MY BELOVED KNIGHT'S
ERNEST'S DECISION
“Sorry Princess... I really didn't accidentally do that.” Ernest again said his apology as soon as he saw Tira did not answer the apology he had said before, as he seemed shocked by Ernest's actions to him just now.
Until when did Ernest keep holding himself back from admitting that he loved me? Or actually, you never loved me one bit?
Tira who felt rejected by Ernest's actions, said inwardly with a hint of despair, seeing how Ernest who looked had no intention of confessing his feelings.
“Ernest, actually.. I was very curious with the answer to my question that until now you never answered.” Tira who could no longer hold back her feelings, was determined to finish her affairs with Ernest today.
“What does Princess mean?” With a doubtful voice, Ernest asked Tira.
“Who is the girl you like?” The short question from Tira made Ernest growl.
“All your attention, all your sweetness towards me... What are all those things... purely because you are carrying out the duty of Alvero's brother to protect me? Would it be if it wasn't me you were guarding, but another princess, would you also do the same for her?” The consecutive questions from Tira, made Ernest even more silent, and from his face it was clear that at this time, apart from being shocked, Ernest was trying hard to answer all of Tira's questions wisely.
How should I answer the princess's question? Obviously I love her so much, but I can't answer honestly everything the princess asked just now. I want to admit that I really love you, even willing to die for you, but I know, I can't and I don't have the right to tell you that princess.
Ernest said inwardly with the pain he felt starting to hit his chest.
“Sorry Princess.. as the Princess requested, all my actions during this time, just do as instructed to me.” While enduring the pain within his chest, Ernest attempted to answer Tira's question, without daring to look directly at Tira.
“Then... It looks like I should indeed accept the matchmaking plan from papa.” Tira's response to the answer from him, made Ernest's eyes without being able to control directly look straight at Tira who was looking at him with a glare in his eyes, and there was a deep aura of disappointment on that pretty face.
“Princess...why does the Princess say that? Princess...” With an unwilling heart, but still having to endure to not reveal his heart, Ernest said to Tira who was taking a deep breath.
Princesses…
Only that word could Ernest shout in his heart at this moment, because in truth, he knew who the man Tira meant, who the man Tira loved.
From Tira's attitude to him, Ernest is not unaware that Tira has fallen in love with him as well, it's just that Ernest knows himself enough and is happy enough just to know it without wanting more from Tira.
“I have decided, at this time it is not important about my feelings, because for me, my love has been exhausted for the man who has blatantly rejected me, even though he did not speak his words of rejection directly to me…. For that, I better accept whoever the man to be betrothed by papa and accept his proposal and immediately marry him without the need to be his lover first. We'd better get married so that I can soon forget my current love. It was the best choice for me..”.
Nah! No other man loves you more than me!
While shouting inwardly, Ernest moved quickly towards Tira, and instantly pulled back Tira's wrist, with his sturdy arm directly grabbing Tira's body, pulling her closer in his arms, pulling her closer in his arms, strong but also soft, and without asking permission from Tira, suddenly Ernest immediately kissed Tira's lips, after jealousy mixed with love he can no longer be restrained and control, making his mind dull.
For Ernest, who had held his love in silence for many years, hearing how Tira planned to easily marry any man of his papa choice, made Ernest's blood boil so without a second thought, Ernest even wanted to show that he was the man Tira should have chosen, not another man.
The one in Ernest's brain at the moment, was just following his instincts as a man who loved Tira so much, that in a matter of seconds, it was only in a matter of seconds, he had completely forgotten about his status as a knight who, with his disrespect, had already dared to fall in love with a daughter who was a master to him.
The fear that he would be considered as a rebellious manners, turned out to be no greater than Ernest's fear when he found out, if he didn't move at the moment, that was no longer the case, he's gonna lose Tira for good.
The fear of losing Tira, and the fear that is so great when imagining Tira belonging to another man, where the man will freely hug, kiss, fondle, even touch Tira, he said, making Ernest's chest like it was going to explode, so that it made him no longer able to control himself to not show how he who was so loving and wanted Tira to be able to be his lover, even his future wife, could be, the mother of her children is the only woman she will love for the rest of her life.