My Heartbreak Stop At You
Chapter 85. She's not for me
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POV Edwin
I've liked that woman since the first meeting. Although he had thought badly at the beginning, but from the story heard apparently confirmed that he was nothing more than a nestapa woman.
The probability of a friendship that eventually intertwines actually brings a difficult feeling on the edge. I fell in love with her and all her flaws.
But convincing Claire isn't easy. I even waited for years and even that was because of one favor. From family.
We are on good terms. Although the signal I gave never got a response. The noble-hearted woman once said that she was ashamed of her condition. That was also the reason he had to go and live outside of his country.
I initially ventured to be reckless. Although indeed from the beginning I did smell the smell of unwillingness from Claire's attitude. But my passionate love suggested my subconscious to move forward.
Even without my pain, the strong thrust of the Claire family seemed to make me fly. I feel like my ticket to be a daughter-in-law in the family is wide open. Leo and Opa agreed.
But unfortunately, the bubbling despair is not directly proportional to the reality that exists. I never thought that the handsome man who became a favorite of Neo who was reported to be a school Donor boy, none other than the one who impregnated Claire.
My chest is claustrophobic in reality. My heart aches unbearably for the sake of remembering that the night Claire got the terror, they spent it together.
Moreover, the next day I heard with my own ears, if the man named Sada was the man who impregnated Claire. One stupidity that I hadn't noticed, made everything look different.
And from that most shocking confession, I even felt cheated. Did Claire purposely hide this from him because she still loved him?
No, I can't let that happen. I got closer to Om Leo and his family. Hoping for everything I expected to happen because I thought as time went on, Claire could and could look forward to a future that coincided with the request of the Papa.
But apparently, a reality finally squeezed my chest until it was back crowded. Claire showed more and more severe gelagat.
The kiss of rejection twice isn't really a threat to me. But on a night where I heard myself a painful request from Claire's mouth, that's where one strange taste came out. I'm wavering. Worryingly. Doubtful.
And I believe it must be the forerunner of a fight in their family. I then asked people to find the best information about Sadawira.
I came home the next night. Looked at Mama's beautiful face. Marriage is in sight, but anxiety is on the rise. No, maybe I just felt the immediate impact of hearing the fight.
But until the early hours of the morning, drowsiness did not attack me. It's okay, maybe love should start with coercion first. After all, isn't there a saying that can love because it's used to?
But until the moment I sat in the chair ahead of the wedding vow-taker, I could see a flash of discomfort Claire had pointed at me. It hurt and made a bunch of doubts shake me.
I was panicking, worrying, anxious and overwhelmed with displeasure.
The shadow of Claire's rejection of my kiss suddenly danced over my head. Last night's fight also seemed to make me unable to open my mouth. And the message from someone I assigned last night, who this morning sent me one piece of evidence I really couldn't get through.
" They met in one place. With a little boy!"
Goddamn bum!
Obviously all this time he was just hunting a mirage.
How's this? Can I still continue? Why is it that all of a sudden a spate of things jut in the brain and make me angry?
My mouth was clenched, and my tongue was choked. There is absolutely no bus to enjoy the situation like the parents who look radiant. Even when I praised Claire's beauty, she often turned her face away.
I'm not as strong as I thought.
I then put out a sentence that contained an abrogation. Yes, I canceled the wedding that was in sight. But this is the thing I've been waiting for.
I can't afford it. I'm doubting.
And somehow got the courage from where, I even denied the words of a Leo Darmawan who looks beaver instead of playing.
Yeah, I didn't expect that I would be that brave for a person I've respected all along. I just want everyone to know, if I am also a human being who also wants to be appreciated for his feelings and existence.
And Claire's attitude towards me was severe, clearly confirming that she didn't give both.
Even when the wedding had been canceled, I still saw a glint of disapproval from Claire's eyes. He's not for me.