will surely miss this man very much later.

“Yes you must apologize to me. It doesn't tell me that you're in danger, pretending that acting is going crazy and leaving me with no explanation to be with another woman. What hurt my heart the most, you told Aldebaran that I rejected you because I can't wait to be the mistress of Gurnawijaya who has a treasure! Assumptions from where is that? Please explain and I will consider whether I can forgive a brash man like you,” I said fieryly.

Josh must not have known if my words were serious or not. I doubt myself, maybe I really feel in a point of sadness that I can't express until I finally say it like I'm joking.

Now Josh breathed deeply.

"I really need to explain everything. But don't come here, come with me. You have to take responsibility first" he said flatly, asking me to follow his steps into his palace.