My best friend Maduku
Chapter Hundred Two

Willy takes Lani to dinner at one of the restaurants. He left Alvin at Shinta's.

Lani was astonished by Willy's change in attitude. He asks Lani to have dinner with good words and words. Unlike usual, Willy always said cynically to her.

"Lani, do you still communicate with your parents often"

"With my mother I still have communication, with my father until now never. Why are you asking that"

"I want you to improve your relationship with your parents"

"Why. What's wrong.you don't usually pay attention to me"

"I just want you to have a place to lean. Apologize to papa. If papa doesn't contact you, you should be the one who started. Don't be stubborn. Because we will one day need the help of parents. "

"What do you really want to say, Wil"

"Lani, I'm sorry if I've never been the husband you hoped I would be. I know, all this time I didn't treat you well. You have sacrificed a lot."

"To be honest, Wil, what do you really want to say. I know, you want to say something. So don't twist"

"Lani, I don't want to hurt you any longer, we better end this marriage. It's also for your good. You can find someone else who loves you. Because I can't promise you anything. I tried to love you, but I still couldn't. I know my farewell to Melati wasn't just your fault, but every time I saw you, I remembered Melati"

"So you want us to part ways, after I sacrificed so much for you. Now you're asking us to separate. Have you got a new prey so you want us to separate" said Lani began to ignite emotions

"Lani, if I stay defensive there's no point either. Our household has been unhealthy from the beginning of marriage, we always fight and fight every meet. What do you expect from me, you yourself know if I am a bej*t man, why do you still want to survive. Don't you want a harmonious family like Rangga and Melati. You can find a man who can accept you for who you are and love you with all his heart. I, will no longer be able to love you lan"

"You're outrageous Wil. I don't want to split with you, because I want to prove to mom and dad that my choice wasn't wrong. How will I face papa, if my household finally falls apart. I also want people to know, if you also love me not only Melati. Why can't you try to love me, what a lack of me Wil... "

"Lani, you never loved me. You're just obsessed with me You want to prove that the guy who loves Melati can love you too. You just don't want to feel defeated by Melati. You're wrong Lani. Love isn't just about proving that we can have someone we love. Love is also about sacrifice. If you really love me, please try to love me. Love doesn't have to have."

"Lani. I'm not close to any woman right now"

"I can't believe it, I know who you are. You can't do this to me, Willy. Don't you feel sorry for Bobby. There's no love and affection for Bobby. What's in your heart is only Alvin"

"I love Bobby too. My love for my children is the same, no different. Nabila, Bobby and Alvin are the same as me, baby. I'll keep seeing Bobby wherever you take him. I'll still be Bobby's father, just our marital status is different "

"I can't believe it, Wil. Bobby still lives on one roof with you only rarely do you notice, what else after we split. I don't want Bobby to grow up in a broken home. I can change my attitude that you don't like. You just say whatever you want, I'll change it. Willy, just try it once you think Bobby. I'm holding out right now because of Bobby.. "

"Lani, we've been trying for a few years, but there's never been a match between us. We are like strangers living under one roof. Why do you keep it again. Let us similarly try to find a better substitute, maybe we are not destined to live together.. "

"You ruthless Willy. What is my fault ..what because I have ruined your household with Melati, you are replying in this way. Though you know, Melati filed for divorce since you were caught in touch with Yana. But still you blame me for your parting with Melati. Do you think only Jasmine gets hurt, I don't. I also feel deeply hurt and guilty for betraying my own best friend. Should I lose you too after sacrificing my friendship. I also got social sanctions, my friend's friend on dodging all after knowing I'm married to Melati's husband. Do you think I haven't been tormented by all this. Every meeting with friends, I have to endure this longing, because I don't want to when I'm present they look at me with cynicism and scorn. You think I've been calm all this time.I sometimes get tired of all this. But I can't avoid it anymore, it's all happened. And I have to dare to accept all the risks for my actions and attitude all this time" Lani said

"Let's go home, it looks like you need some time to think. I want us to end our marriage well, without any animosity "

"You're the one who should think Willy. Try to think again. Whether later after you split with me, you will live happily. Are you sure you'll get a much better woman than me who can accept you for who you are. I already know who you are, both good and bad of your nature.. "

"Lani. we go home and are just as thinking about what decisions we should take in our domestic relations. Let's introspect each other"

Willy stepped out of the restaurant followed by Lani. In their car no one spoke all speechless with their own thoughts.

"I don't want to divorce you, I've taken every risk to be with you. I've sacrificed a lot for you Willy. I don't want to let you go. Even if I'm being selfish, I don't care. I will want to be together even if you never look at me... "

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