Not my Man
Wounds and Memory

Chairs and tables had been removed, relatives and neighbors began to arrive, as well as dark clouds that morning.iezza thought he was just lost in a scary dream when he opened his eyes in an ER room.

However, reality led him to be here. Lean on the living room dindin which is now filled with roaring cries. His gaze ran blankly at his father's stiffened body not far from where it was.

Lying so quietly as not to hear how many cries had broken down due to her loss. Beside Azmi, Rahma was stuck with a broken feeling.

This morning, Rahma was unconscious three times, so when Rahma decided to lean back against the wall not far from where Azmi lay lifeless. Rahma seemed to have died with him.

Relatives come with a word of steadfastness. He rubbed Rahma's shoulder repeatedly. Sentence request to let go and mengikhlaskan come and go, as if sad this must be quickly ended.

However, Muezza's mother refused. She let herself wail so badly when she realized that her husband's departure was not a dream. The shadow of his mother's departure had not even completely vanished from memory.

Still left clearly in Rahma's shadow when her mother's body was stiffened before her. Now, the husband occupied the place unannounced, without signs. No parting words, no more worthy farewell hug.

Everything happens like the rain that falls on the earth. After a few minutes of excitement, Rahma shed another tear.

"Dad ...." Alif desperately shook his father's body to wake up from this long sleep.

So with a trembling body, rubbed the face of the father who is now pale. He seemed so calm in his long sleep, closed without burden.

Out there was a girl wearing a white shirt running inside.

"So soon as Om goes. Just now Juwi was at ease having Om as Juwi's protector." Juwita's not playing. His chest was so tight when he remembered Azmi came to his rescue in the rounding up of his upperclassman a few weeks ago.

"Juwi's already! It would be sadder if you were like this." Juwita felt how her Tantai hand clenched her shoulder tightly, but instead of being firm, she was more crushed.

"Om promised to take care of Juwita, Auntie. But ... But why did Om abandon Juwi again?"

"It's fate, son. You're not the only one who lost, look at them! Ikhlaskan."

"But .. Juwi's chest hurts Aunt."

Muezza who was silent without a sound now sobbed, even the girl was already unable to feel how swift the tears that flooded her cheeks. All he felt was destruction.

There really is nothing more broken than meeting a loss a second time. Until Gina starts giving up, she decides to let Juwita dissolve into her grief.

"Mue?"

"I abandoned my father, Yas." The barrel shed tears as Muezza hugged her.

Then his friend took a deep breath, "When I wanted to make his wish come true."

Laras may be able to feel the sadness of his best friend. Azmi's departure was obvious, leaving a deep wound. Though only yesterday he sat with his father in front of the house wrapped in wounds at this time.

Now his father had gone on a longer journey and would never return. Despite the tightness, Laras rubbed Muezza's wet face. He hugged his best friend's body back in a sob that no longer described how painful it was.

Behind them was Alun with a sad look to see Muezza stuck in his sister's arms. Just yesterday he met and sat down with Azmi. At that time in a lunar decapitation that appeared without shame, Azmi gave a message to Alun.

Such was Azmi's message that afternoon, the man also warned Alun not to give false hope to his daughter.

Alun circulated the gaze until his eyes were fixed on a little child with the glare of his eyes glowing grimly. Reaffirm to anyone that half of his soul died with the death of his father. The boy did not even care about Juwita hugging her father's body so tightly, as if not letting anyone take her father away.

"Alif .. Don't believe it! Poor Ommu." Even though Mulyadi tried to pull her, Juwita still shook her head.

Keep hugging Omnya's body that is getting colder, "Not want to run out of this Alif can not hug father again, Om."

"Look!'

"Whose sleeping excuse is Om? Who's Alif at school?" The boy cried loudly, inviting pity the various pairs of eyes that saw him so hurt.

Alif didn't lose a father, but he also lost a playmate. So without saying a word, the man carried Alif's body into his arms. Letting the niece spill all her grief there.

Mulyadi could only whisper softly, while her eyes looked straight at her sister-in-law. Hoping for a little miracle, maybe a pair of Azmi eyes could open again. So Mulyadi would run towards him, hugging him tighter than usual.

After minutes of silence with Gina beside him, Rahma chose to approach. The rubbing of Azmi's hair with blurry eyes, no more Azmi's distinctive fragrant aroma when Rahma kissed her forehead for a long time.

Short of hunting in the chest, but Rahma desperately displayed her sweetest smile. He could barely make a sound, all he could do was peck Azmi's cheek for a glance, then wipe her with a wail of tears.

Now no more whispering words seducing the promise of the man. No more a friendly meeting, that second also the cry of Rahma broke. He buried his face on Azmi's shoulder, though he knew Azmi could not hold her back and said that she would never leave.

This would probably be his last chance to be able to cling to that body. Before the ground embraced him in eternal loneliness. Before the steps start leaving him alone.

"Tell me! That this was just a nightmare and you wouldn't leave me alone .. Tell me that you've never gone away from me." whispered it was voiced by pain.

Rahma was clearly stupefied by the fact that she would wake up from a dream.

"He's gone, he's leaving us." Gina whispered with a stifled sobbing.

The woman also hoped this was only part of the nightmare, but the lifeless body of the real Azmi was before her. Watching in a long silence, how these people wept lamenting the departure

A weak Rahma now stood up while pointing at her husband's body and yelling at her sister-in-law.

"Tell your sister, brother! Get him up to hug me!" His unwillingness made his voice choke.

"Come on, tell him to get up!"

As everyone stared at Azmi's wife, suddenly a man entered with a thunderous cry. His arrival made Rahma angry and his eyes glared at that face, even Gina also stood up not to accept the footsteps of the man stepping on his sister's house.

"Go from here! Don't touch my husband's body!" his screams with a staggered voice.

The neighbors whispered about the newly arrived man.