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Chu Yana hugged Xi Yang. His heart was completely mourning. He also wanted to feel the slight burden that Xi Yang suffered. Although He had betrayed the man, his heart was for the man but his lust was for Yang Jie. He will love her until the end of his life.That is the love He has, they call it trance. When love is fully owned, the whole thing is to have the soul and body of the person he loves.

Although Chu Yana knew He had done something that would not be forgiven.

He wanted to hide it. He did not know how long the sin would be known to the man he loved most. But, He wanted to stand by Xi Yang's side, continuing to clasp XI Yang's hand, even until the last breath later.

"Why ...? Why didn't you tell me ..? Why not tell me, Uncle is dead ...? Why do you bear your own sorrow ...? Am I not your girlfriend?"

XI Yang's show smiled wryly. He didn't want to see this woman again.

She hated her, this woman gave her attention even after she pretended not to sin against her.

 Infidelity.

But hatred and revenge had consumed Xi Yang. He'll keep pretending he doesn't know anything, though, pretending not to feel anything and pretending there was no such great hatred for this girl because she wanted to cover the hole made by them.

The betrayal and the lies they create. The hole was not closed even if Xi Yang committed suicide. The hole was created from the possessive love she had, the woman she loved was only her own. He does not accept others receiving the love or even lust that the girl he loves has.

He hated to admit it, all kinds of feelings were misleading logic in his mind. It made it impossible to think he would become a demon. Create a painful scheme for the one he loves. The scheme he thought would cure the hole.

Yes ... That's right, I will forever pretend not to harbor anger, hatred, and all my vengeance on you I will continue to hide it.

I thought if you were honest and admitted to having an affair with Yang Jie, I think I'd forgive you; I think we'd start over if my love waned on you, I think, I'll learn to love you again, learn to forgive you.

Why are you still wearing a mask? Why are you still showing that expression?

That's a falsehood ...

I can't accept the falsehood you showed me, I hate it ...

I really hate her. Do you wear that mask until I'm crazy about the pretenses you have?

Are you waiting for me to say, "Witch I've caught you cheating on you with that bastard Yang Jie!"

Is that no longer the real thing we have?

We've been through years, months and days. Then why are you pretending?

Are you an actor who is good at pretending?

Xi Yang could not say it.

He still kept everything he felt, all his grudges, anger, jealousy and honesty.

He would pretend until Chu Yana took off the mask that hid all forms of treason that she had committed.

However, I see it a little painful that humans are truly selfish.

They were selfish in putting all sorts of feelings at their disposal, even when Adam was asked by God for the sin I meant by Eve.

Adam eventually blames Eve, saying that the woman God placed by his side was the one who persuaded him to eat the Good and Bad Fruit of Knowledge.

Adam's form of rejection is the Adam's mask, he wears the Beautiful mask; the mask is the saint's mask on the altar of the church.

The mask without sin. Rotten humans, they are selfish; they are greedy, and HE asks me to submit and not be envious of the privileges they get?

Has God gone mad?

Why am I not allowed to dominate all beings on this earth?

Why am I not responsible for heaven, land, and air?

Why would a human-like being have received such a blessing?

Why should I be cast out of Heaven, labeled a Devil when I am an angel loyal to Him?

Do I need to mislead the whole world?

 Proving to HIM that the creature He loves the most is the most disgusting, the dirtiest, and the least abominable.

I love and respect HIM as my father and creator, but why did He put me to sleep?

 I must mislead many people ...

Make people sell their faith ...

It makes them feel hell on earth. That's not fun ...

It hurts, I have to look at all kinds of tragedies I have made, all kinds of sad stories, all kinds of things that really make me cry ...

However, I was an angel labeled as a fallen Angel and they likened me to a demon.

She embarrassing? It makes me unable to shed tears .. Even tears cannot describe it.

The immortality that I had tormented, I was fed up with witnessing all kinds of tragedies that I made, all of these things made me afraid of the drama that I was making. Is my love for Him scary and painful for me?

"I'm sorry, baby ... I haven't thought for a few months ... Yeah ... You know, on my new campus there are too many tasks to be a burden. So, I don't have time to tell you. Sorry .... "

"Don't ... Don't lie, you're so bad at lying ... Tell the truth, express what you feel. About your heart, I want to know what you're feeling right now ..."

Chu Yana knew Xi Yang covered everything for her, but she did not know about all that she was covering was the feeling of hatred and disappointment that she had.

You even know I lied and asked me to be honest with you. Then, can I see it in you as well? I hate that pretense.

It will be a story the world does not have such a sad story as the story of Romeo And Juliet, the Story and the Screams of Anastasia Romanov, the Love Story of Napoleon Bonaparte, the Story of the Romance of Beethoven, there are many sad stories that I have seen so far.

The world will not have the first murder that Cain committed against Abel and other murders such as the Mad War committed by Adolf Hitler, the Korean War that separated one family, there would be no such thing if all humans were honest with all the feelings they had.

Xi's eyes turned red slowly. Tears slowly flowed from that place. However, he did not know at all, Did the tears hurt from the betrayal he felt? Or sick from Dad's death? He could not distinguish two things at all. In fact, it confused him about the pain he had. Humans cannot see their hearts at all.

Chu Yana hugged him, she rubbed Xi Yang's head. While Xi Yang was shedding tears without a sound, he did not know it was aimed at whether the tears were at the betrayal or misfortune that he was going through. But he still cries.

Despite that, Li Yuan's arm made him feel honest about everything he felt. But, Chu Yana, she saw many lies altogether. So, he gave another falsehood in hers as well.

Everyone becomes an actor in their life, they play dramas. Sometimes a drama is a drama about a villain, sometimes a drama is about a knight, they use drama so that others do not know the evil they have so that people do not see all the sins they have committed.

Since the heart is a special thing that God created for them, it is very secret and no one can see to that place. They could only read all sorts of things they saw from the expressions and eyes of others.

However, they cannot fully understand the content of what they call the heart.

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Then, the boy blushed his eyes. He seemed to hold back tears. He did not understand what adults were thinking at all. She doesn't understand why adults should pretend? He did not know because he had not seen this world completely.

He only saw this world from the fairy tales his mother had read to them, whether it was the story of Snow White, Cinderella, Mermaid, Aladin, Mulan and many other happy and happy stories. However, the story that the man had read was new to him.

However, he was curious about the story. So, he would continue to hear and observe the stories in his dreams.

"You want to cry, son?"

"No .. I don't want to cry ... Who's crying?"

The man just laughed a little. Then, look at a book at the child's study table. Then he took the book.

"Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs ... Do you like this story too?"

The boy nodded.

"Yes. I like this story. My mom used to read it to us before we went to bed ..."

The man nodded.

"This is a beautiful story you've made ... I don't think I want a story that makes you cry ..."

The boy shook his head, then with eyes looked at him.

"I don't mind .. I want to know everything. I want to know what people think, I want to know what people feel ... My sister wouldn't cry if I did something wrong with her. So, I can apologize if my actions are outrageous, so he will still like me. "

The man smiled strangely.

"Sis con?"

The boy just tilted his head. He did not understand the meaning of those words.

"Ha ha ... Forget my words, you might realize that once you grow up ... Aren't you made peace with your sister?"

The boy nodded.

"We have made peace .. but, He still keeps his distance from me ... He even hid a box of cereal that we kept secret for Mom, although we had promised to eat it together if Mom went to work later .. . "

It confused the man.

"Thus ... You want to be forgiven for the cereal box you promised to eat together or because you really love your sister?"

"Maybe this is more to the cereal box we're hiding. * Tehee":P

The boy said as he patted his own head like a scene in animes and manga.

[This kid is too innocent]

"OK .. I'll read it to you ..."

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