My First Love (My Memories Revealed)
CHAPTER 1 | Crying Under the Rain
Is that beauty? is that happiness? is that love? does true love really exist? tell me how true love can bring back a smile. When the precious things in his life are taken for granted, when his world is destroyed in just an instant. For me true love is nothing but nonsense, no one really feels true love.
There is only destruction, deep pain, laughter created, smiles emitted and happiness felt it is all fake. Are you in love right now? Trust me, it's all an unreal feeling. When you choose to believe in love, that's when love will take everything away from you and all that's left is regret.
Like being in a vacuum, your life will be meaningless, like walking in a dark hallway without direction and hope there is no way out for you, scream as hard as you can no one will hear you, cry as hard as it is no one will notice you.
I no longer want to live like this, if time can I turn back, if I still have a chance, just once. I'd love to slap myself so stupid for love, I don't want to know her, I don't want to feel love, it's enough because it's too painful for me.
The world doesn't care what I feel and time goes on. Even though it hurts, I have to continue living my life like this. Am I okay? am I able to get through it all? am I back to being the old me? That didn't happen in my life and I decided to close my story, I decided to keep this pain to myself.
Then what happened to my life? I was picked up by both my parents. HA..HA..HA..HA.. Tragic right? I struggled to get out of this trap but it seems like love still wants to torture me even deeper. Like a fighter who has been on the edge and is still attacked in a tubi, I've bruised, I'm helpless against all this, But if it's my destiny I have to keep doing it, but never expect love from me because my love is dead and my heart is frozen so don't expect anything from me.
My wedding day has arrived. This marriage is filled with the happiness of others, but not my happiness, others see me smiling beautifully and charming, but my heart cries out in pain, they save me and come with me, happy with me, but I do not feel the same way, a lot of bouquets that come with very beautiful writing.
“th in a row happy for Sam and Reina”'s wedding.
but what I can do, I killed my heart and now I live like a robot that can move but without feeling.
*** 2 years later ***
The sound of baby crying filled the entire house. I am now Sammy's wife and we have a baby girl. Mira's cries grew louder, now I play a mother who takes care of children and takes care of the house, I try to open a new leafan in my life and live as a mother who loves her child, she said, not as Reina who is shackled by the past.
I tried to be a good wife to Sam, even though Sam knew that I couldn't give him my heart, Sam still flooded me with all his love. I know Sam's a good man but am I worthy of Sam? Sam should have deserved a better woman than me, I'm just a heartless robot. All my hopes and love have long died.
All the ways I did to make Sam mad at me, I convinced him to leave me because I didn't deserve him, I tried to make him hate me so much that I didn't want to see me again, but it never worked.
“Why? Why don't you just let me go?, I'm a woman who doesn't deserve you Sam, find a woman who loves you completely. L'm.. I just.”
Sam kept holding me tight until I felt calm.
“already? we've talked about this before, and no matter what happens, no matter how hard you try, I'll still love you, until you feel the same way. Although that means I have to wait a lifetime.your part only accepts my whole love, and my part is waiting for your love back”
Sam said word by word very gently, I can't hurt her anymore, but if I don't leave her, then Sam will forever be stuck with me, I don't want Sam to feel the regret and pain I've ever felt.
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