My Secret With Mr. Billionaires
Chapter 64: The Self Harm

"Here I take it." said Leonel then took over the trolley that had been to Krystal.

Krystal smiled, Leonel is very sensitive even to small things that do not need sensitivity from him.

"Leon, do you like milk?" ask Krystal while opening the refrigerator in which lined milk boxes with various flavors and types.

"Low fat." replied Leonel briefly, then Krystal took some low-fat fresh milk for Leonel and strawberry flavor for himself.

They do shopping for the needs of Leonel's house, but because Krystal is also there every day it is okay to include the needs.

"Leon, you know? My mom said..." Krystal paused her speech and smiled doubtfully as she puffed her cheeks.

Huh! Krystal really, she didn't know that Leonel couldn't stand that, in her eyes Krystal was adorable!

"What?" leonel asked as he pinched slowly on Krystal's cheek.

"Why not stay together if you stay there every day? Hehe." said Krystal, imitating Rayrin's tone.

"Oh yeah? Don't be so often, I'm not good with your mom. I took your time away from him." joked Leonel.

"No!"

"She must still miss her youngest child" Leonel said, pinching the small nose.

"But you don't have any friends here." - Kimpal Krystal, that's right Leonel's here for her - how could Krystal just let him go?

"Then, would you like to stay with me, hm?"

"It's not so, later I can get angry papa, was also mama angry papa for giving the idea" said Krystal while putting some cans of sardines.

"Yes princess, all right. Ah, I want all the flavors." exclaimed Leonel then put in a lot of instant noodles with various flavors.

"We must taste different the same as you usually eat."

"It's no problem, I still like it."

"We're alike! You are not a healthy man, you are free. I like it, we're one frequency!" krystal exclaimed while flanking Leonel's arm, anyone would be envious of seeing them. Very harmonious and sweet.

"I just want to enjoy whatever it is while I can still enjoy it" said Leonel who received a nod of approval from Krystal.

But, Krystal's wide smile was dashed, replaced with an envious and hopeful look.

"Jeno?" krystal murmured as her eyes caught the small figure full of yearning.

"Leon, there's Jeno!" tell Krystal, while taking a step forward.

"Nono, don't take mommy!" the exclamation made Krystal freeze, Leonel immediately sensitized and embraced Krystal to stay away before the two met.

Now they've reached Leonel's house and are cooking something.

"You have to try this, Leon" said Krystal, who is now busy cooking, mixing seasonings and chili with two cans of sardines.

This time, Krystal is cooking and Leonel is watching.

"It's delicious, it's normal, but I can eat a lot of rice. Later, if my children grow up they have to eat the recipes that I create. But, now Jeno is a child, if he's grown up___"

Krystal stopped her speech and sighed, ever since meeting Jeno again and after Leonel found out about Jeno, she found it hard to hold back.

Krystal became more expressive of the child-related matters, no longer holding back as she once was.

The knowledgeable Leonel immediately approached Krystal who paused his activities that had served the rice to Leonel.

Leonel stood up and held his lover from the side.

"Maybe I say that, whereas I have never seen her grow up much less later when she grows up, does she like to eat spicy? Does he like to eat sweet, I don't know anything."

"Miracle..."

"I'm a bad mother." added Krystal who is now getting carried away, Leonel's embrace really dribbled her mood into a more blue and made her cry break.

"No! Don't cry, you're the best mom, you just want the best for Jeno, if not for Jeno, then you can make a lot of food for our children, right?"

The set!

Krystal turned her head and made their faces very close, to be honest, Krystal was shocked by Leonel's words.

'Our son, he said?' krystal thought while diving into those emerald green eyes.

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Sreth! One.

Sreth! Two.

Two strokes, at the same point.

Two scratches for one wound that slowly spits out blood.

Krystal looked at her friend, you know what that is? Not a knife, no!

Cutter's not either.

It's just a nail cutter that has a sharp edge.

Why, Krystal using that?

'I still want to live, but I'm tired of living.' Inwardly, he hurt himself to seek tranquility, he did not want to die.

Not yet!

Krystal was afraid, if God rejected her in the next life.

Now only, he has ever felt rejected by his family, does he have to be rejected by God, too?

After all, Krystal still wants to see Jeno grow up and mature.

"Sorry, mama." said Krystal, he opened a book, his diary, in the middle of it there is a photo of a baby.

"Mama's son." his sobbing was on, he was afraid to be heard, let alone his room next to Shine's.

Krystal wiped the photo and kissed it repeatedly.

"Mama's sorry, mama's not a good mom, miss, Jeno. Mama peing called mama same Jeno, really peing. Mama is sad, but if Jeno was living with mama, surely Jeno would be even sadder, Jeno would not be able to be the same as Jeno's papa, Jeno would be embarrassed."

For God's sake!

Although, he only gave Jeno asi a few times.

But, Krystal carried Jeno in her warmth for nine months.

"Mom want, Jeno! But, you definitely don't want to be with mama."

Krystal recalled Jeno's time with Liora this afternoon, which she had seen secretly yesterday, or even something she had heard from her mother or Disha.

"You're such a pity, same mommy Liora. When can you love your mom too, Jeno?"

Miris, Krystal could only smile bitterly as she stared at the picture of the baby, Jeno, the only memory she had.

The only intermediary so that he can hug Jeno in his sleep.

Krystal was silent when she saw the child, not because she did not love Jeno, Krystal just held back and it was difficult to also hurt.

It hurts more than the cut on his wrist, which he often makes when he feels guilty.

"It's my fault, if I fight for a relationship with my sister, if I dare say I'm pregnant, but how can I?!"

Yeah, how could it?

First, she broke off her relationship and disappeared.

Then, on the day she wanted to say she was pregnant, it was the wedding day of the Emperor and Liora.

And, Krystal wasn't that bad at canceling people's marriages because she was pregnant.

Krystal got up, wiped her rough tears, she went into the bathroom and filled the bathtub to the brim.

Krystal soaked herself and drowned herself until she was almost out of breath.

Overview, the past continues to dance in his mind, then turns to the future, on the Emperor and his new family, then on himself and Leonel whom he builds with a false love.

That nice guy.

Goddamnit!

Krystal lives with many mistakes!

Krystal is wrong on every life!

"Akhc! I hate myself!" the screech then ejects itself from the water, and takes the air greedily.

Krystal thought she was happy with the return of her family's affection and Leonel's whereabouts.

But, he had an overwhelming sense of guilt in his mind that was hard to overcome.

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The next day, Krystal woke up with a sad face, it was still early morning.

Krystal hurried to the kitchen she picked up the snow in the freezer then put it on her eyelids that were swollen because of yesterday.

"Luckily it's still quiet, mama must not have woken up" he thought, looking at the wall clock and still five o'clock.

After feeling that the swelling in her eyes was better and her eyes could open comfortably, Krystal ran back into her room before everyone woke up.

He cleaned himself properly this time, not drowning himself or anything else.

Today it looks like it will be cold, because early this morning it was raining heavily and now it is foggy.

Krystal chose cutbray jeans as a subordinate, then a white tanktop covered by a soft pink cardigan sweater.

Her hair was let loose and white sneakers completed her appearance this morning.

Perfect!

Yesterday night he cried, this morning he was cheerful, did his illness increase?

Is Krystal also a double personality?

Krystal smiled wryly thinking about it, then ran out of the room.

"Well, look whose kid is this? Why are you a rich teenage boy?" greet Kris who is sitting in the family room with some files that may be brought.

"I was young, papa." he said, kissing his papa's cheek briefly, then ran to find his mother.

"Hey, where are you going so neat." asked Kris a little hard because his son was away.

"You go to Leon's house!" krystal exclaimed from the direction of the kitchen, which was her goal to find Rayrin.

"I lost to his girlfriend, early in the morning was looking for Leonel alone." grumbled Kris, shaking his head.

"What's cooking mom?" krystal surprised Rayrin who immediately shook his son's shoulder.

"God! So shocked! Where are you going to be neat?" rayrin asked and then looked at the wall clock that showed seven o'clock in the morning.

"Hehe, place ayang!" krystal exclaimed sweet-ass who got a cynical whip from her mother, but it was just a joke.

"It's still morning, Krystal, wait for mama's cooking, breakfast first."

"No, I want to eat Leon's cooking." Rajuk Krystal's.

"Huhuh? So, mama's cooking loses to your boyfriend's cooking?!" rayrin squealed in wonder, while Krystal only grimaced to show his neat teeth.

"Come, ma. I'll go first, bye!"

"Krystal, geez, it's still morning."

"As long as she's here, mom, when you're back in England, you can miss me." replied Krystal as she went away from Rayrin.

"Geez, kid, Kris!" rayrin grumbled as he held his head.

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