
I still cried sobbing and hid my face on both knees. I heard the sound of the door opening, so I immediately turned to see who was coming. It turned out that Mother had entered my room.
Mother sat by me. I immediately went into his arms, my tears broke again. I actually really want to be a strong woman without having to cry like this. But I miss the love of my husband. I really miss Joseph.
When he said he was busy in the task, then I could still understand, but after what I saw, it broke down all my sense of belief all along.
"Tell me, what happened, son?"
"Bun, I really saw Mas Yusuf, and I saw him with a woman, and that woman was not Mbak Tiara. Why won't Papa find out about Mas Yusuf? What is the man's attitude? I don't want to survive this wedding anymore, Bun..."
I spoke in a very disappointed mood. I felt I had been lied to by Mas Yusuf. Why won't he be honest with me?
"Don't make a quick decision, son. You better ask for an explanation after he comes back."
"But I've been trying to reach her Bun, but she didn't take any calls from me. I'm very disappointed in him."
"Patience, dear, you will ask Papa to contact him."
"Bun, I'm just asking for an explanation and honesty from him. That's all it is."
"Yes, son, Mommy understands what you're feeling. Yase, now don't be sad anymore. Come rest!"
Mother tried to win me. My heart is a little relieved, what Mother said is true, I must not be rash in making a decision. I'll wait for Papa to talk to him.
After Mother came out, I poured myself into letting go of the fatigue in my mind. My brain feels dull to translate things I don't know.
When I closed my eyes, I felt a small movement in my stomach. My lips smiled haru, and immediately rubbed my stomach gently.
"I'm sorry, son, Mama has made you sad. Well, now Mama won't be sad anymore, Mama will focus on you. Now you're Mama's priority."
Yes, I can't be sad. From now on I have to be strong, I don't want to think about Mas Yusuf anymore. I was in my mind to pull over looking for calm.
I better get out of town. I can't move here freely. I am also bored when I have to lock myself at home. I'd better go to Oma's place in Medan.
All right, I'll wait for Papa's confirmation of Mas Yusuf. "Okey, now let's take a break, my baby." Immediately I close my eyes to run for a moment from the problem.
***
The night after Isha, I went downstairs to have dinner together. When I came down Papa and Mommy were already in the dining room. I said hello to my parents, I pulled a chair beside Papa. I deliberately chose to sit next to my beloved General.
It seems like only Papa is an honest man in this world. Maybe Papa is the most loyal man. His affection was so sincere for his wife and children. I admire the figure of my father. From childhood until I was an adult, I never saw Mommy cry because of problems with Papa.
Ah, if there's a stock of men like Papa, then I'm the one who wants it more. At first I thought Mas Yusuf was a good and honest man like Papa, but all my judgments were minus.
"Here you go, let's eat first." Papa rubbed my head. Looks like Papa knows what I want to ask.
I just nodded. I have to be strong not to be sad anymore, this is all for the good of my baby, I do not want all this sadness can have a bad impact on him. I focus on food, don't want to talk about anything, I just want an explanation from Papa about Mas Yusuf.
After eating, I followed Papa and Mommy to sit in the family room. Yes, it is Papa's habit after eating he will sit in the family room chatting lightly with Mother. Usually I rarely join them, I prefer to climb back into the room, but this time I really want to find out about Mas Yusuf.
I wish for an explanation, for me to know the truth, I just feel like I'm hanging unrobed, which makes my heart ache because he's not being patient. He was impressed to avoid me.
"Pa, how? Has Papa contacted Mas Yusuf?" ask me directly on the subject.
"Here, Papa called him. Yusuf said he was busy with his duties, he apologized for not getting a call from you. But he promised Papa, if he has time to call you. Now you don't think of anything. Papa believes he's a good man."
I don't know why I'm not satisfied with Papa's explanation. And it seems like Papa has put his full trust in her. Ah, I don't know, it seems like I really need some time to calm down.
"Pa, Bun, I want to go to Oma's. I'm bored here. I wanted to find a new atmosphere to calm my mind. Allow me, will you?" I gave my wish to both my parents. I saw Papa and Mommy looking at each other, and I heard Papa sighing heavily, but his face looked resigned.
"Has it been a unanimous decision for you?" tanya Papa convinced me.
"Yes, Pa, I feel there I'm easier to move. Maybe I'll get busy, I can work at Om Yandra Hospital."
"Alright, Papa and Mommy can't do anything. But you have to stay alert. Later Papa will ask your brother to find a guard for you there."
I smiled happily, finally Papa and Mommy allowed me to get out of the house. Now I'm just going to focus on my son. I no longer wish for Mas Yusuf. Let him live the life that I myself am the truth of.
"But, before you go you tell Joseph yes, let him not lose when you go home later," said Mother.
She might have lost Bun. Whether I'm here or not, he'll never lose.
"All right, Bun."
"When are you going?" ask Papa
"Tomorrow Pa, later Papa and Mother tell Oma and Opa yes. Later let me tell Brother Anju and Om Yandra."
Yeah, it looks like faster is better. I want to find tranquility. Maybe it's better that I give birth there, so that nobody knows. If I could after my son was born, I would stay there.
Seriate....
NB. Today the author is not healthy, so sorry if less lived ๐๐ฅบ
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