MAS DUDA IN THE MIDDLE OF THE CLOUDS
Hearts of Love

My heart broke the fog when Sekar contacted me during my working hours, this is not the habit of Sekar.

"What's Kar, tumben you Vc mama?" I stared at my girl's face on the screen of this sophisticated square monitor.

"Ma, someone wants to talk to my mom." obviously I'm more confused to be made by my girl who looks very anxious. A mind that doesn't dance in my head.

Looks like my daughter's android slipped out of her hand. I was shocked to see a man lying his head on my son's lap, his face was too pale blue and I didn't know who he was and what was it? I'm getting scared thinking about it.

"Kar, who's that guy?" hysterical shouting.

"Ma. a., a, I'm Hima mah." I'm shocked! the man lying down answered my question, I did not expect the man who was my son's first love to appear.

"Hima?" I said try to make sure I don't mishear.

"Ma. I kept my promise to mama," Hima's voice sounded very weak, my mind was raging a lot of things don't, don't and don't guess.

"Ma... Can I go home to my mom?" the question made it difficult for me to swallow, my mind was on my daughter, I was afraid she knew what I had done in the past.

"Bo-bo-bo-can mah?" Hima's voice was more and more brick, I was senile or indeed Hima's face had changed until I could not recognize the face, but the words spoken by the man...

Unknowingly I nodded my head, I was completely confused!

"Te-te-accept ka-kun ma," in that pale face was a smile.

My eyes saw how the man breathed his last on my daughter's lap. My heart was pierced it was like seeing my daughter my girl get hurt again.

"I'm sorry about Hima's mother." I didn't realize the words were thrown out.

I used to separate them because I was afraid that my son's future would be damaged by being in a relationship with a more mature man, keeping them away was my choice because my love that Sekar has will disappear with time I was wrong! Just keeping his love until the crazy idea came up, I wrote a letter in the name of Sekar. I succeeded!

But I never imagined that the result of my actions now I have to see Sekar suffer and God himself separate them even though they might not be together.

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With trembling steps I asked my boss for permission to go home, permission that one of the families died made it easier for me to go home quickly.

"I'm sorry Mama Kar, I'm really sorry, I don't know if this is going to happen." I don't care how Sekar will judge me anymore.

Seeing Hima's body stretched out in front of my eyes made me lament all the evil things I had done to her. It was obvious in these eyes how Hima was begging me not to separate them.

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The flashback

"Hima, do you love my son?" I snorted annoyed because several times caught them spending the night together at Sekar's friend's house.

From the motion of their gazes I am sure that there is interest among them.

"Mama Kasih? who's Mama looking for here?" Hima who came out of her place of work approached me who was standing across the street. I was intentionally waiting for him.

"Mama wants to talk to you, can you?" Hima nodded her head.

"Let's go with mama" I walked first towards the coffee shop not far from where we were standing, Hima followed with her confused face.

We sat across, after the waiter delivered what we ordered I just raised my voice.

"Drink first" I ordered Hima who looked confused. He complies.

"I promised I'd wait for Sekar to turn seventeen and we'd be dating,"

"I take that as the answer that you love my son" I sniffed with the most piercing look.

"What can you give Sekar?" Hima flinched with my answer, it could be that she thought I was a materialist mother, I don't care!

"I don't have anything ma," exclaimed Hima's voice, her face paled.

"Hima, you are a man and now your age is also including adults if your work is just like this how do you have a good future? the husband has a responsibility to support his wife, are you not ashamed that your wife cannot eat well, does not have a decent place to live? if you have parents there may still be something to expect from them but all I hear is that your father doesn't care about you, then what will be the fate of my son if you get married while your work is like this? I'm sorry I didn't demean you, but I told you all because it could be that this is my son's future."

"Mama Kasih is right, then what should I do?"

"Go far!" Hima who had just lowered her head immediately looked up at me even if only for a moment. I myself am shocked by this saying.

"I mean find a better job, get experience so you have skills but you won't get it here! go to town."

Silent....

"Will you accept me as Mama Kasih's daughter-in-law?"

"Maybe you've been successful!"

"I must be successful ma, later at the age of Sekar to twenty-three I will propose Sekar." Hima said that with great certainty.

"Mama please take care of Sekar for me," looked at Hima expectantly

"Definitely! when are you leaving?"

"Tomorrow the day after, ma," looks doubt Hima in his words.

"Remember to say nothing about our meeting today with Sekar or the others."

"Why can't Sekar know ma?" Hima looked confused.

"I don't want Sekar to think a no-no and in the end we fought, did you happen?"

"No, no, don't let ma. Well this will be a secret for both of us ma, someday when I return from overseas I will go home to the house of mama Kasih,"

"Get yourself good, remember my message you must succeed!" Hima nodded back.

"Mama's done away with it,"

Two glasses of drink that I paid even though Hima kekeh to pay but I do not want to feel indebted to him just because of a glass of drink.

My daughter must have a good boy, have good parents and of course have a clear future.

Hopefully with the distance that Sekar can forget Hima and Hima forget the original purpose. Facing children today is not as easy as ancient times, the harder it is to prohibit the crazier they fight.

Tonight I sat in the dark corner of the terrace, watching two young couples sitting on the porch of Siska's house, under the bright lights.

From far away I saw Sekar being hugged by Siska, I was sure that Hima was saying goodbye.

In the corner of my heart there is a sense of tightness makes my daughter have to grieve but for the sake of her future I have to bear.

My sense of affirmation is more when the age of Sekar towards even seventeen years, I initially hoped that those separated by time were waiting for each other.

I can't stand treasure but really because I know they can't unite!