Pursuing the Love of Mr. Ling
20. Disillusioned
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Although the happiness that alighted Ailee's life was always an instant, at least Ailee felt grateful. God still gave him a glimmer of happiness behind the sadness he always had in the last few days. Not that Ailee does not want to accept the sadness, just why the sadness and thoughts over always come together. Inevitably Ailee always looks for ways to forget a little bit of sadness and overthinking it even though sometimes the way by hurting herself.
Being an only child requires him to do what he does himself. It might even be since infancy if there was no Magi Ailee it was definitely given to the orphanage. Cruel indeed, but that was Ailee's mind long ago.
Ever since he knew Kalingga, it felt like he found a little happiness. Although the feedback given by Kalingga was never good, but Ailee never responded even though sometimes her heart felt pain.
"Take your medicine" said Kalingga.
"Yes. Thank you very much Ling" said Ailee.
"Hm."
Ailee smiled at Kalingga's response. He grabbed the medicine next to the table where he stored food and drinks for Ailee. Total cure ads four. I don't know what this drug is.
"The medicine is as big as anjir's elephant" murmured Ailee. He glanced at Kalingga. The sharp eyes of the man seemed to be forcing him to quickly take the drug. Ailee was forced to drink it. If it wasn't Kalingga, maybe Ailee would have turned it down.
"Why isn't your family keeping you here? Why should my family bother?" Kalingga asked when Ailee had finished taking the medicine.
"family? They might be here if they're spitting. Sorry if with Ailee kayak gini for your family to bother. But other than your family, no one seems to care. I envy the three of you, but how else. The family you mean is different from my family Ling. My family looks intact, but not in it," said Ailee. His eyes looked towards the sky. If only Ling could see the look on Ailee's face and the meaning of her words, perhaps she would understand just as Ailee had survived all this time.
"Thank you for taking me to the bathroom with my bribe. You can go home now Ling, say the same Kairav Rixel also they do not need to come here, like mama same papi want to come here," continued Ailee. His eyes stared at Kalingga who was holding his chest in his direction.
"okay."
No other words besides that. The tall, flat-faced man walked out of Ailee's room leaving the girl alone. Kairav and Rixel have been home since an hour ago.
Ailee stared at Kalingga's departure. Actually he wanted to be accompanied, but hearing Kalingga's words made him think. True, his presence in the Kalingga family is just a burden.
Aille turned her body tilted. He covered his entire body with a thick blanket that he had been wearing since. Ailee crying. Again and again he had to cry and bear his burden alone. It felt like Ailee wanted to say that she was not strong enough to live this life. There is no encouragement other than himself. If asked why Ailee still survives to this day, the answer is only one. Ailee survives for herself and possibly for Kalingga.
While outside the room, Kalingga has not yet returned home. He decided to stay here one night. Kairav had sent him a message, inevitably Lingga here, for all his facilities so as not to be confiscated by his papa.
Kalingga leaned his head against the wall behind him. He closed his eyes with both hands in front of his chest.
"Uncle, Lingga again keep Ailee here," said Ling.
"Why not in Dalem? There's a sofa there. If we want to sleep in the safe with Ailee. The safe is big" said Ardian.
"Deliver. The Lingga sleeps here. If only papi did not threaten to confiscate Ling facilities, maybe Ling would not want to keep him here. It's a burden of ngerepotin again," said Kalingga made Ardian chuckle.
"You hate someone, don't hate them. What if it turns into love? You know the story of Rafello as Ayu. It's real Ling, uncle just warns you," said Ardian made Lingga speechless.
"You have to go home first" he continued.
"Heart is uncle" said Lingga. Ardian only nodded at a glance.
After Ardian died, Lingga could not sleep in this position. He was forced to enter Ailee's ward and enter another room with a mattress to sleep in. This room is designed for families who stay or stay awake.
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Sayup Ling heard some talk from some people. Where, maybe it was just his feelings? Ling tried to go back to sleep but could not. The conversation was disturbing him even more. In a fit of annoyance he opened his eyes. He glanced at the circular clock in his hand, only three o'clock in the morning.
Ling got up from his sleep and walked out to check on him. But the movement of his hand came to a halt on the doorknob when he heard a loud enough conversation from outside this room.
"But you know you're disappointed, but it's for your own good. Move to Germany with papi so that papi can always see you" said Alex.
"Mama also agreed, baby, tonight we leave," said Cya.
"Can you guarantee that in Germany you won't be late for work and even decide not to go home? If the same thing would be like that what's the difference?" Ailee.
Ailee who was just about to fall asleep again was disturbed by the actions of her parents who arrived and forced her to go to Germany at this time.
"We work for you Ailee, try to understand" Alex said.
"So for eighteen years Ailee has been lacking? Not otherwise? It turns out that what Ailee thought all along was true, you never really loved Ailee. Where were you when Ailee needed it? Nothing, the reason is simple but fun. Busy work, important meetings, business trips and much more" Ailee said, leaving her parents silent.
"Pope papi and mama will go home when Ailee goes to class or graduation. But where is the evidence? Even only Magi who always come or papi man who comes. I've had enough pi, ma, all this time Ailee has always believed in you guys. But with this incident, you forced Ailee to leave altogether making Ailee disappointed with you. If you want to go please, Ailee can take care of herself without you. Someone still cares about Ailee. Whether it's Kavin's family or Magi. Your presence is never even Ailee's looking forward to."
Tbc.