
It seems that Joseph did not hear my call. So I decided to follow, but when Mas Yusuf arrived at the hospital lobby. He approached a woman wearing a hijab, and Mas Yusuf helped her to stand up and embrace her affectionately.
My body shakes. Who's the lady? As far as I know Mbak Tiara doesn't wear a hijab, does he have another woman? Ah, no, I should know.
Just as I was about to chase her out, my steps came to a halt as Mother called out to me. I'm still focused on that guy who's taking his woman to the car park.
"Khanza, why are you here? Your name has been called," said Mother
"Khanza!" Mother patted my shoulder.
"Ah yes, Bun."
"See what?" asked Mommy looking at me in wonder.
"So I saw Mas Yusuf, Bun, before" I told Mother.
"Yusuf? Isn't he on duty outside the city? You are just there, maybe it's just your hallucination. Already, let's check now, your name's been called."
For a moment I was glued, was I really hallucinating? But it is impossible, I firmly believe that he is Mas Yusuf. I could not forget his posture, even though I only looked back, but once again I believed that he was Mas Yusuf.
Who exactly is that woman? Why is Joseph so. Is having two wives still not enough for him? I need to get confirmation from him.
I went back to Dr. Komba's room to check on my fetus. As I was getting away with Mas Yusuf, I had to focus on the medical examination of my womb.
I stared at the screen, I observed all the movements of my baby, usually I check my patients, now I'm in check, of course I already know without having to explain. Maybe if it was a layman, he wouldn't know before the doctor explained, but I could already tell when the Transducer was moving on the surface of my abdominal skin.
I feel grateful to see my baby's development healthy and well. I listened to Dr. Obgyn's explanations as if I were just a layman, because I was deliberately hiding my identity.
"The development of the baby is good yes, Mom, the weight of the baby is also normal at this age, complaints of dizziness that you feel, can be caused by many thoughts that make you stress, can cause you, look for activities that can reduce the burden of the mind, fearing it will have an impact on your baby."
Yeah, I know what causes me a lot of thoughts. During the month Mas Yusuf rarely news, even I was difficult to contact him, his number is also rarely active.
I don't know what the cause is, if he's busy on duty, but what I just saw. He took a woman. I was so upset I couldn't see that woman's face.
"I think that's just my advice, Mrs Khanza," the doctor said.
"Ah, well Doc. I'll try not to think much more."
"Good then. It's a prescription from me, there are vitamins and dizzy medicine, please make up at the RS dispensary, and hopefully quickly recover ya ma'am."
"Well, thank you, Doc." Doctor and I shook hands, and Mother and I walked out of Dr. Obgyn's room.
"Mother Khanza Almira...!"
Call the pharmacist to hand over the medicine that was on the prescription I gave you. When I was about to stand Mother held me.
"Let Mother, you just sit down."
I just nodded obediently, I sat back down and rubbed my face gently. Why it must be like this, this is the meaning spoken from the words of Mas Yusuf who asked me to stay afloat. If there's no explanation like this I can't! I need to ask him for an explanation.
"Let's go, son, it's your medicine." Mother handed me a plastic bag containing medicine and vitamins. I just nodded in accepting it. Somehow my heart suddenly fretted, my mood changed, I felt no interest in talking to anyone.
***
On the way home I was silent. My mind is still inseparable to Mas Yusuf, he who I always miss, but never think of me, even he accompanied other women to the hospital. What kind of guy is he really? Have I misplaced my trust and admired him?
"What's up, son?" I felt Mother's hand rub against my back, I turned my head and immediately entered her arms. I would love to tell Mommy, but since there is a driver and aide driving, I undo my intentions.
I just cried in Mother's arms. Not a word came out of my lips. Mother who knows my mood is bad, then let me shed tears so that my heart is a little more relieved.
"Already, son, you heard the doctor said, right? Do not mind much, it will affect your baby," whispered Mother in my ear, while wiping my tears.
"Oh, we'll talk about it." Looks like Mommy already knows what I want to discuss. So, I just nodded following Mother's advice, I immediately wiped away the tears, and I tried to close my eyes to forget for a moment about the Man.
Upon arrival at home, I immediately went up to the second floor to go to my room. I dropped my body on the couch. Immediately I took out the phone that was in my pants pocket.
I opened the messaging app, and immediately I called Mas Yusuf's contact. The call rang, my heart was pounding waiting for an answer from him, but what I expected did not match the reality. Joseph refused my call.
Instantly the flat object slipped out of my grasp. My heart is so sick and painful. Why did he take such a heart on me. Is it true that he has another woman? Maybe my presence means nothing to him anymore.
I can't endure this pain. I bent my knees and held me with both hands, and I hid my face there. I poured out all the claustrophobic things that had filled my soul.
I cry in solitude. Why does it feel so painful when you feel you are no longer needed. I shouldn't have to plant this taste so big.
But what about Tiara? Does he feel the same way as me? Did he change his first wife? I don't know, I don't know about it. What I feel right now is so painful. My fate is so sad. I'm just a mistress, and I'm pregnant with her child, what about the status of my child born later.
I cried sobbing in pain. "Why do you love Joseph! I just need an explanation, I'm not asking for anything. But why is it that just to take my call you can't? I hate you, too..."
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