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Chu Yana still hugged Xi Yang tightly. Their bodies were like one, but the hearts of each person were separate. If only, the two people were honest, they might be able to start over. However, each plays their own role, a loyal lover.

Someone plays a role because of his hatred. Meanwhile, others play a loyal role despite having the fruit of sin because of betrayal. Who does not see the two people will look like a pair of lovers who are harmonious and filled with love.

However, I see both of those people as pretty con artists. A person who deceives by showing love even though he is cursed and angry. Meanwhile, the other person, was a big liar, considering himself innocent and flawless.

"Hubby.. I'm sorry ..."

(Author: hubby= husband, the two people call each other with the names Hubby and honey)

Chu Yana said, this is the truth of her words.

"I'm sorry..?"continued.

Chu Yana shook her head. In his mind he really wanted to take off all the masks he was wearing. He wanted to let go of the falsehood he had. But, he can't do it. Because the sin and betrayal he had had turned into a new life. It was the baby that was now in her womb. Things he didn't expect at all.

How can Xi Yang accept me?

How could I possibly say, I am pregnant and the father of the child is Yang Jie?

He'll hate me, I'm sure of it ...

I don't want Xi Yang to hate me, I want him to love me forever.

I want Xi Yang to forever be mine alone. He's mine even though I betrayed him.

However, Chu Yana was unaware, Xi Yang knew everything. He knew Chu Yana had betrayed him, he knew the sin that the girl had. That is why both people will continue to suffer. A person will suffer from hatred of betrayal and another will suffer because of the love and possession he has.

"I'm sorry .. I'm sorry for not being by your side .. I .. I ..."

Chu Yana's tears fell and dripped.

She really has a lot of deep regrets, but her regrets are not about things like she said, but the regretful girls have betrayed the love they had.

However, the girl could not be honest. Honesty would change everything that Chu Yana had, namely: the love Xi had for her. He doesn't want that.

"Don't say that, honey. I don't want to see you cry with your tears. I want you to smile, I want to see your sweet smile."

But those words are fake. Xi also had the same falsehood as the girl. He is an actor so talented at pretending that he looks like he doesn't know anything. He's good at acting like that.

"Hiks .. I really love you, don't disappear like that again ..."

Chu Yana sobbed, her eyes reddened. He wanted to say honesty, but he did not want to lose everything because of honesty. So, the girl continued to wear the mask. His love is something he fully possesses.

***

The two eventually made their way to a park not far from the faculty of business and economics, Zhengzhou University.

The park is not too crowded. There were only a few people there, whether it was a young couple or even an old man sitting down enjoying the view from the garden. It looks beautiful, most people would think so. There are flowers that bloom in spring, beautiful flowers also add to the beauty of the garden.

Chu Yana walked beside Xi Yang, the two of them holding hands. Or perhaps only Chu Yana seemed to be holding tightly onto Xi Yang's palm.

The people in the park always threw happy smiles, they saw that the two people were a very harmonious couple. Both men deserve to be lovers. In fact, an old man who was seen enjoying the scene seemed to be smiling warmly. He probably remembered fond memories like these two lovers.

"Honey, have you ever thought our love really makes people jealous ..?"

Xi said, he really acts as someone who knows nothing. The face of the lie I saw was beautiful. I have seen it from many people who have done so far. However, that man's face was the most beautiful face I had ever seen during the eternity I had.

"You think so ...?" Chu Yana said.

He may still feel his sin distanced their relationship. The distance made the girl doubtful. It made her even more afraid, the more afraid she was of losing Xi Yang.

"He he .. isn't that right?"

However, Chu Yana did not know at all. Everyone is a good actor. They played it perfectly.

***

They rest on park benches. It was a long wooden bench painted silver. Across the park bench was a small fountain, from their point of view, there were golden fish swimming here and there.

"Hey ... do you remember the goldfish we bought ...?" Ask Xi Yang.

Chu Yana nodded. He remembered the fish; it was a symbol of their love. But now the symbol is just a symbol.

"I think we should buy a new pair of fish ... So, he won't be lonely ... Don't you think like me?"

The goldfish ...

If I want to change everything like changing partners, like that fish. I will do so, Chu Yana. But, I really still hope for the honesty that you have. I still want to live with you.

But Xi could not say. The hatred he had, he couldn't do it. So, he could only say something like that in his mind. It makes everything clear, forgiving someone is still inferior to the hatred that every human heart has. Every human being is selfish. They cannot accept reality, they live in beautiful delusions.

Chu Yana hugged Xi tightly. He was like a kitten who did not want to be separated from his mother. She hugged Xi like she wanted Xi to stay by her side. He wanted to let go of the longing he had.

"Just leave the fish .. I don't want any new fish to replace the dead mate."Chu Yana said.

It was as if he thought if he was a dead fish; he wanted Xi to still love him. Because love is a possessive attitude towards this girl.

"Hubby .. weren't you angry with my words just now?"

Xi shook his head.

"No.. Why should I be angry?"

"Thank you, Lord.I thought you would hate me .." Chu Yana said in relief.

Xi smiled. The smile was sincere as everyone saw it. But, I was different, I saw that it was the most painful smile I have seen so far. Fake smile.

"I wouldn't hate you for it .. In fact, if anything could get me killed .. I don't hate you, because I love you ..."

Xi said loudly as he stood up. He stretched out both his hands. He announced the beautiful falsehood in the world. Only I can see it. This falsehood deceives many people.

"Don't embarrass me .. stop, Baka ..." Chu Yana blushed. He was ashamed of what Xi Yang did. So, he pulled Xi's hand, then asked her to bow.

"I know .. I know .. don't make people look here ..."

"Why should you be ashamed? Let people see us. Let them be jealous," Xi said as his face approached Chu Yana. His eyes looked deeply into the girl's eyes.

The faces of the two men were only 3 centimeters apart. Close enough, so their facial skin could feel their breath.

Brought about by the situation Chu Yana kissed Xi's lips, she pressed her red, sinful lips together. He did this to treat the longing he had. Chu Yana's tongue wandered inside Xi's mouth, trying to find her lover's tongue to welcome her warmth.

Disgusting ...

You're repulsive. Stop doing that, don't put your dirty lips in my mouth. No, use your tongue.

Realize your mistake ...

I don't want the same lips you gave to Yang Jie that you used to kiss. Stop, ******.

However, Xi only cursed in his mind. He was an actor, so he had to get dirty lips

***

There is nothing bad and nothing disgusting except kissing a traitor in a fake smile.