Nariswari - Toll Road to Love
Meeting First Love

I looked at that figure deeply. These eyes begin to glaze over. I don't know why. What is this feeling? I don't know. It was like a thirst for murder, to and fro looking for an oasis in the desert, and then right in front of me, June was my oase. The quiet man was the same, staring with a flimsy smile. From behind his eyes, it was like a ray of longing that was so deep.

Natan. We are also aware. Back to our world. I immediately swept the eye pelukan that was instantly wet. Natan glanced, I did not dare to look at her, but the instant Natan hugged me tightly in front of Jun like she was not going to take it off.

The man in front of me immediately threw away his face. He seemed to hate this atmosphere. I'm sorry, June! Fortunately, Miss Lastri who was carrying chocolate and milk cakes immediately melted this bumbling situation.

“How are you?” tanyanya.

I answered her question with a sweet smile. Then nod. “Good. You?”

No one answered June. Nathan direct comments. “My wife is now pregnant, you know, right?”

Jun looked shocked, looking at me like he was asking the truth. I don't know why I don't feel good about saying it. I just smiled stiffly. Permit him to eat cake made by Bu Lastri that I taught via streaming youtube.

First meeting after that day. I feel like I haven't seen you in so long. I only returned to Nathan for half a year. Natan immediately told Bu Lastri to take out all the food, I ate it too, saw Jun eat. Unfortunately, Nathan seemed to be uninspired. I'm sorry, Nathan! If you don't like it, why are you giving up again because of me?

“May your son be like you Nariswari,” says the dark-clothed man in his black jacket hat while eating milk pudding.

“Why do I like me?” nathan asked cynically, I can feel it. His hand that was still holding my hand was getting tighter and tighter. He looks upset.

Jun did not reply, he just laughed as if mocking his cousin. I don't know why they're still holding each other. Why not forgive each other? This situation is so bad! I don't like it!

I immediately stroked Nathan's hand, he glanced, I looked at him as if saying no more quarrels! The white man understood.

“You changed a lot Nariswari,” said June glanced at me while drinking milk.

“Hah? What changed?” I then suddenly raised my arms, squeezed them, the feeling of my body all this time remained thin at the moment. Kulirik Natan was still speechless not wanting to respond.

Jun smiled faintly, feeling that he had not seen a single crescent arch for a long time. “Bu-not that! You become more serious, not kayak usually, used to always cheerful, funny.”

I just answered with a small laugh, stealing a glance at my husband. Nathan's face changed again. I don't know why I can turn out like this?

***

I was smiling all day while stroking my belly, now 16 weeks old. It feels very relieved to be able to meet this baby with his omnya. Or is it just my feeling! The difference is so thin that it is not visible.

I also glanced at the room, Nampak Natan struggling with the tablet. He's so serious. I don't know if I play games or work. Rather than bothering her, I better wait for her anger to subside on the balcony. While tidying up the beautiful flowers arranged neatly I sang happily.

I stopped, then turned around. Nathan is behind me. He's cleared his throat.

“Seneng, yes?” tanyanya cynic.

“Ke-why?”

“Ah, no! Just your singing up here, it looks very happy, must be very happy to be visited doi, uh not ex,” his hiss cynical.

I'm blowing heavy. It wasn't you yourself who invited her when I wanted to cancel that strange request?! I smiled and nodded too. “He knows I'm happy?” His black eyebrows instantly wrinkled. Looks like he doesn't like my answer! He fell silent and left. I'm blowing heavy again!

I was confused, how to get Juni and Natan back to be brothers like before. They are always suspicious of each other, jealous of each other, and resentful of each other. What am I supposed to do? Should I find Jun a soul mate let Natan calm down and he doesn't mind anything between me and June. That was enough of a terrible event to happen! Why should I want to meet Natan's cousin, my first love?

***

After that incident, our relationship remained stiff, as when she found out I was pregnant, Natan began to drift apart. It has been running for 32 weeks of pregnancy. Should I pretend to be sick again? But, just in case the pain really how? It'll put my baby in danger. Baby Nathan. I'm really sorry! I'm the spark that ignited our relationship! I don't want this to happen again for the umpteenth time. Horses do not fall in the same hole.

But, I also really want to make Jun and Natan back brothers. Is there no other way? Is the road closed? Isn't breaking up the family relationship the wrong thing? But, if Natan is jealous again, how is it? Just yesterday's meeting he couldn't forgive her yet!

I looked around, the interior of my baby's room, to forget the events that had happened, I began to busy myself, as well as Nathan. I designed the room. The design of the baby girl Natan room is predominantly pink with cute dolls such as a honey bear, colorful pillows that follow the color of the room, also toys on a hanging mattress. I don't know, whether Natan had seen this room or not, just yesterday she was able to accept the presence of this baby, after the June incident, she came back the way she was, although he looks more mature with his busy work— is not so unemployed as before, but he is still childish once, but soon he will be a father!

I turned around, waking up when I heard the sound of the door knocking. “Why?”

“I want to Bandung.”

“Ke Bandung again?” I asked with a riled face. Does she not remember that I am 8 months pregnant who can give birth to her child at any time?!

He just nodded. Then I kissed her forehead, and she kissed her hand leading her to the front door. Waving hand. Trying to smile. Nathan is also out of my sight. Feels weird! I'm not really happy to take it off. But ego and cuey are running through me. Ta-pi, but how about in Bandung, Natan meet a beautiful girl, or someone teases her? Know, right. For the sake of men, men are like cats, which if offered fish will not refuse!

I also caressed my stomach. Talk to my baby with bitterness. I don't know why I've been so melancholy lately? What are the hormonal influences? I also wouldn't do odd jobs like mopping the floor squatting, the last time Yunita, my former office friend did that, she gave birth. I don't want to give birth before Nathan comes home!

“You don't come out first yes, Na,” I whispered trying to be happy. Because I knew my grief could make her unhealthy, I was so afraid that my baby was born imperfect, and then Natan hated her.