Nariswari - Toll Road to Love
First Honeymoon After Two Years

This is the first honeymoon in two years. After that horrible incident! I don't actually want to remember it. If I may, I want to ask God to erase that memory. Every time I see Nathan. I'm rattled. This is called hate and love. But isn't that sorry it was given? Yes, that's how women are. Will always remember the incident to the tip of the nail. Forgiveness does not mean forgetting!

Can we be happy after all this?

“Han?”

“Han?” whispered the man beside me.

I woke up from a daydream. Then turn around and ask, “Han?” I furrowed my brows while pulling a plain white blanket. Natan nodded, smiling, her pale face like yesterday-yesterday became blushing, looking happy.

“Iya. Hani's. Honey. Babe.”

“Hah? Since when do I change my name.” I'm grinning.

Natan's tiny lips curled the crescent moon. “Start again. Start again, my wife Nariswari is back as she once was hehehe.” He moved his body closer. Then I held my shoulders and stared. “Try saying ...”

“What the fuck, anyway?” I tried to take off his tight grip, but it was hard!

“Try saying, Natan .. I love you.”

“Ih, so much! Bucin ah bucin, don't want!” I immediately pinched his hand which finally made him give in and scream. I also covered my face like a chicken thief who was caught by Mr. RT.

Natan laughed to see me writhing in shame. “Yes, no papa, the important thing is I know you like me. That's more than enough. Even I prefer your love of the earth and its whole being,” whispered softly like the expression of Qais's heartfelt heart to Laila.

“Aaan anyway, Nat! Shame to know! Udah ah, kayaking in Korean movies only.” I turned around and pretended to be asleep, and he continued to babble. Telling his heart. How could she fall in love with me. She knew very well, I was just pretending to be asleep because she was still telling stories.

“You were the first person to extend a hand when I fell again. When I felt I was helpless, and lost hope for the second time.” He told me a story while playing my hair. I covered my face in shame and stopped. Oh, huh? For the second time? The first one is Mimi! The terrible incident was when Nathan lost his mother, and his father remarried. Her new mom likes Natan and teases her. Then Mimi came to give him warmth from the cold days of Nathan.

“When you nolongin me the first time alone curled up on the porch of the house.” Natan laughs. “keep drinking me kerosene. It's so weird! How can there be kerosene on the terrace of my house.”

“Continue you feel guilty. I could have reported you. But, I remember. Remember once your face worried me so much like the woman who secretly liked me. Unfortunately, I had to experience love clapping one hand.”

“You come every day. Either out of guilt or out of wanting to see him.”

“Forget about him! Today I just told you about how I learned to love you. At first, I felt bad! We are so different. Like east and west. Just love or I don't know what the name is that can make us meet. Ah, yes! Name ... destiny.”

“I always watch you from behind the window of my room facing the street. How do you walk, run because late, fall, crouch while feeding the cat, your indifferent attitude the same kids, to your cute way of climbing a tree to pick up a balloon stuck in an acacia tree.”

“There are so many funny events that make my dying life try to live, such as being chased by village thugs, geese, playing in all vehicle games, to propose to you for the umpteenth time.”

“I never feel bad, feel insecure, but .. You destroyed my life history. Behind my relaxed attitude. Know not? I'm so nervous. I fear. I was so scared that you rejected me. I can't imagine if it happened. Maybe I'll lie stiff on the bed and don't want to get up again.”

I don't know why my eyes are wet. I quietly swept her away. Waiting for Natan to tell me again. There are some very surprising parts. That is the real feeling of Nathan. And again it was a shock. If I wasn't ashamed, I would have run and hugged her warmly. In fact, I can only cling to the bolts.

I'm stopping. It's strange! Why he did not continue his story. Lest he fall asleep. I slowly got up and turned around. I was shocked. Ow hell! Die me!

He was still awake and looking at me inside. He then spills towards me!

***

“No need!”

I then ran to the bathroom. Spewed out all my stomach. The porcelain kuremas. It feels really painful. All this time, I wasn't used to vomiting, because it was so painful, it was usually withheld. I was crying.

“Nariswari, open the door!” Natan knocked on the door, from here it sounded she was quite panicked. I remember what I ate last night? Only fruits. Lately, my appetite has gone down. I was afraid to be a living skull. Then ... I stopped. What don't-don't?!

This serious? I don't know, I cleaned up right away. Then smile. Look at yourself from the mirror. What right? Keep thinking about it again, the last time I .. I seem to have come 2 weeks late. I immediately took a test pack from the drawer in front after telling Natan that I was fine. Even though he keeps knocking on the door.

I shut my mouth. Look at the test pack. Two blue lines! Two blue lines! Two blue lines! Huh uh?! I'm yelling. And the door was successfully opened with a spare key. Nathan came in.

“You ... why? Worry to know.”

“Nat, I .. I ...” I doubt it but I'm so happy, it feels like when Natan picks me again, and not Mimi.

“What is it?” his tan looked up at the tiny white thing I had been holding. He took. Then look at lamat. “Result?”

I smile. Smiling happily. Then whisper. “Positive.” I hugged him tightly.

“Hah?!”

“Kok huh?”

“Ah, no.” Nathan looks nervous. He did not dare to look at me anymore. “Kok can, yes,” hisses down. “kukira negative.”

“What? You said what?!”

The casual man smiled clumsily, he scratched his head. “Ah, no kok.” He then passed. Sitting on the balcony staring straight without a sound. I don't know what he's thinking. Rather than being called happy, she looked shocked, feeling like a man impregnating his own girlfriend. Natan did not budge at all, still looking ahead to dusk. He just came in. And shift the door.

“You're really pregnant?”

I who had been skating in cyberspace on the tablet, looking for information about pregnant women, then stopped, I just nodded annoyed. How strange! Here, I'm happy myself. Be touched by yourself, and may struggle alone.

“Why, Nat?”

Nathan nodded weakly. Still can't believe it. He leaned against the couch and pulled the blanket. I was so angry at him! Why can there be a husband who is unhappy with his wife's pregnancy? And that's my own husband? I should how?

“What's the matter, Nat? You're sad, huh?”

He's still quiet. Then it blows heavy. “Actually ... I .. I ... just haven't prepared anyone else in our midst. It feels too fast. So fast! I can't believe.” Natan held his head like there was a concrete mound above his head.

“How to?” ask me without looking at him.

“Don't know …. Kan, it's already”

I'm blowing heavy. Breathe in. “You have to take responsibility, this is your baby too. You did it.” I tried to smile. He just fell silent, not daring to look at me.