Nariswari - Toll Road to Love
If I Don't Drink, Will You Come Back?

"Are you okay?"

I didn't answer, "You got a project locker?" ask me to shift the topic.

June immediately replied, "Omku company is building a 4-star Grand Sani hotel in Pati. You want to join?"

I nodded steadily, "Prime, huh?"

"Yes, this is the first 4-star hotel in Pati."

I also agree. I took out a red lunch box. I'm asking him sushi to thank you.

***

Again I resigned, really sorry to the boss, he also said it. And this is the last time. I just need a new atmosphere to erase it from my memory. Even in the office, I remember him. And I have to go far!

I'm staring down. The wind is quite strong, now I am at the top of the construction of the building. There are several concrete columns dangling, ducting, beams, which have not been completed of course, also scafolding, and scattered materials. This column will be the next floor support. I looked down again. High up this building. If I fall from here, how many tens of seconds do I get to the bottom? What kind of a sac is this? What does Nathan feel?

You idiot! I remember it again! Don't remember someone who doesn't remember you, too, a waste of time!

My mind wandered until I was unconscious while descending the unfinished construction ladder and was fitted with perfect safety. Then-then

My body is like floating in the air. Landing is pulled by gravity. It's all getting dark. I heard the screams of many people. And my body is lifted. Everything is black.

The room is white. There's a biting proboscis in my hand. And I saw my old office mates, and project mates looking worried and smiling brightly when I woke up.

"I'm why, huh?" I ask to remember the incident.

"Fall down from the staircase construction" said one of the project friends.

"Oh, thank goodness." I smile.

"Dha?" Yunita looked, and Lila became wrinkled.

"I thought I killed myself." I laughed bitterly.

They also look stiff. Scroll in that corner, Jun sat glancing at me. June? I let out a breath. They laughed cheerfully, comforting.

"You've been unconscious for almost two days."

"Oh, huh? Ouch!" I patted the jidat.

"Why?" ask Lila to worry.

"I should have eaten yesterday, sorry I waited all day."

They laughed, "You, I thought what! But, we're glad you're back."

I'm nodding. I hope this pretense makes them stop worrying about my misfortune. Enough of my household to be amputated! I want to go back!

Yep. Me, accident. I'm weak!

You used to say out there was danger. You're afraid I'm hurt. And now, you're the one who got me the most hurt. Nathania.

Even thinking of you is my misfortune.

It's getting dark. My office friends were alone, while project friends had already returned home. I also sent June home. I said fine. And there will be nurses guarding.

My body hurts. Tired, and I don't want to wake up anymore. I had a discoloration or a bone shift in my leg, but the pain was all the way to the tailbone, and my back was moving, and it took me about a few weeks to recover.

I never thought of this, when I coughed, Nathan immediately brought a private doctor home. Now, who will pay the hospital fees?

I'm ill. By ourselves. And lonely. I have never felt this sad. The people at home asked me to come home as soon as I was healthy. And I haven't decided yet. For now, I just want to be the old one. Cheerful and likes to laugh. Not a gentle perenung and likes to bulldoze.

I fell asleep too. Days in the hospital. Office friends also sometimes visit after work until magrib, then Lila, alone who usually accompany me. There was also sometimes a June standing guard outside.

I need to be healthy. I need to heal. Healing from the past. When should I get sick like this? The pain in my heart is more chronic than my whole body.

It was night, I fell asleep and had a dream, Natan visited me. He fixed my blanket. Touching my hand with her delicate fingers. Then stroked my cheek. I'mawakened. Then I found that figure. He was standing right next to my bed.

I smiled, grabbing her hand that was stroking my cheek. It was Nathan. The person I missed.

This isn't a dream?

I made sure to grab her face. He also looked down. Her face is sad. Is correct. It's real!

I clasped his hand, then sobbed. I forget. Forgetting. I forgot we were no longer together. He already has a new world. I was ashamed, and very sad. I pulled the blanket. Turned back. I wish he would disappear from my world forever.

I am so pathetic! I have to show I'm okay, and I won't die for it. Since then. I eat a lot and take medication regularly. I want my old life.

I will show the world that I will not die for it!

"I'm happy to be out of the hospital. Heals so quickly. The doctor was surprised to see me who knew how to heal." I showed my thin muscles. Lila laughs. "Let Mba Lila not thin because of taking care of me."

Mba Lila smiled. She was confused, like there was something to say. But, arresting. He hesitated.

"I'm sorry before, but you should be fine, having known this, yes," she asked.

I nodded steadily.

"Actually from the first day you went to the hospital, uhm .. I think, uh, like looking at Natan. He's furtive. Did you get to see him? He looks like he wants to see you."

I shook my head, "That's just Mba Lila's hallucination."

Lila nodded, "Thank God, the entire cost of care is covered by the project." The glasses girl smiled. I give thanks, I even got a bonus from the project.

Even Mba Lila did not continue her hallucination, and I did not want to discuss it. That night, I glanced at Nathan's eyes, and I found him. It's no use!

"Are you sure you want to continue on this project?" His tone was so worried. Eyebrows conical. As if he wanted to stop me.

"Why not? I've been bleeding here, what's in my way? Don't be so lackluster! Let's spirit!" I exclaimed.

June is smiling. We went around the project. I don't know since June when June liked this world. The hard world is full of stressed people who are being chased by deadlines, the life of the handyman and the dusty knuckle, the head handyman coordinating with the foreman, the foreman who is always monitoring them, and coordinating by the contractor, and subconies, contractors who sometimes like to take the heart of Construction Management, MK who always report progress to the owner.

9 Months I followed the hotel project in this part of the structure. Finally completed as well. Although not on time. And that's a normal thing.

"Are you seriously going home?" tanyanya.

"Yes." Yeah." I commented short.

"Why not stay here?" I saw Jun's eyes look so depressed.

"I miss my mom. But, I promise, I'll be back. With the new me." I smiled comfortingly. I felt guilty in June. And June has always been there all along.

I checked the messages on my Android. My face wrinkled. Friends who used to help Natan's company decided to terminate his contract. Because they finally know about me and Nathan. They said they used to work together not because of Nathan, but because of me. They trust me. I just found out personal problems affect work. They could tell, probably because they saw Mimi with Natan. Nathan and Mimi are like gum.

I also went straight to them. I could have been revenge. By agreeing to their expectations. But let it be, treasure is not happiness. I just want to let go of everything, and want clarity.

After that, I met Natan today, before I disappeared from the island.

"Why not sign the letter?"

Nathan remained silent. Looks stiff. I took a breath, "You're happy to keep my life aflutter. It's unclear. By law I'm still your wife, but I thought, it's just the status of ***," I said casually.

"How are you doing?" tanyanya switched topics. Again a face full of seriousness that he presented. And I'm sick of seeing her act.

"Still Survive."

"You're going home?"

"Yes, there's no reason I'm in this town. When I am there, I hope that you settle our affairs in the religious court. Let me get married again soon." I smiled cynically.

"What?!" Nathan looked shocked.

I laughed coldly. Managed to trick him.

"Take some of my treasure. That's yours. If you want all my assets."

I smiled bitterly. Then shook his head, "You kere, I doubt, your woman can still hang by your side." I'm speechless. "And I don't need treasures. June is rich." I smiled sharply. Then hush. If you know, the treasure that women really look forward to is a faithful companion!

Natan's face at that time seemed careless, also worried. I managed to fool him. I passed, then stopped. And say the stupid thing, "Nat, don't drink anymore! You could die!"

"If I don't drink, will you come back?"

I looked at him sharply, "Son!"

I'm leaving too. From a distance I wave my hand. Act strong. From then on, my eyes were already glazed.