My First Love (My Memories Revealed)
CHAPTER 118 | Finished
Days change and times change, there is not a single day passed by Mira to leave or leave Arka alone, during the difficult times that Arka is facing, only Mira who was by his side was beside his parents who always held Arka's hand with him. Now chemotherapy can not save his life, only able to extend as short as his life but, will forever he will feel the pain that continues to gnaw his body, such as life reluctantly to die do not want to feel.
Now Arka can only spend the rest of his life lying in the hospital and can not do anything, his face is very pale plus the hair that no longer adorn his head. No one knows about her condition other than Mira, the girl who still remains the idol of her heart.
“I come. How are you?”, asked Mira who just came home from college, now her appearance is very different from Mira who she knew when she was in High School, she has turned into a very beautiful woman.
“Beauty. Beautiful once”, Arka's expression of admiration for Mira who was standing in front of her.
“I or the flower I brought?”, asked Mira who smiled at Arka's joke
“The flowers you bring cannot beat your beauty, Mira”, replied Arka trying to sit from her sleeping position.
“Do not force yourself if you can not do it yourself”, said Mira.
Seeing Arka's body getting weaker and weaker makes Mira powerless to hold the sadness in his heart, although he held back but the two matanays could not lie, somehow longer time left for Arka, Arka, I don't know how much longer Mira can give to fill the rest of Arka's life with happiness. Luckily both of Arka's parents arrived on time, Mira had a reason to go outside for a moment.
Go to cry and vent his sorrow in Raka's arms. Mira always went with Raka when she had to visit Arka in the hospital, now she was like she had been on the verge of sadness, the cry that she had endured since then finally broke in Raka's arms, in silence he cried, trying not to make a sound so that his crying was not heard by Arka and his family.
“Kak, Mira is no longer able to pretend like this. Seeing it getting weaker and weaker was already very painful. I can't bear to lose the only friend I have”, softly while holding back sobs that sound so heartbreaking. Raka continues to hold Mira until she feels calm without saying anything more. His heart was also very sad to see his lover continue like this but what can I do? There was nothing he could do, everything was outlined and this is how it is.
“Be strong for him, be strong. Strengthen your heart because Arka will also be strong. At the end of his life, give him your best smile and not tears of sadness”, said Raka trying to strengthen Mira who continues to cry.
Mira waits until she calms down and compresses her eyes with ice cubes for a while so that she does not look like she has cried, Mira rearranges her heart and strengthens herself to go back to accompany Arka inside.
“I'm sorry, did I take too long?’ Mira said with a smile like nothing had happened before.
The sun began to show its beautiful twilight time. Now he was alone with Arka enjoying the sun that began to set in the park. Arka continued to look towards the twilight sun and slowly raised her hand as if she wanted to grasp the setting sun.
“If one day my time comes to set and not to rise, do not forget me Mira. As a lover and also your best friend, as a stupid man who always loves you even though in the end I can not have you completely”, said Arka while continuing to look at the sun with his hands raised. Mira again shed her tears, now she hugs the only friend who is very dear while continuing to cry. Her heart screamed, her words sounded like farewell sentences to Mira.
“Till at any time, I will love you as a friend and also my first love. Thank you for the sincere feeling you always give, sorry if I can not reply”, Mira replied by continuing to hold Arka who sat in a wheelchair. He felt Arka's body getting cold and Mira getting scared, he was afraid that if Arka would leave him soon.
“What did you say? You have always been by my side all this time, it has been more than enough”, Arka replied by holding back her cries.
“Mira, can I ask you to obey?”, Arka continued
“Tell me whatever you want”, replied Mira who is now facing Arka.
“Tomorrow don't meet me. I want to give you a gift. I don't think I've ever given anything to me, have I? So tomorrow, please don't meet me. I don't want you to know the gift I'm preparing” said Arka expressing her request to Mira.
Mira nods in understanding and promises not to see her tomorrow, giving Arka space to prepare a gift for her. There was no suspicion in Mira at the time.
“Alright, let's go in. It's late, you should go home. Look at your lover looking at me so scary. He thinks I didn't notice? Stupid”, said Arka staring at Raka behind the trees monitoring the two of them.
“Gosh, I didn't realize it”, Mira replied with a little laugh seeing Raka's behavior.
The morning came, today Mira did her usual routine speerti, woke up in college, relaxed for a while with her friends and went home. This time he did not visit Arka as he requested. However, he felt that something strange was going on, his premonition saying that something bad had happened. Very bad thing, Mira felt unsettled and restless, I don't know what made her so anxious.
“Mira doesn't know papa. Mira feels there is something strange, like getting a bad feeling”, jawb Mira restlessly.
“About?”, ask me
“Mira don't know mama”, reply Mira.
“Rest, maybe tomorrow you will be better”, said Sam told Mira to rest early tonight.
Right at midnight, when everyone had rested, Arka experienced shortness of breath, not the usual shortness of breath. As if he was no longer able to catch his breath, his fusillizing eyes made his parents panic.
“Haaahhh... hhhaaaahh”, Arka tried to calm down and breathe but she could not.
“Arka.. Nak.. Breathe”, said his mother frightened. Immediately he pressed the emergency button to call the doctor and the nurse came to see Arka's condition was not good.
“Arka, be patient son, do not leave mama”, shriek his mother cried by continuing to hold Arka's hand tightly.
“Quick turn on the defibrila”, doctor's order immediately. With a pacemaker, doctors tried to restore Arka's heart rhythm so he returned.
“Naikananan”, doctor's order. But nothing happened.
“Add more”, doctor's orders. Even up to five times, Arka's heart rate does not return. Now the doctor gave up and could not save Arka.
“Force us, father and mother have died, on Wednesday at half-time. Once again forgive us”, said the doctor apologized and removed all the tools attached to the body Arka.
“Aaaa... My boy.. Archaa...”, cried his mother hysterically.
The pain felt by the mother was very deep, as was her father. In silence he wept over the only child he was so proud of at last forsaking them forever.
Morning has arrived and it is very lucky that Mira that today there is no class, so Mira can visit Arka early and bring her favorite pastries that are her own products.
Arriving at the hospital, Mira immediately went to Arka's room but, he did not find anyone there, all Arka's belongings were lost, there was no trace that Arka still occupied the room.
“Suster, this patient, where is he?”, asked Mira. At that moment, Mira realized that her premonition was the truth. The feeling of unease that surrounded him last night was a sign that something really bad had happened. With the rest of her strength Mira ran out of the car to the funeral home.
Seeing that everyone was wearing black clothes made Mira continue to cry and walk inside. As if not believing what he saw, the coffin was decorated with a sign of a cross and candles in front of him. It is Arka, Mira touches Arka with her tears that keep flowing, feeling the body of her best friend ice-cold. Again he could not believe what was happening, Mira screamed and cried to make everyone look at him.
Now there is no more Arka figure in his life, a friend who acts silly in front of him. He had been gone forever but not with sweet memories in his heart, for a moment he shut himself up for a few days because he could not believe that Arka had left him. But as time went on, Mira rose again and realized that Arka would always be with her, in her heart and every step of the way.
“Will Mira be okay? Why should he feel the same way as me?”, I said feeling sorry for him having to feel lost for the first time.
“He is a tough and strong girl, if you can just get through that dark time with me, then Mira will be able to get through it, with Raka. Let him carve out the bitter sweet story of his own life. Our time has ended to do that”, Sam replied reassuring me.
I am grateful that Mira was able to rise quickly, maybe she felt her heart was a little empty because Arka was no longer with her but I knew that she was better than me.
~TAMAT~