My wife is not a Shit Carrier!
Go To City

After a long time I was silent. I fell silent and thought, wanting me to leave this house to avoid motherhood. But I don't want to leave Grandma here either. Only Grandma would listen to my complaints, after I had a fight with my mother.

I tried to think, looking for an excuse to temporarily calm down.

'Did I just tell Grandma, I want to go to the city to find a job?' my inner.

With a slow step I approached the grandmother sitting on the porch of the house. Then I sat down next to him.

My grandmother smiled at me, "What's the matter, baby?" ask grandma softly.

"Eem .. This is Grandma, there is something I want to talk to Grandma about, '' I said hesitantly.

"Try it now say to Grandma! Don't you like you used to be like this?" Still with a soft voice.

"Emm .. So look, Grandma, I'm planning on looking for a job in town. I want to find an experience out there, Grandma, and I want to get to know the outside world" I said hesitantly.

My grandmother was surprised by my words. "What, Grandma didn't hear wrong? Where do you want to find a job? Did you have a purpose after you got there?" ask grandma with a sad face.

"I've called Siska, Nek, our neighbor, Nia's son. Incidentally he said where he worked there was a job opening. So I want to try to go with him. Grandma take it easy, I'll stay with Siska." I tried to convince Grandma.

Implied on his face was a worry for me. Maybe grandma's worried, because I've never, never even known the outside world. Grandma's afraid I'll get lost later.

"Are you sure you can live alone out there? The outside world is loud dear" said the grandmother in a weak voice.

"God willing, I'm sure, Grandma. I promise to take care of myself and limit my association in the city later. Every day I would call Grandma so she wouldn't worry about me there. Please let me Grandma!" Please ask grandma.

Then Grandma took a deep breath, and exhaled slowly.

"alright. Although it feels very heavy to let you travel in the outside world, at your very young age. Grandma believes in you Shintya," said the grandmother with slight hesitation.

Then I immediately hugged Grandma's body, and thanked her. He just nodded his head and smiled faintly. He seemed to be harboring his sadness, all visible from his teary eyes and his sad gaze.

Honestly, I'm also hard to separate from my grandmother. Especially the grandmother who was always there for me. But I must not falter, I must be able to convince myself. I just want to live independently. Without depending on Grandma. I'll help Grandma. I want my grandmother to be happy, I want to make my mother proud of me, even if I know it's impossible.

How will you feel proud? If you look at me, you are not willing either.

But I remained firm in my stance. I'm sure someday my mom will love me.

A few days later.

When the day came I was waiting. Now today I have to go to the capital using travel. To make it easy for me to find my destination address.

Actually, I'm hard on my feet, leaving the land of my birth, even though I won't be gone forever.

However, with intention and firm determination, I convinced myself to stay upbeat. I hope I can change the fate of my family.

Bismilbornrahmanirrahim's. I stepped foot into the travel car, after I say goodbye to grandma. Yep. Only grandma is there, my mom always shies away from me. However, when I looked back, I found my mother peering behind the window.

I want to move my feet towards him. But I'm reluctant, because she won't care.

I also fell asleep because the journey was still long.

A moment later I did not feel like I had reached my main destination. I was a little surprised to be awakened by the travel driver I was riding.

When I arrived, I went down slowly. I looked around, looking very foreign to me. Buildings and high-rise buildings. I set foot towards the door, which I thought was the address Siska gave me. I tried to match the name and the street number, and Alhamdulillah the same.

Then I knocked on that door.

Not long after, the door opened. Now I found Siska in front of me, and then we hugged each other to miss.

"Aahh .. You finally arrived Ndin. I was waiting for you with a feeling of uneasiness, he said happily.

"Alhamdulillah Sis, the journey is also smooth without any obstacles," I replied with a smile.

"Emmn... Do you feel tired? You better clean up first, then get some rest!" he said sincerely.

"All right, just a second. I want to stretch out my muscles that feel so stiff, hehe." I said grimacing.

"Okay," he replied with a laugh.

Then Siska moved from her seat. He went back, I don't know what he wanted. I closed my eyes for a moment, to relax my body.

A while later, Siska walked up to me and brought me a cup of drinks.

'Amh ... Siska, you understand me so well.' My inner self.

"It's better you drink warm tea first before cleaning yourself. I'm sorry at the hostel I'm not stocking up on snacks. I haven't been shopping either" he said grimacingly.

"Thank you very much Sis. You're so nice to me. You want to find a job and give me a ride, I'm grateful." I'm sincere.

"Aahh .. You're like anyone Ndin. I already think of you as my own brother. So don't hesitate to ask me for help. I'm sincere in helping you, and I don't expect anything in return from you. May you be at home to stay with me" said Siska full of sincerity.

I was moved, and then I hugged Siska back.

"Thank you Sis, thank you very much. I owe you."

After a long time I rested, now I went and asked Siska for permission to clean myself which felt very sticky.

Not long after, it did not feel like the day was getting dark. Then I opened my bag, and I put my clothes where Siska had prepared them.

I also check the papers to apply for a job later. Sheet by sheet I read carefully, so that there will be no errors later. I hope to be accepted to work in the same place as Siska tomorrow.

'May my good intentions end well in this city. And God willing, everything will go smoothly.' My mind.

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