
After the departure of Abian and Aziza, Surya was still sitting on the spot and lowered his head, Surya really regretted his former actions but it was too late for the rice to be porridge so it was impossible to return to rice, likewise with our lives do not quickly issue a word that we think will harm us later, especially with words we hurt others, remember that every word we say can make people around us feel comfortable instead of feeling hurt.
Now that Surya felt that, Surya just sat pensively until the warden came to him so that made Surya surprised from his daydream. Surya's heart ached because Abian didn't want to hug him.
"Pak Surya..had finished time please go back inside" said the Surya warden rose from his seat and hustled following the steps of the warden's feet, the guard, Surya went straight into the holding cell and violently threw his butt on the thin bed Surya took his breath and threw it away violently. It feels very heavy life Surya.
Uhukkk...uhukkkk...!
Surya suddenly coughed and when Surya closed the hand in his mouth it turned out that came out of his mouth a pitch-black color, making Surya tremble blood clots came out of Surya's mouth without command.
"O Lord, is this sickness my death, but I beg God not to take my life before I truly get forgiveness from my son and my ex-wife, it hurts so much more when my own son won't forgive me than the disease I'm suffering from right now. This heart aches upon hearing all the words of my son who will not forgive me. This turns out when the people we hurt do not want to forgive us" said Surya.
As Surya sat his friend up from his sleep and sat beside Surya, Surya's friend looked at Surya with a look of pity maybe Surya kasian friend saw Surya who is now sickly, Surya, and it seems like there is a lot of burden on the mind that Surya is thinking about right now. His friend patted on his shoulder with a smile.
During this time his friend Surya knew what Surya was experiencing in the looter cell, so his friend was very concerned about Surya's life.
"Brow.if there is a problem may share I am ready to hear we share problems and we look for solutions together. I also have a problem as well as you brow if not us who share, we're stories of misfortune what else if not us who share here do not pendam own because it will add to the disease" said a friend.
Surya has not answered anything, Surya is still staring ahead with a blank look no matter what Surya is thinking. Without looking, Surya answered his friend's words.
" It's true you say, we both have problems but I think your problems are not as heavy and complicated as my problems, it's about the past...I don't know what else to go through all this trouble, I'm tired of explaining it to people. Because once every time I told a story I was always blamed, no one even split me. So I feel sidelined." Surya.
"Brow.don't think so maybe brow is also wrong so they say so, actually they just want to quickly wake up and apologize to people who already brow sick let alone family or relatives. So try to tell me, it could be that I also have the same opinion as the previous people depending on the problem you will tell me " Said Surya's friend.
Because Surya was urged by his friend Surya finally told me his past, and until then his biological son came but did not want to forgive him Surya felt no longer useful. So it's better he just died because Parcuma Surya lives also no one cares about him even Sinta and mbak Eva no longer care about Surya.
During the story Surya his friend just silence and listen with the expression of his face change until in the end Surya friend immediately split may not be able to stand the story Surya.
"Brow I'm sorry, if I parted you in the conversation, but if I personally heard your story, then I'll conclude that your mistake was very big, so it's appropriate that your biological son does not want to forgive you brow.kid who is not hurt still in the womb has been rejected and not accepted by his own biological father, he said, gini ya brow I think if you were in the position of your son would also do the same thing, even I feel you would outweigh that hate the person who hurt your heart brow.
You have to introspect yourself brow, be patient there must be a sure way out and believe that one day your son will forgive you as well as your ex-wife, but you don't judge them because if you force them it makes them hate you more. My advice is you better get married again with your affair if only he had not married even if he did not have children" explained Surya's friend
"Yes brow, you're right I also realized all that first if anyone advises me not to listen, instead I blame them because they defend my ex-wife more than me, but now I just realized the mistake was from myself. I also hurt my son and my ex-wife, if it's about the woman I was cheating on, there's no way I'm marrying her again because she's married, I know because she never came to see me here with her husband, I regret brow how I can make up for all my mistakes against my son."
This time Surya really realized his mistake, Surya's friend also already knew that Surya is now often sickly so Surya's friend gave advice that Surya must change before it is too late. Surya's friend gave advice to Surya to remain patient waiting because surely Abian will return again.
"Brow I'm sorry I'm not a wise man who's good at advising people, but here we're helping each other out, as I said earlier that you remain patient because I believe that one day your son will come and forgive you. Indeed it all takes time because your son already hates you so much so healing the wound is not young brow, fortunately your ex-wife is a wise woman with her new husband if you can't be your son won't know you forever" said Surya's friend.
Surya who heard the words of his friend immediately turned his head and looked into the eyes of his friend but nothing came out of his mouth.