Pursuing the Love of Mr. Ling
185. Night Ride
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Perih and pain seemed to always accompany Ailee at all times. Only those two flavors never left him. Unlike the people he cared about, they always went without saying goodbye and came without being invited. Ailee was tired. He can't hold himself anymore. He did not want his old self to come back. But pressure after pressure always approached him. Ailee had tried her hardest not to do it again, but it felt uncomfortable if she did not feel any pain in her physique.
Ailee does have self-harm, only she knows if she has the mental disorder. No one knows even his parents. Ailee was not deeply traumatized. It's just that it all starts from the pain and disappointment that people give. At first Ailee just try it, but from that he seemed to get something that could make him vent his pain and disappointment.
Ailee smiled looking at the five cutter incisions above her thighs. Ailee didn't do it on hand because it was too exposed. Some people consider what Ailee did to be taboo. But they don't know what it's like to be in Ailee's position.
"Gue has to see Ethan. But I don't want to be lectured again" said Ailee slowly. He does look ordinary even looks very normal, but far from it all Ailee is a person who has a mental disorder. Not crazy. His mental disorder only hurt himself.
"Wouldn't it hurt me if I hurt myself? People just want to hurt me," said Ailee.
The girl got up from the bed and walked over to change her clothes. The sky outside had turned dark, but it was still a little afternoon and not too late. Ailee changed her clothes, without bathing let alone make up. Bare faces are common on Ailee's face. Ailee wears levis pants as well as a crop top tang t-shirt printing her upper body. He wrapped his crop top shirt with a levis jacket. Ailee tied her hair and took the keys to her favorite motorcycle.
The motor is the motor that he used in the circuit. Establishing the circuit was indeed Ailee's reason so that she could vent her emotions at the race. Driving fast even out of bounds, passing the likeness of his elbow road. It could all make him slightly temper his emotions.
Ailee left her house. Either go home again or stay at the circuit, either at the SBA house. He even left his phone. He doesn't need that flat object. For what reason, he did not have someone who would contact him.
Meanwhile, at the Kavinder residence. Kalingga is only an alibi if he is going to meet other women besides Ailee. He was actually very sleepy to see his girl upset and hurt. But Kalingga deliberately did so that Ailee would no longer repeat the word break up. Kalingga is not very fond of.
People blame him for looking like he hurt Ailee. Though actually he did not hurt Ailee, it was Ailee who hurt him by asking him to break up. Until whenever Kalingga will not want to break up with Ailee.
Kalingga is deliberately alibi because he has to learn a business project that he will hold. Surely still under Kavin's supervision, the papi. Since returning home, Kalingga has been silent in his papa office. He only comes out when he eats. Many times Kalingga checked his phone, he thought there would be a notification from Ailee. But it turns out there isn't. Was the girl angry because of her attitude?
"Phone once, kangen kok in the pendem," said Kavin intend to quip.
"That's not coming out?" Ask Kalingga.
"Get out, bring a potential ghost here. Have dinner together" said Kavin.
"OK," said Kalingga. He could not linger long waiting for Ailee to contact him. It seems there will be no intention of the girl contacting him. Kalingga will meet him and kidnap him to his house. His alibi stayed and slept in Briella's room. But tonight she'll make sure Ailee sleeps with him.
Kalingga took the keys and rushed out of the house. He went to his garage and rode his motorcycle to Ailee's house. It looks like the girl is sleeping. The proof is that his phone was not picked up by the girl.
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Ailee quickly got to the circuit. When he got there, he went down to the arena. No one is racing, he did ask the circuit to close it tonight. Because Ailee wants to use it. Three laps Ailee had passed smoothly. There was no obstacle of anything, even he drove his bike quickly. Richi, William and Willem noticed. The ailer is never like that, the difference when something is interfering with his mind. Ailee will definitely vent it on the race.
"He's complicated, that's what Max calls bang" Richi said.
"Queen is happy as it seems, but we don't know what life is really like. He's really hiding a problem" Willem said.
"That's right" said William.
Brum...
The three of them were instantly silent as Ailee stopped in front of the three. Ailee turned off the engine but did not get off.
"Gue go back first" said Ailee.
"We're anther," said Richi.
"No. I can do it myself, I can defend myself, you don't have to worry. I want a night ride" said Ailee.
"Be careful" said Richi.
"Take care of yourself" said Willem.
"Tomorrow anterine brothers eat," said William.
Ailee only nodded at a glance. He was lazy to argue with William. The man always teased her, and Ailee was used to it. Ailee went back on her bike. Either heading to where it was clear he just wanted to forget about his current problem. He had no interest in anything, let alone meeting Kalingga. He was still heartbroken, Kalingga chose to meet another woman instead of being with him.
"Gue didn't want to break up with Kalingga, but I can't pull you off anymore. You've distracted my talk earlier," said Ailee slowly.
Sorry, he regretted saying that. But how else, everything has happened and he can't do anything else. He could only remain silent while waiting for Kalingga's decision. There was actually no need to wait, Ailee just needed to be self-conscious and get away from the man's life. From the beginning Kalingga did not look really serious. He accepted Ailee just out of lust, perhaps.
Far enough Ailee walked, until she stopped at a deserted park. There's no one here. This park is like being on a hill. Ailee got off her bike and walked forward. The moonlight tonight shone quite brightly.
"Kangen mas Ling" murmured Ailee softly. The girl closed her eyes, enjoying the breeze of the night that hit her face.
Tbc.