My wife's the General's son
Fearfulness

Mas Yusuf and I sat in the courtyard facing the sea, I breathed fresh air, while the weight in my heart was gone.

"Drink the Deck." Mas Yusuf gave me a canned drink that we had bought at the minimarket.

I received the drink, but I was more interested in the leftover drink in his hand, when it was the same drink.

Oh my God, why am I? why would I ever embarrass myself.

"Why Deck? Bengong? It's delicious to drink, it's not dangerous for pregnant women," she said, thinking I was hesitant to drink because my eyes were centered on the can she was in hand.

"Ah, no, not pa-pa." I turned my eyes back to look at the vast ocean.

"Peace yes, it feels empty there is no burden," he said observing the surrounding natural scenery.

"Hm." I only replied with deheman, my eyes still stare at the drink in his hand, I saw Mas Yusuf sipping the drink with such fervor that I felt anxious that the drink would run out.

"Yes..." Suddenly my hand moved to hold Mas Yusuf's hand when he wanted to drink it back.

He looked at me in surprise, his forehead slightly wrinkled. His hand that was holding the drinking can immediately rested on his thigh.

"What's up, Deck?"

"Emm, Mom, can we exchange a drink?" Finally I can not resist the desire, is this a request from my baby? I don't know if I'm trying to hold back my shame as long as my wish is fulfilled.

"But this..." He hesitated to give because he felt hesitant to give the rest. That's exactly what I wanted.

"It's okay, Mom. I really want it" I said honestly.

He looked at me with a meaningful smile. His hand held out his drink. "What is his request?" asked Mas Yusuf while rubbing my stomach that had begun to feel solid.

I just nodded. His hand was in my stomach. "Sir, when do you see a doctor?" joseph asked, positioning his seat as before.

"There's two more weeks, ma'am."

"Sorry yes, I may not be able to accompany you," she softly looked, her gaze straight ahead.

"No pa-pa, Mas. I know Mas Yusuf must be very busy," I replied trying to understand.

"Sir, I want to tell you that tomorrow afternoon I will be on duty out of town, for this one month."

I was a little surprised to hear his explanation. Then he'll leave. I don't know why my heart doesn't feel willing to let go of him. I let out a heavy sigh and tried to understand, this is all for the sake of duty.

"You're okay, aren't you?"

"Ah, yes. I'm fine, Mommy." I tried to smile even though my heart was sad.

As we were chatting suddenly the rain fell, Mas Yusuf immediately guided me to go up the stairs leading to an inn.

"Dek, we rent room one yes, it looks like the rain is durable, we can rest first while waiting for the rain to subside" he said, asking for my approval.

I just nodded, because I also felt tired of wanting to fall down after making a long enough trip.

Mas Yusuf opened the window curtain of the room, again looks beautiful scenery that we just saw. I chose to immediately put down my waist feels sore from sitting too long.

I looked at that sturdy back from the bed, what if he didn't see me for another month. God, why am I so heavy when I part with him.

The back moved and changed position, now the chest of the field was facing me, slowly his legs stepped towards me. I became misbehaved when those shady eyes looked at me so deeply.

Joseph sat by my side. His hand rubbed my hair while saying. "Sleep Deck. I'm here with you."

Suddenly my feelings were erratic, the fear of separation made me lose control. I grabbed her hand and clasped it tightly, then put it on my cheek and closed my eyes.

"Why, Deck?" She returned my grasp, instantly I couldn't hold back the tears, I cried as I hugged her hand.

"Was we parted, will Joseph remember me?" That silly question came out of my lips.

"Why are you talking like that? You're my wife, of course you'll always be on my mind."

The answer warms my heart, I hold her hand even more. A little squash came out of my lips. His next hand was still caressing my slightly messy hair, I heard him sigh heavily.

"I'm sorry Dek, because I can't be a good husband to you yet. I still have many shortcomings, even to accompany you to the hospital just can not be sick. It's all because of circumstances. I really want to make you happy. But I can't do it yet, believe me! Someday I will go through all the time that I have passed to support you and also our future children."

As I looked up at my husband's face, I really did not know what his words meant. Does he not intend to part with me? But am I able to live in the mingle forever.

I don't know, what I'm obviously living, as long as I can, I'll stay. I raised my body to sit in alignment with her, while our hands were still clinging. I leaned my head on her shoulder, I inhaled a masculine scent on her body that made me so comfortable.

"Sleep, honey, don't be sad anymore. Everything's gonna be okay." A warm kiss I felt on my forehead.

Long time we were silent in such a position, boisterous rain added to the atmosphere of shahdu. I heard his breath hunting, it seemed like he was holding back something. I know what he's feeling. However, I was ready to give him his due.

I do not want to always be haunted by guilt, I do not know how our relationship will be in the future, which is clear at this time we are a legal husband and wife in religion. I am obliged to serve him. Nor do I want to be a hypocrite that I want that touch.

"Sleep on the Deck, when the rain subsides I wake you up. We're going on a culinary tour on the beach Carocok," he told me to go to bed immediately.

"Why don't you sleep?" I looked up my head and looked at his handsome face. Now our faces were so close that our breaths were heard, he looked at me so closely.

"Don't look at me like that, Deck."

"Why? Is your face too handsome, so it has prepayment?"

Instantly he pinched my nose and smiled anxiously. "Why are you so adorable. Not because of prepayment, but I'm afraid I can't control myself to avoid being tempted to make physical contact."

"Mas, I'm sorry. But now I'm ready to give you your due..."

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