Nariswari - Toll Road to Love
I Hate Me Like This!

Sometimes I have long. Then nod yourself. And again solemnly staring round book wrapped pink in front of me—book loan from mba Lila. The Awe-Inspiring Me. Either way Lila often forces me to read it. While tidying up the closet for being unemployed, I found the book. Maybe Lila forgot to lend it.

I'm the fast reader type, so often jump per-page at will even like a flea jump. Until I met an interesting subject, on page 198. The Science of Love.

I woke up as Nathan sat beside me. He broke my concentration.

"Why so?" ask her sweet snobs with a blanked tone.

"Again jailangkung," I replied lazily and did not want to be disturbed.

"Huh?"

"Yes, what else does it look like?"

Nathan smiled, then scratched, "Gallows are really today."

I sighed, "I've been fierce since the orok, and raised like this," I replied of origin, overshadowing the Jungle Book cartoon. A boy raised by wolves.

"Read what?"

"The papers!"

"Lho, what newspaper?"

Gemes ih! I want to bite Natan. My inner. He saw the book I was holding. Nathan let me drown in books. Then I realized, it's been so outrageous. Reading motivational books makes me a wolf. Not because of the book. But that's how I want to focus, just like

work deadlines, and work.

Awe-inspiring Me. The Science of Love. It turns out that love is influenced by several body hormones. There are hormonal action and chemical reactions for people who fall in love. I was not interested in this stuff. Seeing Nathan is strange. I became curious. What hormone does Natan's body produce there are abnormalities?

In this book, there are 8 human hormones to fall in love with. Ada, Phenyl Ethyl Amine (PEA), Dopamine, Endorphins, Serotonin, Pheromones, Oxytocin, Norepinephrine, and Vasopressin.

PEA hormone, produced by the brain. Substances that play a role in accelerating the flow of information between nerve cells so that the body becomes very excited. Oh, so the PEA was the culprit, which led Natan to ask me to marry him. Creating excited lebay.

Dopamine. This hormone makes you crazy. Natan's pleasurable feelings are the effects of dopamine. It makes you happy, increases energy, excites you, but also reduces concentration and appetite. Did Natan also overdose on the hormone dopamine? I glanced at. He also found my tail.

His eyes were round, as if asking in wonder. Then I went back to reading.

Endorphins, having two functions, relieve pain and boost the immune system. In the case of people in love, this hormone stimulates the brain with sensations of happiness, comfort, and love. Oh, like this? Even though I'm crazy, buggy and kere, can he have a crush on me for this?

Serotonin, a neurotransmitter in the brain involved in obsessions. When you fall in love, serotonin levels drop. This drop in serotonin levels leads to falling in love. This hormone causes people to fall in love

like a stressed person. And brain chemistry conditions such as Obsessive Compulsive Disorder disorder. Did Nathan go crazy about Mimi because of this?

Pheromones, hormones that can cause attraction between two different types of people. Pheromones signal the opposite sex we attract. I nodded then glanced at Natan who was busy with her gadget.

Oxytocin, the love hormone. When you fall in love, your body produces this hormone and makes you happy. Able to reduce stress. This hormone is responsible for controlling emotions, happiness, and libido. Also, a lot of oxytocin is produced when women give birth and wean their offspring. Is this why Nathan can move on?

Norepinephrine, this hormone is secreted in the upper part of the kidneys. Makes the heart beat faster. The effect, feel passionate, hyperactive, even overacting.

Vasopressin, a hormone that actually works with the kidneys to control thirst. According to researchers, this hormone also functions in long-term love relationships, and will be released after intercourse. Simply put, hormones that make you loyal to your partner.

I then got the mangosteen. This is an amazing role of hormones. So, why do I always feel unidirectional

Nathanie? Did Nathan overdose on hormones, or strangely enough, my body fail to produce hormones? Or I'm out of hormone stock! I laughed stupidly too.

I also turned the page. It stopped on page 213. The love chapter is lost because of.

It turns out that the love hormones only work optimally in the period of 3-4 years. It was the result of research Researchers at the National Autonomus University of Mexico, that love relationships will definitely find saturation points, not just because of boredom, factors, but because the content of chemicals in the brain that activate love is getting reduced, and over time will run out.

So, someday, will Nathan also run out of these hormones? I looked at Latan from behind the book.

***

I was shocked, seeing the mess that happened on my birthday from the office. Is there a vane? I also called Nathan. I found him in the dark. Glass and porcelain vases, hp, air conditioner remotes, almost all interior accessories in the house in cabinets, walls, and tables are now scattered on the floor.

Nathan looked frightened. I pulled him to sit on the springbed. He's holding my face. Then hold me tight.

What's the matter?

"Don't go!"

I'm shaking. Requesting explanation. He just kept quiet in fear.

"I'm not leaving." I whispered. "Promise."

"I'm broke, Ri. Bankruptcy!" She's distressed. "I'm fooled by my confidants...."

My heart is beating fast. I can only be quiet.

"You're not leaving me, are you?"

I swept Nathan's hair. Smiling softly then nodding, "I'll never leave." I'm suffocating my breath. It was sad to see this reality, the rich man who was on top suddenly fell wasted.

We also moved house. Back in the upper Pudak Payung area of Semarang, which is far from the city center, we contracted a house that I thought was still okay, but Natan's view was like a shack of pain. 1-story house that is still quite spacious in my opinion, architecturally this house is standard. Without helpers, minimal furniture, and without beautiful accessories, also without the order of the garden, fish pond, swimming pool, fountain. Even the gold car of Natan and his ninja should be pawned. Now there's only a scoopy and a bike of mine that Natan refuses to

untying. Because he said it was mine. Wedding gift.

To start from the beginning. So difficult. Natan needs a big boost. And strong self-confidence. His company colleagues hardly anyone believed him. Because of Natan's ugly temperament. His relationship with his father was also not good, so it was not very helpful. I also work full.

Which I usually freelance work, now 5 days a week. My savings are quite a lot of money, I use it for the fulfillment of daily needs. We also fast to see doctors, moles, restaurants, hotels, and agendas

who spent money.

Our food was simple, to save, I rarely cooked beef, but often I cooked fish, by sauteing it, because I was a bug woman who liked seafood, Natan also did not like the fishy smell. I also sauteed eggplant vegetable side dishes, and sambal. As for the matter of eating, Natan did not protest much, as long as it was my cooking, he would eat it, even if it was a charade. He was just devastated to see the drastic changes in our lives.

2016 Years. Natan's transition was difficult. While, I can be said to be ordinary, even I often experience more cool times than this. Therefore, to prove all is well. My face is always happy and laughing. Like nostalgia.

"Narrivary?" whispered Natan worried. I was skating on the website. Write the latest copywriting for culinary promotion at the newly amputated Natan company

"Yes?" I turned around laughing.

"You're not going, are you?"

"I don't mean that, but-"

"I'm not leaving. Promises. As long as you fight together. Let's show the deceiver that you didn't die because you cheated on him, or you can take me to see the culprit, let me hit him with a physics book." I tried to comfort him as much as I could. The evidence of fraud is also less robust. In addition to having to look for evidence of that, we struggled to get up.

"Spirit?"

"Yes. I'll be next to you." I pointed my little finger. Berekting sweet ass alay. He also tied my fingers with his.

For me, returning to life is as simple as coming home. And I don't have a problem. This is not a matter of treasure, for I still want to be by Nathan's side to pull him up. And I'm happier.

Meanwhile, Natan's phobia relapsed again. He thought it might be the treasure holding me by his side.

And fortunately, he was able to adapt quickly because of the self-reliance learning he had done. Also because his wife is a genuine remote person who can be invited to be happy and suffering.

It's freaky. Living in a simple home makes me the old me. And I'm back. I can laugh again, and joke. I can work at home with Natan, without a maid. Then to the office, Nathan did too.

And all we did was trust each other and rise up together.

"Ri, are you moving house?" tanya Jun saw me at the stop, in front of the campus.

I smiled, "Not to think about it."

"Are you okay?"

I nodded again.

"So, you?"

"Yes?"

"Still with Nathan?" tanyanya.

"Of course, husband and wife, right, should be together." I saw June offended by my words.

"You're so nice. Again out of pity, yes." June cold comments.

"Where have you been all this time?" ask me to shift the topic.

"You too."

"Oh, that. That's me at home, teaching Natan a lot of things. If you?"

June just smiled. Old silent. He looked inside. Like I wanted to say something.

"Do you feel sorry for Nathan?"

I nodded, "Yes. I should always keep him because-"

"Do you like Nathan?"

I'm speechless. Then laugh. "Why?"

Jun shook his head, "I can help you, Ri."

"Help?"

"Yes, your company. I can inject funds to raise Natan's efforts. We can join together. Cooperation." June commented.

"really? Wow, you're so nice!"

June smiled.

***

"That's the story. Your cousin wants to help." I commented relievedly. Repeated my story this afternoon. Nathan didn't see me. He stands. Disappeared from behind the door. Why her? I was shocked, hearing the sound of shards.

"Gosh?!" Again I found broken glass scattering. I went awry. Why is he angry? Even though we got help. Should I go after him? What if he hangs himself! Ah, it's impossible!

"But, right, he's been crazy?" I'm pacing. Then stop. "Auuu.." I immediately took off the gaping shards of glass on my right foot. With a limp leg I immediately cleaned up the mess that Natan had caused.

I'm honestly upset. But, if I look angry, she'll definitely be. Fire against fire, will not be finished. Although I have to admit, from the first time I got married until now, I don't remember, she once scolded me. Even if he's angry. It must be just angry at itself, like living in its own world. He never said anything rude either. And not to rebuke me about June. Why.yeah?

June?

Yes, June wants to help us. Then, Nathan suddenly changed. Because June? Natan's angry about June? Because I met June? Why doesn't he ever scold me about this if he doesn't like it? He was silent, how could I know?

All I know is that men are jealous, more than women. And Nathan proved it.

I found it behind the house. Under the guava tree. He hugged his knees like a child. I sat down next to him.

I was surprised to see his finger bleeding. Immediately I stood up to take clean water, wound medicine, and bandages.

Natan glanced at me as I took her hand to wrap it up, "Sorry. I hate me like this."

"Look easy." I tried to laugh. "Are you mad that I met June?" I'm sophistication. Then gulp. What stupid question is that? Be clear! I'm the stupid one! Just realized.

Nathan remained silent. He pretended to be smiling from the curvature of his lips, then pinched my cheek.

"Don't get mad! Your wrinkles are growing!" I pinched Nathan's cheek back. Interestingly, his lips formed a crescent moon.

"Am I getting older?" Then he held her face. "No way! I'm 20, right."

"Haha kidding." I also stood up. Lalu—

I complain. Just felt the pain of a new shard that stuck in my right leg. Natan shocked. And ask why.

"Ah, no, ordinary! Uric acid."

And.

Because they were caught lying. Be me bandaged with a lofty Natan. Let me rest in bed. He said he would do everything. And, I'm not sure, he's a dick! To the extent that his right leg also limps.

Then he promised not to throw glass objects again. Thank goodness! I was often a victim.