Marrying the Killer of my Girlfriend
A NEW BEGINNING

POV: Helena

The splash of clear waters of the Thousand Islands ocean soaked my feet.

In front of my eyes, the blue expanse of sea water on this private island moved my eyes.  Especially when the weather is not too hot this morning.

Currently, I was sitting on the edge of the yacht dock located behind the private island villa of the Gurnawijaya Family.

I feel like dejavu.

To those days when me and Josh Rainer were lovers everyone loved.

We used to come here a lot. Josh is here to get away from the hustle and bustle of the city and find a quiet location to practice his violin skills before he goes to various international competitions.

In between training, we will always take the time to dive, sunbathe to play water jetski in this area.

It was just the two of us, as if the world belonged to us.

However, this time it was not Josh Rainer who was beside me.

Except Aldebaran.

Who is also dipping his feet into the sea water on the edge of this pier.

With a blank look towards the sea.

For the first time, I saw this strong figure looking very sad.

He looks even more shaken than I am.

In fact, I came here to ask to be strengthened by him. In fact, I am the one who is trying to raise her heart.

To continue our lives together which today is not easy.

After ourselves “ dumped” by our loved ones each.

Yes, my failed love story with Josh Rainer turned out to be nothing.

Compared to the sacrifices Al has made over the years to pursue his true love.

Doctor Selena..

If this story is raised to be a work of drama, the woman is the lead in this story.

He is able to transform Al from an extraordinarily mighty figure to a weak one just for loving him.

He was able to make the hard-loving Josh Rainer become infatuated in his affection.

And he was able to make me the saddest person in this story.

I had waited for many years beside the male lead and was now abandoned.

There's nothing left at all.

It turns out that the various roles of love that I played in the drama is just a pseudo-story.

Love is not as beautiful as everyone thinks.

Love is sick. And can make you fall until you don't want to get up.

As Al feels today.

We were silent for a long time in the breeze of the morning on the Thousand Islands.

Until finally, Al realized that not only he was feeling sad here.

“Helena.. after everything I've told you, are you okay?” he said with a loud voice.

I looked at him with an unusual look.

Am I okay?

I guess yes. I've been preparing my heart for the worst after asking Josh to wait for a year.

I felt like Josh wasn't going to fight for me.

“Al, this question should be asked for you, right? Are you okay?” manyworry.

Al now lowered his head and with a shallow smile he replied to me.

“Of course I'm not okay. I need time,” he said slowly.

I think I should correct my words.

I'm not the saddest person in this story.

But Aldebaran.

Dumped by her family since infancy, finds her hope when she meets Selena, and must part with her love until she can find him now.

He was also not considered by the brother who was very dear to him for a dozen years, still fighting for his hopes by continuing to succeed him, but finally had to let his love be taken by his own brother.

How shiny.

And it looks like he really won't be okay until a long time.

“I never knew that your relationship since childhood was. only.. acting?” ask Al to confirm.

I smiled remembering that.

“Everyone's setting us up. Josh Rainer is anti-crowd. So I took the initiative and told everyone that we were dating so her face wasn't always like a boiled crab when she went to school. Josh is very grateful to me,” I said while remembering all that.

Al still doesn't believe it.

“I often hear you from the top of the attic, talk about getting married in the future and living together with having many children. I really still can't believe that Josh Rainer almost never loved you.” Al still does not accept reality.

I patted his back slowly.

“Al, the reality is like that. He never loved me as much as he loved that doctor. I am his best friend and always will be.  And what you're hearing, that's part of Josh Rainer helping me practice since childhood to achieve my dream of becoming a professional actress..” I reaffirm.

Al is now dead.

“Ya. this explains everything. I finally understand why you used to say you liked me, Helena. I was so angry at that time because why did you have to play around with my sister's feelings?” said again.

I now breathe a long breath.

“I always thought of him as my brother, Al. But my feelings for you used to be real feelings between women and men. You moved straight to England then to go all the way from me and Josh. Though at that time me and he did never have any serious relationship,”, I explained.

I still haven't finished my part.

“Until he finally asked her to be his real lover.”.

Al's eyes are now turned away.

“You know he doesn't love you but why do you accept him?” al was confused.

I remember those good times.

“Because.I realized then..What if God did send Josh Rainer to always be with me until old age? And his statement at that time really moved my heart.” I said honestly.

“What did my sister say back then?” Al has now changed his way of sitting, completely looking at me.

I smiled remembering.

“He said this.. Helena, I don't know what it's like to love, but I'd like to try it and if you agree I'll keep trying my whole life to be the man you've always been there for until our hair bleaches and our bodies get separated,” I exemplify the voice and voice of Josh Rainer in front of his brother.

“I screwed it up, Al. He tried so hard to love me and for years everything felt fine. Until I finally rejected his proposal." I was a little stuck when talking about this.

Because rejecting that proposal is the thing I regret the most in my life right now.

"Just because I want him to really love me, not just try to love me.. And this is where I'm really done with it. He did not come back and did not want to try again because I have asked for the impossible for him.” obviously I am sad.

Al is starting to sympathize with my story.

“And in the end.. You really love her?” Al confirmed again.

I now gulp water under my feet and splash it on Al's face.

“Why do you think I'm here? I want to cry howling in front of you because my heart was broken by your beloved sister! Eh... it turns out that you need much more help than I do.” I said bluntly.

Finally, Al could smile a little at this moment.

“I'm sorry, Helena. I'm just. I'm still trying to process all this. I'm happy if the person I love is happy, but why does it feel like this hurts?” said within.

The sun is getting hotter now. And I could see clearly the tears falling back from the corner of Al's eye.

I grabbed his arm.

“Because you and I are human, Al.  Pain is proof that we are just vulnerable human beings, and defeating pain will make you a wise human being,” I said half whispered to him.

Al saw me as surprised.

“Do you know how you speak now more and more like Josh?” al asked with raised eyebrows.

I laughed at him.

“Being a fake and real lover with her for years, of course I absorbed a lot from her.Especially about poetic words like this. This really helped me in reading the scenario for my drama,” I said thankfully.

Al still shook his head.

“I still can't believe you and Josh Rainer won't be a husband and wife,” Al still hard to accept this all.

Al is really at his lowest point.

“Well, what else can I make? Scolding God? Berserk at Josh Rainer that I failed to become Lady Gurnawijaya who was struggling with treasure?” I said sarcasm.

Al is now pitying me.

“Helena, sorry I asked you about this. But, do you want our family treasure?”

I can't believe what I'm hearing.

After all these years of being Gurnawijaya's best friend, they assumed I would steal their treasure?

“I have a good career, good prospects, and of course money that will flow profusely. Why do I have to beg under your yoke? I can get everything without me being a Gurnawijaya family,” I said a little annoyed.

Al even seemed very satisfied.

"Good, this way I'm more and more convinced that you really have nothing to do with Becca" said Al relieved.

Beccas..

All this time I never realized that he was a snake.

Fortunately, Al had ignored him and the engagement between the two had not been carried out.

"I was totally fooled by the snake! If you know where he is, take me because I want to grab him! He almost killed Josh and jeopardized your position in Tel-X with that money laundering scandal! All those years she pretended to be a sweet kid in front of me, it turns out she's a bitch!" my peek.

It seems, all my swearing towards Becca affects Al's mood well.

Because now he's laughing.

So loose.

And I'm glad to see it. The strong man finally returned to his real face.

"Unfortunately, only Josh Rainer knows where Sundal's woman is now. Josh closed his mouth tightly so that everything was in line with the plan," Al replied still couldn't bear to not laugh.

Ah, Josh Rainer always does.

He always works alone and no one can interfere with any of his brilliant plans.

The detective seems to now find a suitable partner with him.

Doctor Selena..

Because I open up the kind of woman who likes to play with logic and mind-boggling guesses like that.

I'm just a woman who enjoys life and fills it with something I love, like acting and modeling.

I will never be a woman worthy of Josh Rainer.

"Let's go home then. You know Josh, he's gonna finish everything himself and there's nothing more we have to do here. Let's just wait for their wedding invitation" I said, trying to relax and now I'm out of my place.

Then, I gave my hand to Al to follow in my footsteps.

"Pu..home? You mean to England?" Al was confused by my invitation. Now he's standing behind me.

"of course.. You want to mourn your fate for the next 10 years here? Our lives are long and it is not worth mourning for a lifetime. Don't break what God has destined to happen" I told him.

Al's face seemed to be hearing me.

"How..how can you be that strong?" Al was amazed to see me.

I am now walking towards him. And now I'm back to rubbing his shoulders.

"Aldebaran, I love Josh Rainer. But I love myself more. And now Josh Rainer has released me. Life has to go on and I can't lose just because one thing doesn't live up to my expectations, right?" my spoken.

Apparently, when I say this all I do easily. However, the fact is that my heart is still sliced.

However, it does not mean that I continue to grieve and do nothing, right?

My world goes on and it's more important for me to be serious than to blame myself and a fate that doesn't match my desire to be his life partner forever.

"Helena.." Al is still in place.

I smiled at him.

"When you first came from the orphanage, I was crazy about the figure I thought was so mature for his age. It turns out you're just this way." I said.

Al smiled and now grabbed my back.

She hugged me.

This frail man really needed strength to get up.

"Thank you, Helena" she whispered, still hugging me. "Your circus words have always been my moodboster." he continued.

"Cheal fast, Al. Get on with life and create a new home for each of us" said Josh Rainer.

In the heat of the sun, I felt Al's body getting hotter as well. Hopefully, this is a sign that he is back excited to live his life.

"Helena.. We both went back to England?"

I smiled at the invitation. It will be the new adventure of two heartbroken people to start their own lives again.

And achieve the happiness that everyone deserves.

Including, for me and Aldebaran.